sigh.
Babe-Break!
Keep on keeping on.
The more time I spend with my camera, the more I realize that I am still just learning. It's still frustrating to want something I'm not getting. I need an off-camera flash so, so badly. No kidding. All my show pictures are so grainy because I'm shooting 1600 stylez at like 1/30 to get enough light in that mother.
whatever. still learning. still good eye, still keeping at 'er, etc.
Things are already beginning to calm down. Which seems weird since I have tech run today and then we open on Wednesday. But I'm done working for a bit, whoa, a week and a half apparently. So hot. And I made a bit of money (never enough) at the dome this weekend so maybe I won't be starving on the streets.. maybe.
Oh my god I'm making hashbrowns (whatever, cleanse, I can have oil and potatoes.. so...) and they look seriously spectacular. It's the spices. Hungry hungry hungry.
So good.
I totally had a couple of drinks last night! Ahahaahah I am so bad at cleansing. Whatever I didn't even have mix.. just water so there. Best thing about cleanse - cheap drunk.
I think I'm planning to stay off wheat for another week at least (maybe life) to see if I continue to feel pretty great. But I love beer. And I do not love Budweiser.
Fun fun show at Wavelength at Sneaky Dee's last night. Weirdest bill - Wordburglar then Entire Cities (I didn't make it for the first band).
Review soon! I promise (maybe)!
I can't believe it's tech run already. First time in the venue.. the play is looking good though. Better and better. By Wednesday we should kill it.
No sign yet of my eternal performance-cold.. but I'm sure it's en route.
I hate being sick during performances.
My irritability seemed to lift about half way through yesterday. I'm hoping it never returns.
Flickr's being a pain. Looks like you get to wait for photes.
6.30.2008
6.29.2008
more sushi plssssss
Holy holy no updateskies sorry sorry
Yikes. I'm so excited for when my life gets way less busy. Which will be in a couple of weeks? Hopefully?
Maybe sooner, when all I have to concentrate on is fringing.
Too much working/socializing/rehearsing/cleansing
sta-ressss-in me out man
Don't worry though because I'm feeling like I'm about to have an outpouring of creativity. Soon. At some point.
I have many ideas, I just need to implement, fruition-ize.
Seriously people at skydome, learn to tip! I don't even make minimum wage! How will I make rent? Waiting for your quarter change? srsly?
Been downright irritable the past couple of days. Hitting the point in the cleanse where I can't remember what in hell made me get into this mess and why I would be doing it at all.
Just feeling very deserving of treats and very close to cheating every few minutes. And just angry about having to do it. Not fun.
Hopefully this feeling ends soon. Tomorrow maybe.
Gotta make it til Thursday. God dammit.
Also worrying about the fringe.. the play will be good, funny, etc. You should come see it.
But I think it could be better.
And spending that much time with anyone is hard.. and you know me.. not good at people. We are all completely different types of personalities and trying to work them all together is hard work. Obviously.
It has made me really want to do more theatre though. And do it well. And work hard at (I should learn those skills someday, at least).
Also, going through and giving the girls feedback the other day (there's a huge chunk in the middle that I'm not in so I feel like I have a bit of perspective..) made me miss being a director. I love bossing!
I'm the bossiest boss ever. Especially lately. Lately all I do is boss. And criticize. I am pleasure to be around!
People love me.
I need to start reviewing things. So badly. I do have opinions and thoughts on a bunch of stuff. Need to start getting it out of my head.
Went to see Young People Fucking last night, definite thoughts on that. (Like not enough D, etc)
And Pu-Erh tonight at the Fu-Gen Festival, even more thoughts there, maybe.
After the play we went for sushi and I could eat it even so there! First time eating out in days! Very unlike my usual lifestylez. My friend is on a for-life diet plan that restricts her eating many of the same things. It's nice to have buds in the same boat.
I think I'm going to stay off wheat for a few more days at least, I'm feeling that it might be a problem for me.
Hey guys. I'm having hair issues. Like, so, I love my hair, right? Especially since it stopped being that horrendous shade of bright red/purple and toned down to look more natural.. but it does look pretty nice when it's darker red. But lighter is nice for summer... I'm torn!
I think I mostly want it like it is in this picture:
But that colour is so hard to keep! Unless you're like that babe next to me and it's real.
Thoughts???
Oh, also,
a mouse JUMPED ON MY HEAD today
I screamed.
I was chasing him a bit and I think he must have ran up the curtain and launched himself onto my head! He seemed to come out of nowhere! Terrifying!
My life sucks.
Oh yeah, and this time around they're eating the peanut butter (and cheese and hummus and whatever else I have) right off the traps! I have no idea how they're wrangling, but I hate them. I hate them!!!
Yikes. I'm so excited for when my life gets way less busy. Which will be in a couple of weeks? Hopefully?
Maybe sooner, when all I have to concentrate on is fringing.
Too much working/socializing/rehearsing/cleansing
sta-ressss-in me out man
Don't worry though because I'm feeling like I'm about to have an outpouring of creativity. Soon. At some point.
I have many ideas, I just need to implement, fruition-ize.
Seriously people at skydome, learn to tip! I don't even make minimum wage! How will I make rent? Waiting for your quarter change? srsly?
Been downright irritable the past couple of days. Hitting the point in the cleanse where I can't remember what in hell made me get into this mess and why I would be doing it at all.
Just feeling very deserving of treats and very close to cheating every few minutes. And just angry about having to do it. Not fun.
Hopefully this feeling ends soon. Tomorrow maybe.
Gotta make it til Thursday. God dammit.
Also worrying about the fringe.. the play will be good, funny, etc. You should come see it.
But I think it could be better.
And spending that much time with anyone is hard.. and you know me.. not good at people. We are all completely different types of personalities and trying to work them all together is hard work. Obviously.
It has made me really want to do more theatre though. And do it well. And work hard at (I should learn those skills someday, at least).
Also, going through and giving the girls feedback the other day (there's a huge chunk in the middle that I'm not in so I feel like I have a bit of perspective..) made me miss being a director. I love bossing!
I'm the bossiest boss ever. Especially lately. Lately all I do is boss. And criticize. I am pleasure to be around!
People love me.
I need to start reviewing things. So badly. I do have opinions and thoughts on a bunch of stuff. Need to start getting it out of my head.
Went to see Young People Fucking last night, definite thoughts on that. (Like not enough D, etc)
And Pu-Erh tonight at the Fu-Gen Festival, even more thoughts there, maybe.
After the play we went for sushi and I could eat it even so there! First time eating out in days! Very unlike my usual lifestylez. My friend is on a for-life diet plan that restricts her eating many of the same things. It's nice to have buds in the same boat.
I think I'm going to stay off wheat for a few more days at least, I'm feeling that it might be a problem for me.
Hey guys. I'm having hair issues. Like, so, I love my hair, right? Especially since it stopped being that horrendous shade of bright red/purple and toned down to look more natural.. but it does look pretty nice when it's darker red. But lighter is nice for summer... I'm torn!
I think I mostly want it like it is in this picture:
But that colour is so hard to keep! Unless you're like that babe next to me and it's real.
Thoughts???
Oh, also,
a mouse JUMPED ON MY HEAD today
I screamed.
I was chasing him a bit and I think he must have ran up the curtain and launched himself onto my head! He seemed to come out of nowhere! Terrifying!
My life sucks.
Oh yeah, and this time around they're eating the peanut butter (and cheese and hummus and whatever else I have) right off the traps! I have no idea how they're wrangling, but I hate them. I hate them!!!
6.27.2008
the bars are still open, even
I feel like I came home early tonight but it was actually after midnight.. and that's not early for most people.
I still love my lifestyle.
Still feeling pretty awesome, gotta say. A little upset that wheat or sugar or both might be playing a much smaller role in my life from this point onwards.
Rehearsed today in a big space for the first time. In costumes, with props. Makes all the difference.
I was told that I am much, much better off book "like night and day".
That hurt my feelings briefly until I realized that I was actually just pretty upset with myself for being such a bad worker. I have no discipline and I am LAZY.
Not that any of us have been on it with this play, we really are having to work to step it right up for performances next week. But still.
She's right, too. I am much better. I feel like I am bringing so much more to my character with every new line. If I had started this weeks ago, you'd be in for a wild treat.
But as it is it's going to be pretty funny, I'd bet.
It's easy to be lazy with film. They'll just cut. You don't actually need to know your lines at all. Because you only have to do a few of them at a time...
I'm tiredtiredtired all of a sudden. But today I woke up before my alarm. Which basically never happens unless my alarm is set for 1.
Apparently wheat exhausts you, who knew?
I still love my lifestyle.
Still feeling pretty awesome, gotta say. A little upset that wheat or sugar or both might be playing a much smaller role in my life from this point onwards.
Rehearsed today in a big space for the first time. In costumes, with props. Makes all the difference.
I was told that I am much, much better off book "like night and day".
That hurt my feelings briefly until I realized that I was actually just pretty upset with myself for being such a bad worker. I have no discipline and I am LAZY.
Not that any of us have been on it with this play, we really are having to work to step it right up for performances next week. But still.
She's right, too. I am much better. I feel like I am bringing so much more to my character with every new line. If I had started this weeks ago, you'd be in for a wild treat.
But as it is it's going to be pretty funny, I'd bet.
It's easy to be lazy with film. They'll just cut. You don't actually need to know your lines at all. Because you only have to do a few of them at a time...
I'm tiredtiredtired all of a sudden. But today I woke up before my alarm. Which basically never happens unless my alarm is set for 1.
Apparently wheat exhausts you, who knew?
6.26.2008
aw no no no no no no times
Turns out I can have fun sober!
I mean, I know that I used to be able to, but it's a nice reassurance. Dollface pointed out that I act the same either way. Too true, my friend.
I told my bartending friend last night that I could baby-sit for him, then I told him that next time I'd tip him for my drinks in cocaine, then as I was leaving I said "don't worry I'm RESPONSIBLE. all. the. time."
He was nice, let me eat my bean salad and not buy anything. It's okay because that Dollface can drink enough for both of us. SEX PANTHER ALE
Video from Sass from the Jesse Landen Band show last night (fine they're still called Born to Busk but I don't know why).
Mostly good because of my mad dance skillz, and I think the end is the best part. I should be on TV. Oh, wait. I am.
I like it better when he sings this song high up. Just in case anyone cares what I think.
I have so much to say and absolutely no time to write it!
"Has anyone ever told you that you look like that girl from that commercial...?"
"No, I am much MUCH prettier than her!!!"
I had such a fun time at work yesterday. Sometimes I get in really great work-moods where every beer-drinker is my best friend and all my customers take well to being made fun of.. then I remember how much I like my job.
Rehearsal reahearsal rehearsal rehearsl afhrahahlalsal
I am out and about for usually 14 hours these days! Not enough hours in the day. Needless to say, my afternoon naps have fallen by the wayside. But I haven't been too tired. And never hung over.
Um. I kind of think I'm feeling better and better each day of this cleanse?
I'm also not a horrendously tired anymore, and fairly naturally happy, despite no caffeine and no sugar. Pretty wild.
Also, how was I supposed to know that couscous is made with wheat, that it's not a sort of grain or rice product? Hmm???
Well. I didn't eat very much of it so WHATEVERS.
I mean, I know that I used to be able to, but it's a nice reassurance. Dollface pointed out that I act the same either way. Too true, my friend.
I told my bartending friend last night that I could baby-sit for him, then I told him that next time I'd tip him for my drinks in cocaine, then as I was leaving I said "don't worry I'm RESPONSIBLE. all. the. time."
He was nice, let me eat my bean salad and not buy anything. It's okay because that Dollface can drink enough for both of us. SEX PANTHER ALE
Video from Sass from the Jesse Landen Band show last night (fine they're still called Born to Busk but I don't know why).
Mostly good because of my mad dance skillz, and I think the end is the best part. I should be on TV. Oh, wait. I am.
I like it better when he sings this song high up. Just in case anyone cares what I think.
I have so much to say and absolutely no time to write it!
"Has anyone ever told you that you look like that girl from that commercial...?"
"No, I am much MUCH prettier than her!!!"
I had such a fun time at work yesterday. Sometimes I get in really great work-moods where every beer-drinker is my best friend and all my customers take well to being made fun of.. then I remember how much I like my job.
Rehearsal reahearsal rehearsal rehearsl afhrahahlalsal
I am out and about for usually 14 hours these days! Not enough hours in the day. Needless to say, my afternoon naps have fallen by the wayside. But I haven't been too tired. And never hung over.
Um. I kind of think I'm feeling better and better each day of this cleanse?
I'm also not a horrendously tired anymore, and fairly naturally happy, despite no caffeine and no sugar. Pretty wild.
Also, how was I supposed to know that couscous is made with wheat, that it's not a sort of grain or rice product? Hmm???
Well. I didn't eat very much of it so WHATEVERS.
6.25.2008
Dear anywho who wants to do a cleanse,
I recommend you stay in your house and lock the doors.
Oh the world is so full of tasty things that I am not allowed to have! Everyone else this evening got to have beers! Luckies!
I tried to make my friend describe the taste to me.
She wouldn't.
I gave people some of my seeds, nuts, and carrots. I'm a sharer and a carer.
Oh good lord how pizza sounds like the best idea in the world. I was actually fine until I went to work today. The skydome is the most inhospitable place on earth for healthy eating of any kind. It's remarkable, really.
I am strong though, and my belly has been feeling really great these past couple of days (knock wood) not swollen as it usually is, not constantly painful.
We'll see, maybe I will yet become a fantastic eater!
Oh the world is so full of tasty things that I am not allowed to have! Everyone else this evening got to have beers! Luckies!
I tried to make my friend describe the taste to me.
She wouldn't.
I gave people some of my seeds, nuts, and carrots. I'm a sharer and a carer.
Oh good lord how pizza sounds like the best idea in the world. I was actually fine until I went to work today. The skydome is the most inhospitable place on earth for healthy eating of any kind. It's remarkable, really.
I am strong though, and my belly has been feeling really great these past couple of days (knock wood) not swollen as it usually is, not constantly painful.
We'll see, maybe I will yet become a fantastic eater!
6.24.2008
lovelovelovelovelove DIAMONDS!!!
Dreamt last night that I had an engagement ring.
A giant diamond ring. A really expensive diamond ring.
I was pretty overly-pleased about it. Kind of sickeningly. And even more so what it signified!
Look! True Love! True Love on my finger!!! Look at this commitment, this devotion! To me!
The problem was that I couldn't figure out who had given it to me. I wandered around showing off my diamonds but couldn't remember who the mystery man was. Luckily all my friends and family seemed to know.
I couldn't escape the idea that it was someone I'd already been involved with.
Well, I do have a penchant for recycling...
And also for picking babes that are like other babes... But no one I've been involved with could afford such lovely diamonds.. nor would they choose me to buy them for.
Mumma always says, "it's as easy to love a rich man as it is to love a poor man"
So far, I have not found that to be the case.
Oh wait, I'm incapable of loving. Shit.
I think all these wedding thoughts are all my friends' faults, stupid all of yous getting engaged and married and shit. And my cousin, whose wedding photos I was looking at yesterday. A country wedding would maybe be nice... in the winter... with lots of Christmas lights... and a sleigh... and lace and ribbon and diamonds and sparkles and and and and and
I don't know what's wrong with me!
Mum got me these two cats that sit on top of my monitor. They are cutecutecute, I don't care what you say.
Please someone lend me all their kittens. I love them so much.
p.s. - I can't figure out where my top photo went.. it says it's still there, but it is not! It happened after Haloscan came into the picture
A giant diamond ring. A really expensive diamond ring.
I was pretty overly-pleased about it. Kind of sickeningly. And even more so what it signified!
Look! True Love! True Love on my finger!!! Look at this commitment, this devotion! To me!
The problem was that I couldn't figure out who had given it to me. I wandered around showing off my diamonds but couldn't remember who the mystery man was. Luckily all my friends and family seemed to know.
I couldn't escape the idea that it was someone I'd already been involved with.
Well, I do have a penchant for recycling...
And also for picking babes that are like other babes... But no one I've been involved with could afford such lovely diamonds.. nor would they choose me to buy them for.
Mumma always says, "it's as easy to love a rich man as it is to love a poor man"
So far, I have not found that to be the case.
Oh wait, I'm incapable of loving. Shit.
I think all these wedding thoughts are all my friends' faults, stupid all of yous getting engaged and married and shit. And my cousin, whose wedding photos I was looking at yesterday. A country wedding would maybe be nice... in the winter... with lots of Christmas lights... and a sleigh... and lace and ribbon and diamonds and sparkles and and and and and
I don't know what's wrong with me!
Mum got me these two cats that sit on top of my monitor. They are cutecutecute, I don't care what you say.
Please someone lend me all their kittens. I love them so much.
p.s. - I can't figure out where my top photo went.. it says it's still there, but it is not! It happened after Haloscan came into the picture
6.23.2008
figures
So, my first film audition in awhile and guess what the part is!!???
A fat girl!
Okay, so not fat exactly - "less than svelte and not a little imposing"
HAVE YOU EVER MET ME?
Okay, so I guess some of you actually, technically, haven't.
5'1 (and a half I guess)
117 pounds (I don't actually own a scale, but last time I weighed myself, it was around there)
Oh yeah, the character is also a lesbian, and an action star fighter-girl.................
There's something remarkably freeing about going out for a part that I have no hopes of getting.
Usually when it's a big American movie all of these parts have actually been cast already, but under ACTRA guidelines (or something) they have to audition a certain amount of local performers. I feel like casting directors use these opportunities just to see people - it has little to do with the actual character being cast, and more with who they feel like having a look at.
But that's just a theory.
Still on my cleanse.. I had a nap this afternoon (surprise) and I dreamt almost entirely of eating sugar. I kept accidentally eating it and then feeling really guilty and then eating more and more and more sugar.
I'm not actually that crave-y in real life, but I am pretty heartily addicted to sugar.
I'm living off strawberries and off apple slices with almond butter. Yeah huh.
Oh yeah, also, I'm off coffee for the next little bit. It was fun being addicted to it for awhile there, but now it's time to go back to it giving me that Ultimate High every one in awhile. I'm tired.
I'm still feeling pretty shitty so it's okay if I share this self-indulgent story.
My cousin's wedding took place in Waseca, Sask. this weekend, and I didn't get to go because I'm stuck all up in this big smoke, living the dream, etc. But one of my girl-cousins told my mum this story:
Her boyfriend and her are watching TV and the ice breakers commercial comes on and her boyfriend says "Oh, there's that girl" and my cousin is like "what do you mean?" and he says "well the guys all think she's hot" (and by "guys" he means the military firefighters he works with!!) and then my cousin is all "That's my cousin!"
So. In conclusion, you know who I'm big with?
Firefighters
Asians (I know this because of plentyoffish and because Sass is totally always trying to hit this)
17-year-old boys
It's funny because I don't even look particularly hot in that ad, Mum says it's because I look approachable. Like I wouldn't shut them down. Which is kind of hilarious since I am quite the opposite in real life. I have so ridiculously little patience for idiot-babes being idiots. Especially if the idiocy involves hitting on me.
No, jk, babes! Hit on me!
Well, in 12 days anyhow. When I've cleansed myself and become a born-again virgin.
Ew.
A fat girl!
Okay, so not fat exactly - "less than svelte and not a little imposing"
HAVE YOU EVER MET ME?
Okay, so I guess some of you actually, technically, haven't.
5'1 (and a half I guess)
117 pounds (I don't actually own a scale, but last time I weighed myself, it was around there)
Oh yeah, the character is also a lesbian, and an action star fighter-girl.................
There's something remarkably freeing about going out for a part that I have no hopes of getting.
Usually when it's a big American movie all of these parts have actually been cast already, but under ACTRA guidelines (or something) they have to audition a certain amount of local performers. I feel like casting directors use these opportunities just to see people - it has little to do with the actual character being cast, and more with who they feel like having a look at.
But that's just a theory.
Still on my cleanse.. I had a nap this afternoon (surprise) and I dreamt almost entirely of eating sugar. I kept accidentally eating it and then feeling really guilty and then eating more and more and more sugar.
I'm not actually that crave-y in real life, but I am pretty heartily addicted to sugar.
I'm living off strawberries and off apple slices with almond butter. Yeah huh.
Oh yeah, also, I'm off coffee for the next little bit. It was fun being addicted to it for awhile there, but now it's time to go back to it giving me that Ultimate High every one in awhile. I'm tired.
I'm still feeling pretty shitty so it's okay if I share this self-indulgent story.
My cousin's wedding took place in Waseca, Sask. this weekend, and I didn't get to go because I'm stuck all up in this big smoke, living the dream, etc. But one of my girl-cousins told my mum this story:
Her boyfriend and her are watching TV and the ice breakers commercial comes on and her boyfriend says "Oh, there's that girl" and my cousin is like "what do you mean?" and he says "well the guys all think she's hot" (and by "guys" he means the military firefighters he works with!!) and then my cousin is all "That's my cousin!"
So. In conclusion, you know who I'm big with?
Firefighters
Asians (I know this because of plentyoffish and because Sass is totally always trying to hit this)
17-year-old boys
It's funny because I don't even look particularly hot in that ad, Mum says it's because I look approachable. Like I wouldn't shut them down. Which is kind of hilarious since I am quite the opposite in real life. I have so ridiculously little patience for idiot-babes being idiots. Especially if the idiocy involves hitting on me.
No, jk, babes! Hit on me!
Well, in 12 days anyhow. When I've cleansed myself and become a born-again virgin.
Ew.
6.22.2008
beyond yay
Oh thanks, cleanse, I really wanted to be up all night barfing! Yay!
So. My body is fucked.
You know how to get through spells of illness?
Sleep for five hours all through the afternoon, then watch as many episodes of Veronica Mars on the internet as possible.
Veronica Mars is such, such a good show. I don't even care if you don't like it. Because it's still good.
Okay.
I have to go lie down again.
Review of the Elliott Brood CD release to come, maybe. I think I have some things to say about it, I'll check.
So. My body is fucked.
You know how to get through spells of illness?
Sleep for five hours all through the afternoon, then watch as many episodes of Veronica Mars on the internet as possible.
Veronica Mars is such, such a good show. I don't even care if you don't like it. Because it's still good.
Okay.
I have to go lie down again.
Review of the Elliott Brood CD release to come, maybe. I think I have some things to say about it, I'll check.
6.21.2008
good-bye flava
Holy lord why do salt and sugar make everything taste oh-so much better?
And why can't I have them!?
So. I must have completely 100% lost my mind.
It's official.
Whilst doing this food cleanse I am also giving up for the next 12 days:
1) alcohol (Mostly, anyhow. Obviously this should go hand-in-hand with the cleanse and I am dangerously close to feeling alcohol dependent, so I could use a break. )
2) cigarettes (I have never been addicted to these buggers, but they sure do show up in my mouth a lot)
3) babes (Once I told my friend, "you have too many babes. Even if the right one was in there somewhere, you wouldn't be able to find him".. I have never taken my own advice. And even though I specifically said that I do not want a repeat of last summer, that is exactly what seems to be happening.. )
I know.
Holy am I going to be a terror.
No, probably not though.
This particular cleanse - Wild Rose Herbal D-Tox is fairly straight-forward. There's herbal supplements and a tincture, and then a food plan. And I can eat as much as I want/need, just only of certain foods.
Hopefully, upon completing the cleanse I will gradually re-introduce possible allergens and see if maybe some of my lethargy/spaciness/headaches/belly-pains are food related.
Wheat is a big one I'm going to look at, as well as yeast and fermentation. And I def have dairy issues, so we'll see how I fare off of that business.
(Oh lord, please don't make me give up cheeeeeses!)
In other news, I think I cured my cold. Or I'm saving it up for when I go onstage next week (I've never done a play without getting sick).
Meredith R. Mistletoe's cure for the common cold (horrendously sore throat): Party All The Time
Now it's time for my regular afternoon nap.
And why can't I have them!?
So. I must have completely 100% lost my mind.
It's official.
Whilst doing this food cleanse I am also giving up for the next 12 days:
1) alcohol (Mostly, anyhow. Obviously this should go hand-in-hand with the cleanse and I am dangerously close to feeling alcohol dependent, so I could use a break. )
2) cigarettes (I have never been addicted to these buggers, but they sure do show up in my mouth a lot)
3) babes (Once I told my friend, "you have too many babes. Even if the right one was in there somewhere, you wouldn't be able to find him".. I have never taken my own advice. And even though I specifically said that I do not want a repeat of last summer, that is exactly what seems to be happening.. )
I know.
Holy am I going to be a terror.
No, probably not though.
This particular cleanse - Wild Rose Herbal D-Tox is fairly straight-forward. There's herbal supplements and a tincture, and then a food plan. And I can eat as much as I want/need, just only of certain foods.
Hopefully, upon completing the cleanse I will gradually re-introduce possible allergens and see if maybe some of my lethargy/spaciness/headaches/belly-pains are food related.
Wheat is a big one I'm going to look at, as well as yeast and fermentation. And I def have dairy issues, so we'll see how I fare off of that business.
(Oh lord, please don't make me give up cheeeeeses!)
In other news, I think I cured my cold. Or I'm saving it up for when I go onstage next week (I've never done a play without getting sick).
Meredith R. Mistletoe's cure for the common cold (horrendously sore throat): Party All The Time
Now it's time for my regular afternoon nap.
6.20.2008
okay I'm getting going
I'm totally hiding out in my house right now.
Just not calling people I should.
So much nap time this week. I seem unable to make it through days. I think I'm fighting a cold, and also stressed..
Making bad choices lately and I think I'm sabotaging myself. Anyone know of any self-sabotaging cures?
I'm starting a cleanse tomorrow. Maybe I could extend it to more aspects of my life. Like babes.
It doesn't say anything about alcohol on my cleanse so I'm going to go ahead and assume that I should drink it
all the time
I played extra-good wingman for one of my friends last night. Successfully, in some ways.. except for that the dude isn't actually someone she wants. Ugh. We all just know how to pick em.
It's hard getting back into things. She just broke up with her boyfriend of years, and is so used to being in relationships. The last time the two of us partied was years ago in between long-terms.
We did stop by Gladstone karaoke for last call and my friend did an awesome rendition of Sweet Child of Mine. And I danced all over the place.
At this point in my life if I get brought back to a dirty basement with no windows and no proper bed, and it smells like teenager and messiness.. well, I'm out.
Or if there's a crust of pizza on the side table that isn't even on a plate...
Kalendar has delicious sangria. In case you are in need, that's where it is.
Tonight maybe I will go and even out a three-wheeled situation. I think Dollface needs my support.
Remember the term "wheeling"
totally totally bringing that back
except I'm not sure I know what it means exactly
not sure I ever knew
Anyhow. Guess I'm going to go find some hot babes to wheel!
Just not calling people I should.
So much nap time this week. I seem unable to make it through days. I think I'm fighting a cold, and also stressed..
Making bad choices lately and I think I'm sabotaging myself. Anyone know of any self-sabotaging cures?
I'm starting a cleanse tomorrow. Maybe I could extend it to more aspects of my life. Like babes.
It doesn't say anything about alcohol on my cleanse so I'm going to go ahead and assume that I should drink it
all the time
I played extra-good wingman for one of my friends last night. Successfully, in some ways.. except for that the dude isn't actually someone she wants. Ugh. We all just know how to pick em.
It's hard getting back into things. She just broke up with her boyfriend of years, and is so used to being in relationships. The last time the two of us partied was years ago in between long-terms.
We did stop by Gladstone karaoke for last call and my friend did an awesome rendition of Sweet Child of Mine. And I danced all over the place.
At this point in my life if I get brought back to a dirty basement with no windows and no proper bed, and it smells like teenager and messiness.. well, I'm out.
Or if there's a crust of pizza on the side table that isn't even on a plate...
Kalendar has delicious sangria. In case you are in need, that's where it is.
Tonight maybe I will go and even out a three-wheeled situation. I think Dollface needs my support.
Remember the term "wheeling"
totally totally bringing that back
except I'm not sure I know what it means exactly
not sure I ever knew
Anyhow. Guess I'm going to go find some hot babes to wheel!
Hey guess who has fat arms?!?
This guy!
Yeah. Yesterday my agent and I discussed my need to "tone up".
If you ever have had body issues or don't want body issues do not become an actor.
Agent is completely right and he also told me about how great I am in the film that I leant him to see. That the film is lovely and lots of stuff for my demo reel, etc.
He said Canadian actors especially don't take their bodies seriously. We have a niceness that ends in just not getting cast instead of L.A. where they will tell you straight up.
And he's right. It is my job to look my physical best and be the in the best physical condition and appealing and attractive
I'm think I'll just gain 20 pounds and be a character actress!!!
.
I'm allowed to tell this story because it's following up how ugly I am and we all need to feel a bit better.
My brother is 17 and in high-school and a bit of a loner and always reading. Anyhow he was reading in class the other day and across the room some of the boys started talking about the ice breakers commercial and dude says, "That girl in that commercial is hot!"
Needless to say my brother snorted loudly and responded with "Don't talk about my sister like that!"
Yeah. Yesterday my agent and I discussed my need to "tone up".
If you ever have had body issues or don't want body issues do not become an actor.
Agent is completely right and he also told me about how great I am in the film that I leant him to see. That the film is lovely and lots of stuff for my demo reel, etc.
He said Canadian actors especially don't take their bodies seriously. We have a niceness that ends in just not getting cast instead of L.A. where they will tell you straight up.
And he's right. It is my job to look my physical best and be the in the best physical condition and appealing and attractive
I'm think I'll just gain 20 pounds and be a character actress!!!
.
I'm allowed to tell this story because it's following up how ugly I am and we all need to feel a bit better.
My brother is 17 and in high-school and a bit of a loner and always reading. Anyhow he was reading in class the other day and across the room some of the boys started talking about the ice breakers commercial and dude says, "That girl in that commercial is hot!"
Needless to say my brother snorted loudly and responded with "Don't talk about my sister like that!"
6.19.2008
yep. sure.
Brunch time!
Nothing will make you feel better than an omelette at aunties and uncles on a rainy day.
But still today I just feel like weeping. But who knows why.
Well, we all have our suspicions and it's probably a bit of everything.
Everything.
I changed my comments to haloscan, so you shouldn't have to go through the seven gates of hell to post comments. Not that you will anyway. Loser.
Work for the first time in awhile tonight. Then a bunch of days off again! Lucky me!
Shit I do not know my lines for that dammit play yet.
Nothing will make you feel better than an omelette at aunties and uncles on a rainy day.
But still today I just feel like weeping. But who knows why.
Well, we all have our suspicions and it's probably a bit of everything.
Everything.
I changed my comments to haloscan, so you shouldn't have to go through the seven gates of hell to post comments. Not that you will anyway. Loser.
Work for the first time in awhile tonight. Then a bunch of days off again! Lucky me!
Shit I do not know my lines for that dammit play yet.
On bikes and everyone else has called it quits, peeled off into their own directions going to lie down in front of fans
with only sheets on the beds but it's still sick-hot-sweat-humid-sticky at 4 a.m. and that means the fence at Bathurst pool is never too tall to climb over if you get your feet in the right links in the fence I bruise too easy and will show this part for days but it doesn't hurt, not comparatively
I've never been skinny-dipping and still can't quite, but I will get close and you can self-assured and that beyond-confidence that makes me need to swim meters away from you makes me need to take off and keep that distance
but when I lean back against the pool wall and stretch my arms and close my eyes
you come and press against me kiss my chlorine mouth like it's the only thing that would make sense to do right now
like that's what you need, have been needing
and I push off the wall and out of your reach and backstroke across away yelling,
'don't ever do that again if you do that
again I will slaughteryou in your sleep sweartogod'
but I still follow you home, don't I
[I will only tell you stories of times far enough away that maybe I won't get into trouble for]
with only sheets on the beds but it's still sick-hot-sweat-humid-sticky at 4 a.m. and that means the fence at Bathurst pool is never too tall to climb over if you get your feet in the right links in the fence I bruise too easy and will show this part for days but it doesn't hurt, not comparatively
I've never been skinny-dipping and still can't quite, but I will get close and you can self-assured and that beyond-confidence that makes me need to swim meters away from you makes me need to take off and keep that distance
but when I lean back against the pool wall and stretch my arms and close my eyes
you come and press against me kiss my chlorine mouth like it's the only thing that would make sense to do right now
like that's what you need, have been needing
and I push off the wall and out of your reach and backstroke across away yelling,
'don't ever do that again if you do that
again I will slaughteryou in your sleep sweartogod'
but I still follow you home, don't I
[I will only tell you stories of times far enough away that maybe I won't get into trouble for]
6.18.2008
hey check this
entry I found from my diaryland diary circa 2003 (Oct. 21st to be exact):
i found out some amazing news. well, i hope it's amazing. bill priddle isn't touring with treble charger anymore. according to the internet he's taking a break and may return for their next project. he's been playing a lot of solo shows (awesome awesome awesome), and working with a new band. how delicious. for those of you unfamiliar with my previous obsession with treble charger, bill priddle used to be the brilliant lead singer, before poppunk greig took over and turned it all to shit..more or less. bill priddle is a genious and it has been making me sad to see him waste away and rot in treble charger. (not that i don't still secretly love them a little.) when i went to see them in edmonton last spring i wrote them a letter, and in it i told him to quit. i'm so happy. and he lives in toronto! and i'm going to live in toronto! which means that i'll get to go to his shows. i'll get to go to everyone's shows. i think i'll make concert-seeing a priority. especially if elliott or belle and sebastian come around. holy fuck. i'll set aside part of the budget for concert seeing. bill priddle likes belle and sebastian. see how out of place he's become in tc?
good work bill priddle. good fucking work
notes from a 2008 perspective:
- Fuck. I'm still so, so heart-broken about Elliott Smith
- Some of that was a bit harsh
- I am still the creeper that I always have been
[serious blog hits for my story about ryan malcolm peeing. um, ryan, if it's you and you want it taken down, just email me and let me know...]
i found out some amazing news. well, i hope it's amazing. bill priddle isn't touring with treble charger anymore. according to the internet he's taking a break and may return for their next project. he's been playing a lot of solo shows (awesome awesome awesome), and working with a new band. how delicious. for those of you unfamiliar with my previous obsession with treble charger, bill priddle used to be the brilliant lead singer, before poppunk greig took over and turned it all to shit..more or less. bill priddle is a genious and it has been making me sad to see him waste away and rot in treble charger. (not that i don't still secretly love them a little.) when i went to see them in edmonton last spring i wrote them a letter, and in it i told him to quit. i'm so happy. and he lives in toronto! and i'm going to live in toronto! which means that i'll get to go to his shows. i'll get to go to everyone's shows. i think i'll make concert-seeing a priority. especially if elliott or belle and sebastian come around. holy fuck. i'll set aside part of the budget for concert seeing. bill priddle likes belle and sebastian. see how out of place he's become in tc?
good work bill priddle. good fucking work
notes from a 2008 perspective:
- Fuck. I'm still so, so heart-broken about Elliott Smith
- Some of that was a bit harsh
- I am still the creeper that I always have been
[serious blog hits for my story about ryan malcolm peeing. um, ryan, if it's you and you want it taken down, just email me and let me know...]
exciting newses
Two big
OMGs
for you
bad news first
I CAN HEAR A DAMMIT MOUSE AGAIN. I CAN HEAR YOU KIND SIR, PLEASE PLEASE LEAVE PLEASE KIND TOM THUMB
please
but then also,
Bill Priddle just totally friend-requested me on Facebook.
This is undoubtedly owed completely to the fact that I joined a group on there about being overly-enamoured with his music.
BUT STILL.
I'm feeling a little less creepy since I've shared with friends about how I approached Bill Priddle to tell him how much I adore his music. Turns out it's a pretty common trend.
Srsly.
Think about NC-17 and, well, everything up until Maybe It's Me.
Treble Charger used to be amazing. Admit it.
And Bill Priddle still is.
OMGs
for you
bad news first
I CAN HEAR A DAMMIT MOUSE AGAIN. I CAN HEAR YOU KIND SIR, PLEASE PLEASE LEAVE PLEASE KIND TOM THUMB
please
but then also,
Bill Priddle just totally friend-requested me on Facebook.
This is undoubtedly owed completely to the fact that I joined a group on there about being overly-enamoured with his music.
BUT STILL.
I'm feeling a little less creepy since I've shared with friends about how I approached Bill Priddle to tell him how much I adore his music. Turns out it's a pretty common trend.
Srsly.
Think about NC-17 and, well, everything up until Maybe It's Me.
Treble Charger used to be amazing. Admit it.
And Bill Priddle still is.
Dear whoever found my blog through searching "how to love someone",
I wish it were I who had the answers. This is definitely the wrong place to look...
But if you do find out, please pass the word on to me. Thanks.
Your pal,
Meredith R. Mistletoe
It's okay that y'all aren't always leaving comments, I appreciate emails more anyhow. Please lets communique
I totally ended up having a four hour nap.
Then eating too many fajitas and drinking brews with some bffs. (including a boy bff. who maintained that being friends with both girls and boys is easy.. until I pointed out all the messiness that he'd been through.. love him so much though srsly)
Life is so excellent.
I wish it were I who had the answers. This is definitely the wrong place to look...
But if you do find out, please pass the word on to me. Thanks.
Your pal,
Meredith R. Mistletoe
It's okay that y'all aren't always leaving comments, I appreciate emails more anyhow. Please lets communique
I totally ended up having a four hour nap.
Then eating too many fajitas and drinking brews with some bffs. (including a boy bff. who maintained that being friends with both girls and boys is easy.. until I pointed out all the messiness that he'd been through.. love him so much though srsly)
Life is so excellent.
6.17.2008
you've got to hide your love away
There is no way I should be wanting a nap but I had to drag myself up off the couch just now because it sure felt like nap time and down duvets are no help and it's kind of chilly and that's the best time to curl up.
I slept for 11 hours or so last night though, so I'm just being ridiculous.
I'm either depressed or else I'm just recovering from the weekend and trying not to let this slightly sore throat go any further..
I keep a constant updated list of babes in my notebooks.
I'm only comfortable when I'm convinced I'm in love with someone who is completely inaccessible.
This city is too small. You have no idea how small it is. I need to stop meeting new people because they will turn out to not be new at all, only overlapped and interlaced in the most bizarre ways.
(thank-you, Facebook, for making that overly clear)
It is impossible to escape anyone here. You'd think with all of these thousands of bodies there would be more room to get away.
There isn't.
I slept for 11 hours or so last night though, so I'm just being ridiculous.
I'm either depressed or else I'm just recovering from the weekend and trying not to let this slightly sore throat go any further..
I keep a constant updated list of babes in my notebooks.
I'm only comfortable when I'm convinced I'm in love with someone who is completely inaccessible.
This city is too small. You have no idea how small it is. I need to stop meeting new people because they will turn out to not be new at all, only overlapped and interlaced in the most bizarre ways.
(thank-you, Facebook, for making that overly clear)
It is impossible to escape anyone here. You'd think with all of these thousands of bodies there would be more room to get away.
There isn't.
dude prioritization
It's funny how much one has to go through to become friends with someone. You have to work around their social schedules and lifestyle and patterns and integrate them somehow.
Especially becoming friends with dudes.
Sometimes I wonder how I've ever done it.
If Dude has a gf, then it is easier, but not by much because then I've got to work around that, convince them both that I don't have designs on him(even if I do). And also people with significant others tend to be way less social and way more lame. And mostly then I end up being friends with the gf too, which is fine.. but girls have weird girl customs and loyalties (that I'm not always up on) and girls feel like girl-talk trumps all and needs be had, it's like as a woman, my loyalties need to lie with the women in my social circle, never with the men.
With my best dudes I tend to never get close with their significants, it gets complicated.
Especially since I have for sure made out with all my most favourite dudes at some point or another.
If Dude and I are both single (hahah when am I not though, seriously) then it's usually based on attraction - one-sided or mutual. So I've got to power through that to make a proper friendship out of it. We all secretly want everyone to be in love with us, so it's hard not to flirt and push things. Also, I love cuddling and having sleep-overs and I love tensions.. but I can't do that with my friends. I should learn that.
I usually just make out with everyone (and maybe date them briefly), then feel irritated with them, push them away, then realize that I miss them and want to be bffs.
I'm healthy.
And dudes love this strategy.
And it sucks that a lot of times friendships aren't that easy. That when I love a dude so much, it's hard to figure out where that line is. Why am I not in love with him, etc..
Especially since I maintain that familiarity is one of the most attractive things to me..
Messiness.
.
It's funny how attraction is not exclusive.
By which I mean, I have a crush on every boy.
And trying to decide to what degree, or to prioritize, is hard work.
But generally I have no patience for babes who have crushes on every girl.. If I am not their favourite then I feel like it's pointless.
But then babes shouldn't have patience with me and my philandering..
But.
So say a group of girls meets a group of boys. There is an odd sort of pressure to choose favourites right off the bat. But then those favourites sometimes (frequently) don't even hold to be true (like when you get a new album and the first song you like off it is usually the first one to annoy you?).
But then you've already gone and made out with the first dude that you met, and when you decide later that, nope, it was the other dude who was actually cool.. then it seems bad, you seem, you know ...
In Saskatoon things are easier. In Saskatoon the dating pool is so limited that you have to date everyone and so no one can be mad or hold grudges because there's just no space for it. There's a limited amount of cool kids and everyone's been in love with everyone else and you know who is who and what is what..
It's almost nicer.
Almost.
But I can't say no to the constant influx of new babes into my life.
Not that it's doing me a whole lot of good, but it's still nice in theory.
And I wouldn't want to be in a relationship that I didn't feel like I could leave just in case there was no one else out there for me.
Oh wait. I don't have issues with being alone.
That's maybe the only thing I don't have issues with.
Grand Analog
The Mark Inside (aw the babies)
Especially becoming friends with dudes.
Sometimes I wonder how I've ever done it.
If Dude has a gf, then it is easier, but not by much because then I've got to work around that, convince them both that I don't have designs on him(even if I do). And also people with significant others tend to be way less social and way more lame. And mostly then I end up being friends with the gf too, which is fine.. but girls have weird girl customs and loyalties (that I'm not always up on) and girls feel like girl-talk trumps all and needs be had, it's like as a woman, my loyalties need to lie with the women in my social circle, never with the men.
With my best dudes I tend to never get close with their significants, it gets complicated.
Especially since I have for sure made out with all my most favourite dudes at some point or another.
If Dude and I are both single (hahah when am I not though, seriously) then it's usually based on attraction - one-sided or mutual. So I've got to power through that to make a proper friendship out of it. We all secretly want everyone to be in love with us, so it's hard not to flirt and push things. Also, I love cuddling and having sleep-overs and I love tensions.. but I can't do that with my friends. I should learn that.
I usually just make out with everyone (and maybe date them briefly), then feel irritated with them, push them away, then realize that I miss them and want to be bffs.
I'm healthy.
And dudes love this strategy.
And it sucks that a lot of times friendships aren't that easy. That when I love a dude so much, it's hard to figure out where that line is. Why am I not in love with him, etc..
Especially since I maintain that familiarity is one of the most attractive things to me..
Messiness.
.
It's funny how attraction is not exclusive.
By which I mean, I have a crush on every boy.
And trying to decide to what degree, or to prioritize, is hard work.
But generally I have no patience for babes who have crushes on every girl.. If I am not their favourite then I feel like it's pointless.
But then babes shouldn't have patience with me and my philandering..
But.
So say a group of girls meets a group of boys. There is an odd sort of pressure to choose favourites right off the bat. But then those favourites sometimes (frequently) don't even hold to be true (like when you get a new album and the first song you like off it is usually the first one to annoy you?).
But then you've already gone and made out with the first dude that you met, and when you decide later that, nope, it was the other dude who was actually cool.. then it seems bad, you seem, you know ...
In Saskatoon things are easier. In Saskatoon the dating pool is so limited that you have to date everyone and so no one can be mad or hold grudges because there's just no space for it. There's a limited amount of cool kids and everyone's been in love with everyone else and you know who is who and what is what..
It's almost nicer.
Almost.
But I can't say no to the constant influx of new babes into my life.
Not that it's doing me a whole lot of good, but it's still nice in theory.
And I wouldn't want to be in a relationship that I didn't feel like I could leave just in case there was no one else out there for me.
Oh wait. I don't have issues with being alone.
That's maybe the only thing I don't have issues with.
Grand Analog
The Mark Inside (aw the babies)
6.16.2008
fuck you leave some comments already
95 people who've viewed my blog today I hate you
I think is what my mum meant when she said I look drunk.
(I wasn't.)
Did you know that I bought some hummus today and it was mouldy?
Gross.
I had a four hour nap this afternoon so there
Good thing because I was pretty much at the end of my rope.
At rehearsal today in the park I almost cried when I suggested something that was shot down. For no reason. it doesn't even matter.
I'm just stressed and tired.
And then I got a sunburn.
OMG I WANT TO TALK ABOUT PERSONAL BUSINESS ALL OVER THIS BLOG SO BADLY LIKE I CAN'T EVEN TELL YOU TOO MANY FUNNY STORIES
yike meredith
Lil' Italy fest got rained out so I got sent home from the chill!!! We were all beyond excited.
I almost fell asleep but then decided to go out instead. (p-a-t-t)
Went to Rancho Relaxo for one last NXNE show. Didn't really pay attention to the musics, mostly just chatted around. Pretty fun though, Grand Analog played again and I still like them all a lot.
I want a new album from them!
Went with them all down to the Gibson guitars MMVA after-party. We got there and it was all done pretty much (no door security at all) but so we ate some O'Henry's and drank some free beers.
No wonder all celebrities are alcoholics because they always get free drinks, and if I ever end up in some position of success I'm going to be fucked because my motto is "free things are not for refusing".
Child Of Poverty
I got recognized as being off tv by this girl who says her 17-year-old brother is in love with me. haha! She asked if we could have a picture taken with me. Of course! Too funny!
"So do you want to do movies, too?"
"Yes, DO YOU KNOW OF ANY??"
Remarking on how the party was over I was heard to say "man even Ryan Malcolm's been and gone" (Canadian Idol's first winner, who had been at the party the night before, as was other winner Kalen Porter) as a joke
but THEN it turned out he was actually there, still partying. Too funny.
and THEN
on our way out we saw Ryan Malcolm peeing at the side of the building
us: We see you!
rm: no you don't
us: we see you peeing!
rm: do you like what you see?
us: no...
rm: my name is Kalen Porter!
Swear to God.
Best story of the weekend.
NOTE: Do not bring five O'Henrys home with you because you will not be able to stop eating them and they have 17 grams of fat!
I wish I had gone out with that Dollface to the Revolver party because Brody Jenner (douche) requested to meet her and that sounds funny.
I'd want to meet her too for surez.
Celebrities + Canada = Ridiculousness for Realz
I think is what my mum meant when she said I look drunk.
(I wasn't.)
Did you know that I bought some hummus today and it was mouldy?
Gross.
I had a four hour nap this afternoon so there
Good thing because I was pretty much at the end of my rope.
At rehearsal today in the park I almost cried when I suggested something that was shot down. For no reason. it doesn't even matter.
I'm just stressed and tired.
And then I got a sunburn.
OMG I WANT TO TALK ABOUT PERSONAL BUSINESS ALL OVER THIS BLOG SO BADLY LIKE I CAN'T EVEN TELL YOU TOO MANY FUNNY STORIES
yike meredith
Lil' Italy fest got rained out so I got sent home from the chill!!! We were all beyond excited.
I almost fell asleep but then decided to go out instead. (p-a-t-t)
Went to Rancho Relaxo for one last NXNE show. Didn't really pay attention to the musics, mostly just chatted around. Pretty fun though, Grand Analog played again and I still like them all a lot.
I want a new album from them!
Went with them all down to the Gibson guitars MMVA after-party. We got there and it was all done pretty much (no door security at all) but so we ate some O'Henry's and drank some free beers.
No wonder all celebrities are alcoholics because they always get free drinks, and if I ever end up in some position of success I'm going to be fucked because my motto is "free things are not for refusing".
Child Of Poverty
I got recognized as being off tv by this girl who says her 17-year-old brother is in love with me. haha! She asked if we could have a picture taken with me. Of course! Too funny!
"So do you want to do movies, too?"
"Yes, DO YOU KNOW OF ANY??"
Remarking on how the party was over I was heard to say "man even Ryan Malcolm's been and gone" (Canadian Idol's first winner, who had been at the party the night before, as was other winner Kalen Porter) as a joke
but THEN it turned out he was actually there, still partying. Too funny.
and THEN
on our way out we saw Ryan Malcolm peeing at the side of the building
us: We see you!
rm: no you don't
us: we see you peeing!
rm: do you like what you see?
us: no...
rm: my name is Kalen Porter!
Swear to God.
Best story of the weekend.
NOTE: Do not bring five O'Henrys home with you because you will not be able to stop eating them and they have 17 grams of fat!
I wish I had gone out with that Dollface to the Revolver party because Brody Jenner (douche) requested to meet her and that sounds funny.
I'd want to meet her too for surez.
Celebrities + Canada = Ridiculousness for Realz
6.15.2008
revolt!
ZEXPOTS
(we took pictures on the red carpet after it was all closed and I thought that was TOO funny and then some girls followed our lead and I thought that was great). For sure.
The Big Chill is so close to having a revolt. It would be funny if it wasn't so terrible. Our boss is so crazy.
Every year at Little Italy everyone gets into giant fights and everything goes to shit. Which is what happens when you overwork and overtire your employees. Also, so illegal.
Also, the only reason any of us are working is because we all feel bad leaving our friends.. we can't stand up for ourselves because then someone else would just have to pick up our slack. Like if I push to leave at a decent time, then someone else just has to work more.
So effed
I have a bruise on my rib where I hit into the freezer bending down to scoop ice creams
In an email the other day a dude expressed that emoticons are now necessary for communication.
NO.
He is wrong.
Emoticons create and promote laziness. No need to be clever or thoughtful, no sir, just add a smilie and everyone will know what you mean!!!
:)
Emails and e-communication is growing less and less thoughtful and I want to read neat things and interesting expressions!!!
Come on now give it to me
pls
srsly
Is it wrong to ask someone if they are mentally ill? Like sometimes I just want to check.. before I get all up in it
Trying to surreptitiously learn someone's ethnic origins can be pretty funny. I'm the least racially adept person. I am embarrassingly naive about all cultures, geography, and ethnic differences. I have no idea about anything.
Woody Allen and Seinfeld are Jewish? Obvious to you, never occurs to me to think about it. I'm completely perceptiveless.
What's your last name?
How do you feel about Christmas?
How do you like your candles? Just one or maybe all in a row in some sort of holder?
What do you make your dreidel out of?
Last summer I pretty much had too many babes and it was messiness and I didn't really like any of them enough or if I did like them then they were bitches or didn't like me enough or had lovely, lovely girlfriends and
I'm not really wanting a repeat of that this year
except I'm also not really feeling relationship-time
I mean, summer is party town and babe-city and I want to get all up in that.. without the shitty feelings that come from feeling like maybe there is never going to be the right kind of babe for me
Where is that happy medium at? I don't think it exists.
It's already like last summer repeating and I'm pushing to see what I can get from people and pining after ideals that I've made up completely...
Try for not doing that. Try for less patterns less repeated bad decisions
Hmmm.
it looks like I drank a lot, but I didn't. I'm just always holding some brews
drink tickskies! (I totally didn't use all of them up, what a lame waste! Horrendous.)
new bf Joey McIntyre, he's really quite cute. Kind of looks like he's about to claw me a bit though.
new other bf Jordan Knight. He was just weirded out by me fer sure. Maybe because I have demon eyes. And because we showed him that picture and I yelled "that's hilarious!!!"
Dammit I don't want to go back to Big Chill no sir oh holy jeeze.
save us
Guess who took 'er easy?!?
Me!
It is beyond impossible to do so in the presence of handfuls of drink tickets.. but I managed. Pretty glad this morning, gotta say..
My feet hurt so, so much. My commitment to party-time really astounds me.
Taste of Little Italy yesterday. If there were any way in hell that I could've gotten out of working this festival then I sure 100% would have. I don't know why it feels so goddamn awful this year. But it does.
I tire very quickly of customers.
Really really pretty girls work at the chill. Maybe I'm biased because I really like them all, but no, seriously. It's kind of funny how pretty they are.
It was nice taking my break with a couple of the girls and wandering the festival.
But then we saw a SABER-TOOTHED TIGER!!!
I felt kind of bad leaving early but that sort of what you have to do at the chill. Set your boundaries and then stick to them. At all costs. Sometimes you even have to sacrifice your friends but what can you do?
Doll-face and I hit up the Grand Analog show and danced and took pictures. Those dudes sure get a odd assortment of crowd going.. I like it a lot. Also, if I were to review Odario's performance, I would say that he is quite obviously a theatre kid, in the best possible way. It's really quite endearing.
We meant to hit up more nxne stuff, but we had to go meet peeps at the Gladstone and once we were handed drink tickets.. well...
Yeah a bit of a celebriparty last night at Gladstone which Sass was kind enough to +1 me into, and my Doll-Face's friends who I think are great were organizing (drink tickets!!!). It wasn't a very PARTY party, it was more about the schmooze and the swag. Should've been more of an obnoxious dance party..
For sure the best swag room was the Herbal Essences one because they had CANDY. And free hair products. Actually the best swag room was probably the Puma room, but I wasn't able to get all up in that.
Sass's dreamy photog friend was super kind enough to lend me his all-access pass on his way out. Aww. I'm glad because that enabled me to get candy. And all enabling is good enabling.
Number 1 celebrity sighting of the evening - obviously Dwight from The Office.
Also NKOTB. Tooooo funny.
Joey McIntyre looks a little too much like one of my bosses at ACC and then I felt weird like maybe I should have a crush on my manager because of it but then I realized that nope, I don't have to. Yay!
I made Jordan Knight feel awkward!!! I don't think he found the love face that I made at him during our picture together as funny as I did. (picture from Sass to come soon. too funny.)
Jordan Knight totally waved good-bye to Sass.
(Oh hai, I'm so Don't-Care-High)
We took pictures in the Gladstone elevator, it was very very hard for me to keep a straight face at that point because other people came up behind Sass and took pictures too.
(Yaya I got my own paparazzi!)
I didn't party until 4, and I'm totally proud of myself.
I did end up on a kind of dreamy walk home that involved hanging out for a bit on the playground in Bellwoods.. and then I exercised some self-restraint!
Holy successful evening.
Holy mature.
Holy my feet hurt. Just the idea of standing on them some more today.................................................
p.s. I'm loving my hair colour again. This is the colour I wanted it to be. Red is such a ridiculous colour to have and maintain. My life is hard.
It is beyond impossible to do so in the presence of handfuls of drink tickets.. but I managed. Pretty glad this morning, gotta say..
My feet hurt so, so much. My commitment to party-time really astounds me.
Taste of Little Italy yesterday. If there were any way in hell that I could've gotten out of working this festival then I sure 100% would have. I don't know why it feels so goddamn awful this year. But it does.
I tire very quickly of customers.
Really really pretty girls work at the chill. Maybe I'm biased because I really like them all, but no, seriously. It's kind of funny how pretty they are.
It was nice taking my break with a couple of the girls and wandering the festival.
But then we saw a SABER-TOOTHED TIGER!!!
I felt kind of bad leaving early but that sort of what you have to do at the chill. Set your boundaries and then stick to them. At all costs. Sometimes you even have to sacrifice your friends but what can you do?
Doll-face and I hit up the Grand Analog show and danced and took pictures. Those dudes sure get a odd assortment of crowd going.. I like it a lot. Also, if I were to review Odario's performance, I would say that he is quite obviously a theatre kid, in the best possible way. It's really quite endearing.
We meant to hit up more nxne stuff, but we had to go meet peeps at the Gladstone and once we were handed drink tickets.. well...
Yeah a bit of a celebriparty last night at Gladstone which Sass was kind enough to +1 me into, and my Doll-Face's friends who I think are great were organizing (drink tickets!!!). It wasn't a very PARTY party, it was more about the schmooze and the swag. Should've been more of an obnoxious dance party..
For sure the best swag room was the Herbal Essences one because they had CANDY. And free hair products. Actually the best swag room was probably the Puma room, but I wasn't able to get all up in that.
Sass's dreamy photog friend was super kind enough to lend me his all-access pass on his way out. Aww. I'm glad because that enabled me to get candy. And all enabling is good enabling.
Number 1 celebrity sighting of the evening - obviously Dwight from The Office.
Also NKOTB. Tooooo funny.
Joey McIntyre looks a little too much like one of my bosses at ACC and then I felt weird like maybe I should have a crush on my manager because of it but then I realized that nope, I don't have to. Yay!
I made Jordan Knight feel awkward!!! I don't think he found the love face that I made at him during our picture together as funny as I did. (picture from Sass to come soon. too funny.)
Jordan Knight totally waved good-bye to Sass.
(Oh hai, I'm so Don't-Care-High)
We took pictures in the Gladstone elevator, it was very very hard for me to keep a straight face at that point because other people came up behind Sass and took pictures too.
(Yaya I got my own paparazzi!)
I didn't party until 4, and I'm totally proud of myself.
I did end up on a kind of dreamy walk home that involved hanging out for a bit on the playground in Bellwoods.. and then I exercised some self-restraint!
Holy successful evening.
Holy mature.
Holy my feet hurt. Just the idea of standing on them some more today.................................................
p.s. I'm loving my hair colour again. This is the colour I wanted it to be. Red is such a ridiculous colour to have and maintain. My life is hard.
6.14.2008
nxne gets to me
Aw Bill Priddle.
Srsly.
I'm such a wienery fangirl when I talk about him. I felt a bit better when I caught up with my friend who said he approached Bill on the bus the other day to tell him about how great he is.
I found him after his set in the crowd
me: I really, really enjoyed your set, it was quite lovely
bp: thank you
me: I've been waiting for this album for 7 years! I was so excited when you left Treble Charger, I wanted just to hear your stuff..
bp: that means a lot to me, seriously
(I might have gone on to tell him about how I wrote him a letter once, natter natter natter... aw he's so nice)
Ugh. I'm such a wiener. I need to learn how to be cool and suave and stuff.
I like it when shows aren't packed, not for the band, but for me.
Great Lake Swimmers (who played after Priddle) were certainly packed. But I sat on the edge of the stage (upset stomach all night). Nice set though. Rocky Spine is probably one of my all-time favourite songs. So ridiculously wonderful.
Digital SLRs have taken over the world, or maybe mostly just nxne. It's sort of wild how many people there are with cameras. And it seems that everyone with one thinks they have more rights than the average concert-goer. I'm not sure they (I) do.
Going by oneself to shows might be the best way to do it, especially if you actually care about the band. Friends found me after the GLS set at Reverb, but I simmered in my fan juices alone for the first bit and it was really enjoyable.
Except that I kept having to text people for plans later and then it looked like
a) I have no friends and I have to text people to prove that I don't have to hang out on my own if I don't want to
b) I don't care about the bands because I'm so wrapped up in my cellular device
OMG the babies. Made it to The Mark Inside show at Silver Dollar and upon entering I was like "aw the babies aw the babies" in my head and maybe out loud just slightly because I love those dudes so much, so glad to be back up at the front and dancing and watching Chris's extreme performance and all of them rock out.
It's 2004 all over again!
I caught up a bit with my friend who when we dated hated reading, but lately I'd garnered from his FB statuses that he was really into it
me: Did you fall in love with reading?
he: YES!!
me: I saw that on the internet
he: Books are great!
me: YAY BOOKS
High-fives ensued!!!!
So glad for him though, what a treat, finding out that reading is the best ever! He's also such, such a nice babe and too funny and I'm glad to know him.
It's about time they get real famous though, they totally deserve it x 200.
My upset stomach + not keeping track of beers = barf city
= 3 am bath (I'm totally going to accidentally drown myself one of these days)
Also my bell was upset ever since eating at Futures yesterday afternoon. hmmmmm
Oh yeah haha I told Degrassi about how I blogged that story about him. Too funny.
I think I might have also told him we were ENEMIES. I don't remember why but I'm sure I had just cause.
I was way too drunkskies at that point like please someone put a paper bag over my head and hail a cab
Someone pls save me from today. waiting for those tylenols to kick in soooooon???
too bad you can't see my peacock feather earrings better you wish you could
oh yeah also: the film premiere was great. crazy to see myself on the Big Screen. Yay!
photos photos photos to come too many photos
Srsly.
I'm such a wienery fangirl when I talk about him. I felt a bit better when I caught up with my friend who said he approached Bill on the bus the other day to tell him about how great he is.
I found him after his set in the crowd
me: I really, really enjoyed your set, it was quite lovely
bp: thank you
me: I've been waiting for this album for 7 years! I was so excited when you left Treble Charger, I wanted just to hear your stuff..
bp: that means a lot to me, seriously
(I might have gone on to tell him about how I wrote him a letter once, natter natter natter... aw he's so nice)
Ugh. I'm such a wiener. I need to learn how to be cool and suave and stuff.
I like it when shows aren't packed, not for the band, but for me.
Great Lake Swimmers (who played after Priddle) were certainly packed. But I sat on the edge of the stage (upset stomach all night). Nice set though. Rocky Spine is probably one of my all-time favourite songs. So ridiculously wonderful.
Digital SLRs have taken over the world, or maybe mostly just nxne. It's sort of wild how many people there are with cameras. And it seems that everyone with one thinks they have more rights than the average concert-goer. I'm not sure they (I) do.
Going by oneself to shows might be the best way to do it, especially if you actually care about the band. Friends found me after the GLS set at Reverb, but I simmered in my fan juices alone for the first bit and it was really enjoyable.
Except that I kept having to text people for plans later and then it looked like
a) I have no friends and I have to text people to prove that I don't have to hang out on my own if I don't want to
b) I don't care about the bands because I'm so wrapped up in my cellular device
OMG the babies. Made it to The Mark Inside show at Silver Dollar and upon entering I was like "aw the babies aw the babies" in my head and maybe out loud just slightly because I love those dudes so much, so glad to be back up at the front and dancing and watching Chris's extreme performance and all of them rock out.
It's 2004 all over again!
I caught up a bit with my friend who when we dated hated reading, but lately I'd garnered from his FB statuses that he was really into it
me: Did you fall in love with reading?
he: YES!!
me: I saw that on the internet
he: Books are great!
me: YAY BOOKS
High-fives ensued!!!!
So glad for him though, what a treat, finding out that reading is the best ever! He's also such, such a nice babe and too funny and I'm glad to know him.
It's about time they get real famous though, they totally deserve it x 200.
My upset stomach + not keeping track of beers = barf city
= 3 am bath (I'm totally going to accidentally drown myself one of these days)
Also my bell was upset ever since eating at Futures yesterday afternoon. hmmmmm
Oh yeah haha I told Degrassi about how I blogged that story about him. Too funny.
I think I might have also told him we were ENEMIES. I don't remember why but I'm sure I had just cause.
I was way too drunkskies at that point like please someone put a paper bag over my head and hail a cab
Someone pls save me from today. waiting for those tylenols to kick in soooooon???
too bad you can't see my peacock feather earrings better you wish you could
oh yeah also: the film premiere was great. crazy to see myself on the Big Screen. Yay!
photos photos photos to come too many photos
6.13.2008
no rest for the wicked
I dreamt there was a panther out on the streets and my cats kept wanting to be let in and out but I had to do it delicately as to not let the panther in.
My NXNE-ing partner in crime and also doll-face extraordinaire had some remarkably awkward moments last night. So Whoaly Bejezus awkward.
Especially when we met up with a dude she was involved with briefly and he was beyond all stoney-faces and making angry and also Don't-Care-High attitudes at us. So awkward. I almost felt like he was insulting me for being on TV he was giving off that bad of Death-Ray-Vibes.
YIKES.
He had a a babely friend who invited us along to go to the next place and doll-face was all "we have to go meet someone..." BUT THEN we ended up at the same next venue.
YIKES.
ahahahahaha
Actually made it to a lot of shows last night. Pretty nutso.
Sloan:
yeah I was pretty in love with those candy-cane lights...
Then we headed down to Queen where we spent the rest our our night.
Saw::
Small Sins
Two Hours Traffic
(too packed for pictures)
Flash Lightnin
(they are always at Dakota on Wednesdays so I guess if we don't make it to Dakota, Dakota brings itself to us..)
fast as lightnin
speaking of bearded fiercely
and
(tiny bit of) White Cowbell Oklahoma
(pictures later maybe)
By the end I was so remarkably exhausted that my eyes just kept closing. Sitting on the back of the bench at Horseshoe I was virtually asleep. What a party animal.
It's too bad since the real-time partying gets done post 3 am during this madhouse bullshit weekend.
Hopefully tonight lends itself better to my party spirit.
Oh yeah the other thing is that I'm working all weekend at Big Chill around my party time attitude. It's going to be pretty awful, I bet.
YAY!
Hey guys, you know what's hard work? Communication!
You know what else is hard work? Relationships!
I'm always in a constant struggle to decide if things are worth saying. If the fact that I am distressed by certain behaviours actually matters, if it would do anyone any good saying something.
I expect a lot in friendships. This means that I have some of the most spectacular humans in my life, but it also means I don't hold on to things that aren't really working. Both in terms of relationships and friendships.
I don't know
Wow I almost sneezed a whole mouthful of green tea all over the keyboard. so close
My NXNE-ing partner in crime and also doll-face extraordinaire had some remarkably awkward moments last night. So Whoaly Bejezus awkward.
Especially when we met up with a dude she was involved with briefly and he was beyond all stoney-faces and making angry and also Don't-Care-High attitudes at us. So awkward. I almost felt like he was insulting me for being on TV he was giving off that bad of Death-Ray-Vibes.
YIKES.
He had a a babely friend who invited us along to go to the next place and doll-face was all "we have to go meet someone..." BUT THEN we ended up at the same next venue.
YIKES.
ahahahahaha
Actually made it to a lot of shows last night. Pretty nutso.
Sloan:
yeah I was pretty in love with those candy-cane lights...
Then we headed down to Queen where we spent the rest our our night.
Saw::
Small Sins
Two Hours Traffic
(too packed for pictures)
Flash Lightnin
(they are always at Dakota on Wednesdays so I guess if we don't make it to Dakota, Dakota brings itself to us..)
fast as lightnin
speaking of bearded fiercely
and
(tiny bit of) White Cowbell Oklahoma
(pictures later maybe)
By the end I was so remarkably exhausted that my eyes just kept closing. Sitting on the back of the bench at Horseshoe I was virtually asleep. What a party animal.
It's too bad since the real-time partying gets done post 3 am during this madhouse bullshit weekend.
Hopefully tonight lends itself better to my party spirit.
Oh yeah the other thing is that I'm working all weekend at Big Chill around my party time attitude. It's going to be pretty awful, I bet.
YAY!
Hey guys, you know what's hard work? Communication!
You know what else is hard work? Relationships!
I'm always in a constant struggle to decide if things are worth saying. If the fact that I am distressed by certain behaviours actually matters, if it would do anyone any good saying something.
I expect a lot in friendships. This means that I have some of the most spectacular humans in my life, but it also means I don't hold on to things that aren't really working. Both in terms of relationships and friendships.
I don't know
Wow I almost sneezed a whole mouthful of green tea all over the keyboard. so close
6.12.2008
NORTH BY NORTHEAST = PARTY TOWN
Yikes! My first real-time film premiere! Except it's not really. But still.
That short I did, yes we all know the one (A Small Thing by Adam Garnet Jones), is screening today and tomorrow at the Wordwide Shorts festival.
So I'm heading up there right away. To watch myself on the big screen and feel all famous and shit.
YAY!
Better late than never, here are my NXNE picks!!!
(Their fucking website is being a total dink to me right now and this is taking more effort than it should)
THURSDAY (that's tonight!):
Sloan - Mod club - 9 pm
The Coast - Horseshoe - 9 pm
Small Sins - Horseshoe 11 pm
Two Hours Traffic - Rivoli - 12 am
NQ Arbuckle - Dakota - 12 am
Major Maker - El Mo - 1 am
White Cowbell Oklahoma - Horseshoe - 2 am
FRIDAY
The Priddle Concern - Reverb - 9 pm
Boys Who Say No - Cadillac - 9 pm
Great Lake Swimmers - Reverb - 10 pm
Beth in Battle Mode - Holy Joe's - 11 pm
The Mark Inside - Silver Dollar - 11 pm
Laura Barrett - Reverb - 11 pm
Julie Doiron - Horseshoe - 11pm
Meligrove Band - Reverb - 12am
Will Currie and The Country French - Drake - 12 am
The Diableros - Silver Dollar - 1 am
Justin Rutledge - Reverb - 1 am
SATURDAY
Deep Dark Woods - Cadillac - 9 pm
Grand Analog - Reverb - 10 pm
Wordburglar - C'est What - 11 pm
Foxfire - Reverb - 11 pm
Magneta Lane - Rivoli - 1 am
Tin Bangs - Kathedral 1 am
Foxfire - Sneaky Dee's - 3 am
Holy Shit! too many!
(I'm obviously not going to anywhere near all of those. Most of them occur at 9 on Friday. But I still think they're all going to be great shows)
Small Sins - I met the Carnations in Saskatoon back before I even moved here and partied with Thom and the gang at The Senator... Thom was really into Wesley Snipes and kept imitating his sex moves. I've always had a soft spot for Thom since then. Also, Small Sins are really fun and great.
The Coast - has babes in it. My theory is that babes hang out with other babes, so.... you know.
NQ Arbuckle - Maybe it wouldn't be too bad if I hung out at Dakota three days in a row?
Major Maker - I have Lindy's album from back when I went to a Tegan and Sara show where he opened. He has such, such a great voice. I don't like Major Maker as much as I liked Lindy's solo stuff, but I'm an emo wimp and I like heartfelt dream love songs. So whatever.
Also, my cute friend is in one of their videos and it's nice:
And Thom is in this band as well, he's going to be really sweaty tonight.
The Priddle Concern - We've been over this.
Boys Who Say No - New favourite band. Such a good dance party last time I saw them. And nice guys, too. Also they are babes and you now know my theory on babes
Great Lake Swimmers - !!! Love them! Oh so dreamy and sad and hits my faulty-heart in the right way
Beth in Battle Mode - I have never heard their music, but one of them is really nice dude. So I can only assume they're great.
The Mark Inside - !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I haven't seen these dudes in forevers! I dated one of them briefly so long ago that it probably doesn't even count. But I love them all, lovely kids (and babes, so, you know), I used to be their best groupie and dance at all their shows. I should do that more. I hope that Chris gets naked again and plays the guitar with a broken beer bottle (not a lot of smarts there)...
Laura Barrett - I have a thumb-drum, kalimba thing too and I do not do anything anywhere near as cool as she does
Meligrove Band - One of them is very nice and loves kittens. Oh yeah, I also love their music and dance party times
Deep Dark Woods - These dudes are great. I bought their CD to be a supportive friend, but I listen to it constantly. Of my own volition.
Grand Analog - (Give it to me raw like sushi on plates) new BFF / comedy pusher. And even though I have to like him because I'm in his music video, he's still amazing. Great Now Magazine write up today!
Wordburglar - He irritates me in real life, but a seriously good rapper. Nice write-up in Now Magazine today, too! And he really is quite funny.
Foxfire - I'm not as into this band's sound as some people seem to be, but they are some of the nicest kids around and their shows are always Parties x 100, so I'm sold. Obviously!
OMG that was more extensive then I expected!
I LOVE MUSIC
(I probably will just end up sleeping and pouting around and not at any shows at all, knowing me...)
That short I did, yes we all know the one (A Small Thing by Adam Garnet Jones), is screening today and tomorrow at the Wordwide Shorts festival.
So I'm heading up there right away. To watch myself on the big screen and feel all famous and shit.
YAY!
Better late than never, here are my NXNE picks!!!
(Their fucking website is being a total dink to me right now and this is taking more effort than it should)
THURSDAY (that's tonight!):
Sloan - Mod club - 9 pm
The Coast - Horseshoe - 9 pm
Small Sins - Horseshoe 11 pm
Two Hours Traffic - Rivoli - 12 am
NQ Arbuckle - Dakota - 12 am
Major Maker - El Mo - 1 am
White Cowbell Oklahoma - Horseshoe - 2 am
FRIDAY
The Priddle Concern - Reverb - 9 pm
Boys Who Say No - Cadillac - 9 pm
Great Lake Swimmers - Reverb - 10 pm
Beth in Battle Mode - Holy Joe's - 11 pm
The Mark Inside - Silver Dollar - 11 pm
Laura Barrett - Reverb - 11 pm
Julie Doiron - Horseshoe - 11pm
Meligrove Band - Reverb - 12am
Will Currie and The Country French - Drake - 12 am
The Diableros - Silver Dollar - 1 am
Justin Rutledge - Reverb - 1 am
SATURDAY
Deep Dark Woods - Cadillac - 9 pm
Grand Analog - Reverb - 10 pm
Wordburglar - C'est What - 11 pm
Foxfire - Reverb - 11 pm
Magneta Lane - Rivoli - 1 am
Tin Bangs - Kathedral 1 am
Foxfire - Sneaky Dee's - 3 am
Holy Shit! too many!
(I'm obviously not going to anywhere near all of those. Most of them occur at 9 on Friday. But I still think they're all going to be great shows)
Small Sins - I met the Carnations in Saskatoon back before I even moved here and partied with Thom and the gang at The Senator... Thom was really into Wesley Snipes and kept imitating his sex moves. I've always had a soft spot for Thom since then. Also, Small Sins are really fun and great.
The Coast - has babes in it. My theory is that babes hang out with other babes, so.... you know.
NQ Arbuckle - Maybe it wouldn't be too bad if I hung out at Dakota three days in a row?
Major Maker - I have Lindy's album from back when I went to a Tegan and Sara show where he opened. He has such, such a great voice. I don't like Major Maker as much as I liked Lindy's solo stuff, but I'm an emo wimp and I like heartfelt dream love songs. So whatever.
Also, my cute friend is in one of their videos and it's nice:
And Thom is in this band as well, he's going to be really sweaty tonight.
The Priddle Concern - We've been over this.
Boys Who Say No - New favourite band. Such a good dance party last time I saw them. And nice guys, too. Also they are babes and you now know my theory on babes
Great Lake Swimmers - !!! Love them! Oh so dreamy and sad and hits my faulty-heart in the right way
Beth in Battle Mode - I have never heard their music, but one of them is really nice dude. So I can only assume they're great.
The Mark Inside - !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I haven't seen these dudes in forevers! I dated one of them briefly so long ago that it probably doesn't even count. But I love them all, lovely kids (and babes, so, you know), I used to be their best groupie and dance at all their shows. I should do that more. I hope that Chris gets naked again and plays the guitar with a broken beer bottle (not a lot of smarts there)...
Laura Barrett - I have a thumb-drum, kalimba thing too and I do not do anything anywhere near as cool as she does
Meligrove Band - One of them is very nice and loves kittens. Oh yeah, I also love their music and dance party times
Deep Dark Woods - These dudes are great. I bought their CD to be a supportive friend, but I listen to it constantly. Of my own volition.
Grand Analog - (Give it to me raw like sushi on plates) new BFF / comedy pusher. And even though I have to like him because I'm in his music video, he's still amazing. Great Now Magazine write up today!
Wordburglar - He irritates me in real life, but a seriously good rapper. Nice write-up in Now Magazine today, too! And he really is quite funny.
Foxfire - I'm not as into this band's sound as some people seem to be, but they are some of the nicest kids around and their shows are always Parties x 100, so I'm sold. Obviously!
OMG that was more extensive then I expected!
I LOVE MUSIC
(I probably will just end up sleeping and pouting around and not at any shows at all, knowing me...)
daily affirmations
Ooops, didn't go back and finish that one paragraph yesterday like I meant to...
And then he:
said (to my back as I was running away) "Thank you..."
I'm very sophisticated and you should never be hesitant to introduce me to your celebrity friends.
Like how that night I also told the dude from White Cowbell Oklahoma the story that is contained in this entry. And in nearly the same breath told the singer from Elliott Brood that sometimes when he talked it sounded like when he was singing and then I felt glad.
I'm very cool.
Partied hard again last night. I basically live at Dakota. I just shouldn't go home. Last night turned out to be the NQ Arbuckle CD release (their myspace has a song called Saskatoon!). I bought a CD! Their set tonight was going to be one of my NXNE picks but now it seems a bit redundant.
Fun times last night though. Hung with my BFF and The DDWs - well, mostly one member in particular. BFF and I mostly hung at the bar and girl-talked. After she left I chatted up a really drunk babe and then I drank some more. Drinking is healthy and I have a healthy lifestyle. Which will continue on indefinitely into the end of time because I am fun.
.
Brunch got pushed back a half-hour (my life is so hard) and so I just french-manicured my fingers and red-painted my toes. Beyond hot.
Oh yeah I got a sexy new shirt yesterday. I would show you a picture of it but I can't because I still don't have my camera and I need to go pick up but I've been busy busy party-bee.
I had to buy myself the shirt because of how I went to Fruits and Passions and they had 100% ABSOLUTELY NONE OF MY PERFUME LEFT. I almost wept. But there's no point crying over spilt perfume.
Why did I so wastefully apply it all these years?? I should've hoarded it, kept it sacred...
So. Everyone who doesn't live in Toronto... can you see if your local F+P has any left? I will reimburse for any/all bottles of the eau de toilette.
Stupid store.
.
A few funny self-indulgent stories:
1) I was walking through Sears after work yesterday and in the electronics department my commercial was playing on about 50 screens. I stopped and watched. No one noticed even though I was talking loudly about it on my cellphone.
2) A babe I was making eyes at at the bar recognized me from being off TV. I wonder if it will make it easier or harder to pick up now? He also insisted that when I say "cubes" it sounds remarkably like "cute", which he said was perfect.
3) My BFF's friend, this guy:
tells his friends about how he tried to make me do shots off his stomach, see here
(it looks like his navel is filled with blood but it is really booze of some sort)
whenever my commercial comes on.
Yike.
.
Oh fuck, I forgot I bought a pretentious beret. I have to remember to wear that soon!
It's one of my very best friends' birthdays today! And she loves birthdays more than anyone I ever met! Birthday to her is Christmas to me. If you can imagine.
So HAPPY BIRTHDAY KILLS!!!!!!!
And then he:
said (to my back as I was running away) "Thank you..."
I'm very sophisticated and you should never be hesitant to introduce me to your celebrity friends.
Like how that night I also told the dude from White Cowbell Oklahoma the story that is contained in this entry. And in nearly the same breath told the singer from Elliott Brood that sometimes when he talked it sounded like when he was singing and then I felt glad.
I'm very cool.
Partied hard again last night. I basically live at Dakota. I just shouldn't go home. Last night turned out to be the NQ Arbuckle CD release (their myspace has a song called Saskatoon!). I bought a CD! Their set tonight was going to be one of my NXNE picks but now it seems a bit redundant.
Fun times last night though. Hung with my BFF and The DDWs - well, mostly one member in particular. BFF and I mostly hung at the bar and girl-talked. After she left I chatted up a really drunk babe and then I drank some more. Drinking is healthy and I have a healthy lifestyle. Which will continue on indefinitely into the end of time because I am fun.
.
Brunch got pushed back a half-hour (my life is so hard) and so I just french-manicured my fingers and red-painted my toes. Beyond hot.
Oh yeah I got a sexy new shirt yesterday. I would show you a picture of it but I can't because I still don't have my camera and I need to go pick up but I've been busy busy party-bee.
I had to buy myself the shirt because of how I went to Fruits and Passions and they had 100% ABSOLUTELY NONE OF MY PERFUME LEFT. I almost wept. But there's no point crying over spilt perfume.
Why did I so wastefully apply it all these years?? I should've hoarded it, kept it sacred...
So. Everyone who doesn't live in Toronto... can you see if your local F+P has any left? I will reimburse for any/all bottles of the eau de toilette.
Stupid store.
.
A few funny self-indulgent stories:
1) I was walking through Sears after work yesterday and in the electronics department my commercial was playing on about 50 screens. I stopped and watched. No one noticed even though I was talking loudly about it on my cellphone.
2) A babe I was making eyes at at the bar recognized me from being off TV. I wonder if it will make it easier or harder to pick up now? He also insisted that when I say "cubes" it sounds remarkably like "cute", which he said was perfect.
3) My BFF's friend, this guy:
tells his friends about how he tried to make me do shots off his stomach, see here
(it looks like his navel is filled with blood but it is really booze of some sort)
whenever my commercial comes on.
Yike.
.
Oh fuck, I forgot I bought a pretentious beret. I have to remember to wear that soon!
It's one of my very best friends' birthdays today! And she loves birthdays more than anyone I ever met! Birthday to her is Christmas to me. If you can imagine.
So HAPPY BIRTHDAY KILLS!!!!!!!
6.11.2008
I haven't had my camera lately :(
Hmm. I think I might be still drunk. Yayayayay day game! I hate day games. There's no money to be made, only tiny children with their over-worked teachers dreaming of the noontime prostitutes they're going to get tomorrow...
By some magical stroke of luck (I'm blaming that penny I found on the floor) I managed to make dollar dollar billz at work last night and somehow get out of there by 9:30. That never happens. It was magical!
I was able to make it over to Dakota to see Nick's whole set! I thought I was going to miss it completely, but I got to go and dance and be in awe over how seriously how much I love that dude's musics. I had pretty fun times, getting in on people's dates and being obnoxious at peoples.
Went to Horseshoe afterwards, I missed Deep Dark Woods but I still had time to party with them. Yay Saskatooners! I got drunk.
Again.
But then I'm seldom sober. And neither have I wings to fly....
Dave Foley was totally checking me out. When I went to a better vantage to stare across the room to see if it was, indeed, him. It was! I wanted to talk to him. But then I didn't. But then I did! As we were leaving I ran up to him and yelled I LOVE KIDS IN THE HALL which was very, very suave and he
I had a lot of boobs yesterday so that's probably why. Yayayayayaay boobs!!!
I'm excited for having my house to myself again. But my mum was right when she said "you're going to miss me you know!" Sigh.
I'm excited for getting back onto the Party Train and partying til dawn. It's actually summer for realz and this deserves celebrations!
By some magical stroke of luck (I'm blaming that penny I found on the floor) I managed to make dollar dollar billz at work last night and somehow get out of there by 9:30. That never happens. It was magical!
I was able to make it over to Dakota to see Nick's whole set! I thought I was going to miss it completely, but I got to go and dance and be in awe over how seriously how much I love that dude's musics. I had pretty fun times, getting in on people's dates and being obnoxious at peoples.
Went to Horseshoe afterwards, I missed Deep Dark Woods but I still had time to party with them. Yay Saskatooners! I got drunk.
Again.
But then I'm seldom sober. And neither have I wings to fly....
Dave Foley was totally checking me out. When I went to a better vantage to stare across the room to see if it was, indeed, him. It was! I wanted to talk to him. But then I didn't. But then I did! As we were leaving I ran up to him and yelled I LOVE KIDS IN THE HALL which was very, very suave and he
I had a lot of boobs yesterday so that's probably why. Yayayayayaay boobs!!!
I'm excited for having my house to myself again. But my mum was right when she said "you're going to miss me you know!" Sigh.
I'm excited for getting back onto the Party Train and partying til dawn. It's actually summer for realz and this deserves celebrations!
6.10.2008
I haven't seen/heard from a mouse in over a week!
My mum left this morning, at 6. And I'm the lazy sort of daughter who doesn't take her mother to airport. But it was at 6! And I made her stay up late doing my taxes (oh man, I'm such a bad person)..
It was a really nice visit. I wish I could have been less irritable and a better hostess... but this attic is just too small for two! I hope I have a nice big house for her to visit some day. (in Saskatoon).
We didn't get around to doing everything that we'd wanted to, but we did do quite a bit. I wish we'd gone to the island and to high park (I still really need to go to the island. soon. anyone?).
Mum came to see me do The Late Late Horror Show at Bad Dog on Saturday and it was probably the best I've done yet. Some parts were pretty hysterical, even parts that I was in!!!!
I couldn't stop laughing when I was supposed to be dead though.
I'm so Horatio Sans.
It was nice that my mum was able to come and see it. She was pretty proud, I bet.
Sunday we went to see so many things, ran from one place to the next. We had to, in this heat there's no way either of us wanted to be outdoors.
We saw The Stone Angel, we went to Second City, and then we went to see comedy at The Rivoli. Whoaly.
Ladies about town.
Yeah Sunday was better than Monday where I just made her do my taxes while I scoped babes on www.
The Rivoli has weird acoustics and people onstage seem to be able to hear everything any audience member says, with perfect clarity.. so when I said "no" instead of "yes" to wanting to hear a heart-warming story told by the night's MC, James Hartnett, I totally got called out on it. But it was pretty funny. Oh look, he has a blog!!: jameshartnett.blogspot.com (fuck I love the internet - so, so easy to be a creeper!).
He spent a lot of time talking about dads but didn't hear me constantly muttering about not having a dad and shooting dirty looks at my mother (who was also ignoring me)...
Such a funny show though. I have a pretty obnoxious squeal-laugh that sounds like a fire alarm or some other obnoxious shit, and I feel like I should keep a hold of it during shows sometimes...
That's especially hard when it's too funny. I especially like the short films shown by Deb Robinson (I looked for a website, to no avail) and especially the short called Sal by Levi Macdougall. It seriously murdered me. Seriously. Oh, look, you can watch more of his shorts here!
Why do I not spend more time going to comedy??? I don't even make sense to myself.
Especially since I'm pretty sure my New Boyfriend really likes comedy and is really funny.
I wonder who he is...
And why he hasn't come to me yet...
And especially because I'm going to be that funny pretty soon I bet.
It was a really nice visit. I wish I could have been less irritable and a better hostess... but this attic is just too small for two! I hope I have a nice big house for her to visit some day. (in Saskatoon).
We didn't get around to doing everything that we'd wanted to, but we did do quite a bit. I wish we'd gone to the island and to high park (I still really need to go to the island. soon. anyone?).
Mum came to see me do The Late Late Horror Show at Bad Dog on Saturday and it was probably the best I've done yet. Some parts were pretty hysterical, even parts that I was in!!!!
I couldn't stop laughing when I was supposed to be dead though.
I'm so Horatio Sans.
It was nice that my mum was able to come and see it. She was pretty proud, I bet.
Sunday we went to see so many things, ran from one place to the next. We had to, in this heat there's no way either of us wanted to be outdoors.
We saw The Stone Angel, we went to Second City, and then we went to see comedy at The Rivoli. Whoaly.
Ladies about town.
Yeah Sunday was better than Monday where I just made her do my taxes while I scoped babes on www.
The Rivoli has weird acoustics and people onstage seem to be able to hear everything any audience member says, with perfect clarity.. so when I said "no" instead of "yes" to wanting to hear a heart-warming story told by the night's MC, James Hartnett, I totally got called out on it. But it was pretty funny. Oh look, he has a blog!!: jameshartnett.blogspot.com (fuck I love the internet - so, so easy to be a creeper!).
He spent a lot of time talking about dads but didn't hear me constantly muttering about not having a dad and shooting dirty looks at my mother (who was also ignoring me)...
Such a funny show though. I have a pretty obnoxious squeal-laugh that sounds like a fire alarm or some other obnoxious shit, and I feel like I should keep a hold of it during shows sometimes...
That's especially hard when it's too funny. I especially like the short films shown by Deb Robinson (I looked for a website, to no avail) and especially the short called Sal by Levi Macdougall. It seriously murdered me. Seriously. Oh, look, you can watch more of his shorts here!
Why do I not spend more time going to comedy??? I don't even make sense to myself.
Especially since I'm pretty sure my New Boyfriend really likes comedy and is really funny.
I wonder who he is...
And why he hasn't come to me yet...
And especially because I'm going to be that funny pretty soon I bet.
6.09.2008
the return of Bill Priddle!
I don't know how this has escaped my attention for the past month. I don't know how I managed to miss an instore performance just down the street from me... but Bill Priddle, formerly of Treble Charger, has a new album!
Finally!!!
I've been waiting for this record since Priddle left TC years ago. He was always the best thing about Treble Charger, and now we get a whole album of his songs!
The Priddle Concern album was released last month, and you can stream most of it on their Myspace: myspace.com/thepriddleconcern, you can check out their website: thepriddleconcern.com" and download the song Back Around.
You might be able to tell that I'm pretty excited about this. Treble Charger was one of my very favourites in high school. I still have all the early CDs and I might even still have a Converse-released single of theirs. Which was passed around through a bunch of kids I thought were really cool, and it eventually ended up in my sweaty palms.
I still love living by Trinity Bellwoods park, because of TC's song by the same name (which is still one of my favourites)...
Oh lord planning my North By Northeast festival experience (especially around all my jobs) is going to be such a trial and a half... Too many good things to see and dance parties to rock (and babes to scope)...
Finally!!!
I've been waiting for this record since Priddle left TC years ago. He was always the best thing about Treble Charger, and now we get a whole album of his songs!
The Priddle Concern album was released last month, and you can stream most of it on their Myspace: myspace.com/thepriddleconcern, you can check out their website: thepriddleconcern.com" and download the song Back Around.
You might be able to tell that I'm pretty excited about this. Treble Charger was one of my very favourites in high school. I still have all the early CDs and I might even still have a Converse-released single of theirs. Which was passed around through a bunch of kids I thought were really cool, and it eventually ended up in my sweaty palms.
I still love living by Trinity Bellwoods park, because of TC's song by the same name (which is still one of my favourites)...
Oh lord planning my North By Northeast festival experience (especially around all my jobs) is going to be such a trial and a half... Too many good things to see and dance parties to rock (and babes to scope)...
careful, careful
Blogging is such, such an odd sport.
It's changed so ridiculous much since I started on diaryland back in 2001.
Back then I could write whatever I wanted about anyone, post everyone's names, intimate details, everything. No one really read it, only strangers, e-friends.. I posted inside business, people's secrets, boys I had crushes on, boys I cheated on; knowing that people wouldn't really get around to reading it.. probably.
On that diary everything got written, and I got into trouble numerous times, had to retract, re-think, re-state, delete. I messed up friendships occasionally and got spied on and was cruel.. I got called out on shit and honestly hurt people a few times. And regretted it.
These days I want to be able to say that I am out for the greater good. That I am about care-giving and care-taking. I want to be able to say that. I don't always succeed, but I make efforts.
And therefore I am a more careful blogger.
I want this to be an interesting, entertaining read, but I'm not willing to be mean for it.
I screw up sometimes when something is too funny. When I can't step back and realize the cruelty out-weighs the humour value.
It's like Perez Hilton vs. Tyler Durden:
Perez can be sharp, critical, and definitely calls people on their shit, but he honestly loves things, loves people, links to causes and he supports where need be. TD is all about cruelty, attacking everyone and everything, no mercy. Which is honestly funny... but not something I can take very much of. And not something I'd want to be a part of.
I want to be proud of everything I'm saying these days. That's not possible, I'm still a gossip, snitch, and struggler, but maybe sometime...
.
I'm terrible at expressing feelings. I need therapy. To re-learn how to be open. I don't know how to tell my mother (or anyone, really) that I love her anymore. Not properly, warmly, without reservations. I don't know how to hug people, to compliment for no reason, to comfort.. only in tangible ways maybe - gifts, actions, etc.
I don't know how to meet people and be friendly without feeling like I'm faking it.
Being terrible at niceties (and neckties) is one of my main character traits, which I am pseudo-proud of. Which maybe I honed at some point.. But I need to work at being warm, and more specifically, even - gracious.
No one would ever say that about me now.
My mother, while on this trip, found out that one of her best friends is dying, and I am unable to express how terrified this makes me. How the idea of this woman's daughter (an only child, who I've known my whole life practically) being almost alone afterwards... You know.
I can only act in a detached, bored fashion - like this is expected somehow.
.
I was staring at my mum's nose today, while we were sitting outside of the ice cream parlour, and she thought she had something on it, but really I was just checking to see if it was anything like mine.
Not really.
I never did get around to replying to that possible bio-dad who emailed me.
I should. For sure.
I thought today was father's day, but it is apparently not. Good thing. Still got a whole nother week to search him, find him, get to know him, buy him a gift and then give it to him (no generic golf-themed gifts for this girl's dad).
Not to mention then have some sort of buffet brunch!
It's changed so ridiculous much since I started on diaryland back in 2001.
Back then I could write whatever I wanted about anyone, post everyone's names, intimate details, everything. No one really read it, only strangers, e-friends.. I posted inside business, people's secrets, boys I had crushes on, boys I cheated on; knowing that people wouldn't really get around to reading it.. probably.
On that diary everything got written, and I got into trouble numerous times, had to retract, re-think, re-state, delete. I messed up friendships occasionally and got spied on and was cruel.. I got called out on shit and honestly hurt people a few times. And regretted it.
These days I want to be able to say that I am out for the greater good. That I am about care-giving and care-taking. I want to be able to say that. I don't always succeed, but I make efforts.
And therefore I am a more careful blogger.
I want this to be an interesting, entertaining read, but I'm not willing to be mean for it.
I screw up sometimes when something is too funny. When I can't step back and realize the cruelty out-weighs the humour value.
It's like Perez Hilton vs. Tyler Durden:
Perez can be sharp, critical, and definitely calls people on their shit, but he honestly loves things, loves people, links to causes and he supports where need be. TD is all about cruelty, attacking everyone and everything, no mercy. Which is honestly funny... but not something I can take very much of. And not something I'd want to be a part of.
I want to be proud of everything I'm saying these days. That's not possible, I'm still a gossip, snitch, and struggler, but maybe sometime...
.
I'm terrible at expressing feelings. I need therapy. To re-learn how to be open. I don't know how to tell my mother (or anyone, really) that I love her anymore. Not properly, warmly, without reservations. I don't know how to hug people, to compliment for no reason, to comfort.. only in tangible ways maybe - gifts, actions, etc.
I don't know how to meet people and be friendly without feeling like I'm faking it.
Being terrible at niceties (and neckties) is one of my main character traits, which I am pseudo-proud of. Which maybe I honed at some point.. But I need to work at being warm, and more specifically, even - gracious.
No one would ever say that about me now.
My mother, while on this trip, found out that one of her best friends is dying, and I am unable to express how terrified this makes me. How the idea of this woman's daughter (an only child, who I've known my whole life practically) being almost alone afterwards... You know.
I can only act in a detached, bored fashion - like this is expected somehow.
.
I was staring at my mum's nose today, while we were sitting outside of the ice cream parlour, and she thought she had something on it, but really I was just checking to see if it was anything like mine.
Not really.
I never did get around to replying to that possible bio-dad who emailed me.
I should. For sure.
I thought today was father's day, but it is apparently not. Good thing. Still got a whole nother week to search him, find him, get to know him, buy him a gift and then give it to him (no generic golf-themed gifts for this girl's dad).
Not to mention then have some sort of buffet brunch!
6.07.2008
hurlage
I've realized that all of my multiplication skillz are tied up in beer. Beer cases, and rows of beers. Kind of strange.
My mum thought I was kidding when I said that I had completely forgotten how to do long division. I used to really like doing long division, too. Huh.
I'm sitting here dripping. It is way to hot to work all day and then bike home.
We caught a fake ID today at work. The funny thing is that it's the same kind as an acquaintance of mine has. She doesn't even drink, but she plays in bands at bars and needs to be able to get in.
The beer waste hadn't been emptied in god knows how long at my unit today and it was full right right right up and sloshing out and it was chunky and mouldy and I took it into the stand to pour it into the floor-sink but it was the roast beef sandwich stand and so my face was all up in the pans of fat off the beef and I was sliding around in the grease and dropped meat on the floor. I just about up-chucked.
No one would have noticed though because it would have looked just the same as the beer waste.
My mum thought I was kidding when I said that I had completely forgotten how to do long division. I used to really like doing long division, too. Huh.
I'm sitting here dripping. It is way to hot to work all day and then bike home.
We caught a fake ID today at work. The funny thing is that it's the same kind as an acquaintance of mine has. She doesn't even drink, but she plays in bands at bars and needs to be able to get in.
The beer waste hadn't been emptied in god knows how long at my unit today and it was full right right right up and sloshing out and it was chunky and mouldy and I took it into the stand to pour it into the floor-sink but it was the roast beef sandwich stand and so my face was all up in the pans of fat off the beef and I was sliding around in the grease and dropped meat on the floor. I just about up-chucked.
No one would have noticed though because it would have looked just the same as the beer waste.
you'll get what's coming to you
So. I kind of believe in karma.
I feel like we should all act like the sort of people we'd like to attract. Now, I never put that into total practice, but it's a nice theory. And I feel like selfish behaviour attracts selfish behaviour.
Hmm.
I cut some more of my hairs off yesterday and now I like it better.
Went to visit my agent yesterday to drop off the DVD of A Small Thing (the cover has my face on it, even!!) and stayed and talked to him for a bit. I really, really like my agent. I don't know if I've mentioned, but, I really like my agent.
He kept going on about how well I was looking (except also agreed that my hair colour is a bit much, I'm working on it). He suggested it might be time to put together a bit of a reel to add to my casting workbook profile.
Now I have to go through everything and decide which bits to use. And figure out how to make the damn thing, even.
Party town last night. Went to Whippersnapper with Sass and her friend. Pretty fun party, art + dance party + cheap drinks - heat = good times. Way, way too hot in there. Drippy hot. We spent a lot of time out on the sidewalk, cooling off, as did a lot of other people. I like sidewalk parties. One of my favourite friends was right next door with his buds and so went and partied with them a bit too. He really is one of my favourite friends, our relationship is kind of bizarre and we don't have any mutual friends, really. But we do have a mutual desire for partying.
Ended up at Sneaky Dee's after for foods with friend's buds but not friend. I don't know what possessed me to go, since I definitely have to work at 11.
I'm dumb.
Real dumb.
Oh yeah, one of the dudes from Degrassi (tng) was at Whip, and I sort of know him and some girls on the street recognized him and somewhat accosted him and I found that toooo funny and jumped right in too
"Are you off the TV?"
"You're that dude from the TV!!! I know you!"
That picture was supposed to be of him getting accosted but then I have poor focussing skillz whilst drunk and while it's dark out. Still kind of neat.
He told me that I was also off TV and should quit that. I didn't.
It's too hot. Much too much.
Hates it.
Don't want to go to work today. Hope I make all the moneys.
I feel like we should all act like the sort of people we'd like to attract. Now, I never put that into total practice, but it's a nice theory. And I feel like selfish behaviour attracts selfish behaviour.
Hmm.
I cut some more of my hairs off yesterday and now I like it better.
Went to visit my agent yesterday to drop off the DVD of A Small Thing (the cover has my face on it, even!!) and stayed and talked to him for a bit. I really, really like my agent. I don't know if I've mentioned, but, I really like my agent.
He kept going on about how well I was looking (except also agreed that my hair colour is a bit much, I'm working on it). He suggested it might be time to put together a bit of a reel to add to my casting workbook profile.
Now I have to go through everything and decide which bits to use. And figure out how to make the damn thing, even.
Party town last night. Went to Whippersnapper with Sass and her friend. Pretty fun party, art + dance party + cheap drinks - heat = good times. Way, way too hot in there. Drippy hot. We spent a lot of time out on the sidewalk, cooling off, as did a lot of other people. I like sidewalk parties. One of my favourite friends was right next door with his buds and so went and partied with them a bit too. He really is one of my favourite friends, our relationship is kind of bizarre and we don't have any mutual friends, really. But we do have a mutual desire for partying.
Ended up at Sneaky Dee's after for foods with friend's buds but not friend. I don't know what possessed me to go, since I definitely have to work at 11.
I'm dumb.
Real dumb.
Oh yeah, one of the dudes from Degrassi (tng) was at Whip, and I sort of know him and some girls on the street recognized him and somewhat accosted him and I found that toooo funny and jumped right in too
"Are you off the TV?"
"You're that dude from the TV!!! I know you!"
That picture was supposed to be of him getting accosted but then I have poor focussing skillz whilst drunk and while it's dark out. Still kind of neat.
He told me that I was also off TV and should quit that. I didn't.
It's too hot. Much too much.
Hates it.
Don't want to go to work today. Hope I make all the moneys.
6.06.2008
things will never smell the same
Apparently it feels like 41 degrees out there. I'm for sure not going out of here until I have to.
I have to work for the first time in around a week. Man I'm lazy.
First time turning on the AC this year.
I can't believe that they are discontinuing my perfume!
I seriously can't believe it.
Dear Everyone I Know,
Guess what I want for my birthday/Christmas? It's lemon vanilla eau de toilette spray from Fruits and Passion. And it's selling out right now, so you can just go right over there and buy some (the big bottles please, I'm stocking up for my lifetime) and then you'll be all set to make my holiday season a delight! Lucky you!
No, seriously though, I promise to not be mad if all I receive is lemon vanilla perfume. I don't have any real interest in any of the other products, just the eau de toilette.. Which I need. Badly.
Please?
Thanks!
Meredith R. Mistletoe
I got my internet cheque yesterday from the gum commercial! yaayayay. Now I'm not so ridiculously, terribly broke. And I don't feel as bad for being lazy. Even though I should.
I want to get another lens for my camera! That would be fun!
I still haven't done my taxes.
JFYI.
And I'm avoiding calling Bell. I hate dealing with any of these companies.. it makes me want to barf. Onto my own face. And then smear it around.
Well, that was actually way less painful than I thought it was going to be.
ATTN: everyone who has a cellphone with Bell Canada:
Unlimited Canadian long distance minutes Saturdays and Sundays for only $5!!!!!
Why had I never heard of that before?
Oh right, they hide the good plans and features from you.
Everyone expect weekend phone-call catch-ups from me. (Except for how stupid busy I am but still.)
My mum is in Ottawa for today and tomorrow (coming back to see The Late Late Horror Show) so I have my room to myself and I am doing a whole lot of nothing. Cutting off more bits of hairs (too much, maybe?), surfing the nets, eating sushi left-overs.
We went shopping yesterday and then for sushi (mum loves tempura), then we went to see Then She Found Me. I think the Now Magazine review of it was pretty dead-on three 'N's not 4. It was quite good though, and the emotions do creep up on you. It was surprisingly drab, visually, and had a tired soundtrack (Iron and Wine, seriously? While she's naked even? Come on.), but Helen Hunt was rather lovely, Matthew Broderick delightfully wienery, Bette Midler nicely over-the-top, and Colin Firth pretty attractive.
And a good movie to see with your mum because it's all about mothers and daughters.. very appropriate.
After dinner mum went home and I went for a beer with my bff at Ted's. We sat on the back patio and it thundered and lightninged but it didn't rain. Nice.
Tonight I have to party since I have no mum to take care of. But first I have to work and I have to work early-ish tomorrow morning. Booooooooooooooo.
I have to work for the first time in around a week. Man I'm lazy.
First time turning on the AC this year.
I can't believe that they are discontinuing my perfume!
I seriously can't believe it.
Dear Everyone I Know,
Guess what I want for my birthday/Christmas? It's lemon vanilla eau de toilette spray from Fruits and Passion. And it's selling out right now, so you can just go right over there and buy some (the big bottles please, I'm stocking up for my lifetime) and then you'll be all set to make my holiday season a delight! Lucky you!
No, seriously though, I promise to not be mad if all I receive is lemon vanilla perfume. I don't have any real interest in any of the other products, just the eau de toilette.. Which I need. Badly.
Please?
Thanks!
Meredith R. Mistletoe
I got my internet cheque yesterday from the gum commercial! yaayayay. Now I'm not so ridiculously, terribly broke. And I don't feel as bad for being lazy. Even though I should.
I want to get another lens for my camera! That would be fun!
I still haven't done my taxes.
JFYI.
And I'm avoiding calling Bell. I hate dealing with any of these companies.. it makes me want to barf. Onto my own face. And then smear it around.
Well, that was actually way less painful than I thought it was going to be.
ATTN: everyone who has a cellphone with Bell Canada:
Unlimited Canadian long distance minutes Saturdays and Sundays for only $5!!!!!
Why had I never heard of that before?
Oh right, they hide the good plans and features from you.
Everyone expect weekend phone-call catch-ups from me. (Except for how stupid busy I am but still.)
My mum is in Ottawa for today and tomorrow (coming back to see The Late Late Horror Show) so I have my room to myself and I am doing a whole lot of nothing. Cutting off more bits of hairs (too much, maybe?), surfing the nets, eating sushi left-overs.
We went shopping yesterday and then for sushi (mum loves tempura), then we went to see Then She Found Me. I think the Now Magazine review of it was pretty dead-on three 'N's not 4. It was quite good though, and the emotions do creep up on you. It was surprisingly drab, visually, and had a tired soundtrack (Iron and Wine, seriously? While she's naked even? Come on.), but Helen Hunt was rather lovely, Matthew Broderick delightfully wienery, Bette Midler nicely over-the-top, and Colin Firth pretty attractive.
And a good movie to see with your mum because it's all about mothers and daughters.. very appropriate.
After dinner mum went home and I went for a beer with my bff at Ted's. We sat on the back patio and it thundered and lightninged but it didn't rain. Nice.
Tonight I have to party since I have no mum to take care of. But first I have to work and I have to work early-ish tomorrow morning. Booooooooooooooo.
6.05.2008
just like rory gilmore
oh yeah forgot to tell you,
I cut off like four inches of my hair. but it's boring. and so I need to cut some more off of it to make it interesting. or something. because you can't cut on some more of it. no sir. I don't know what to do about it, it's all stupid.
I kind of want it to be a dark brown/red sort of like rory gilmour in the end of that show:
also, I would like to be tall and skinny and beautiful like her and have a defined chin and bright blue eyes..
But that's another story and a half.
Also I would like date Milo Ventimiglia (or whatever the hell his name is) but not get dumped by him for that whiney suck Hayden Pansomethingsomething (who always fucks up my search results when I'm trying to find stuff on my true interest, regular Hayden).
I'm irritable!!!
I cut off like four inches of my hair. but it's boring. and so I need to cut some more off of it to make it interesting. or something. because you can't cut on some more of it. no sir. I don't know what to do about it, it's all stupid.
I kind of want it to be a dark brown/red sort of like rory gilmour in the end of that show:
also, I would like to be tall and skinny and beautiful like her and have a defined chin and bright blue eyes..
But that's another story and a half.
Also I would like date Milo Ventimiglia (or whatever the hell his name is) but not get dumped by him for that whiney suck Hayden Pansomethingsomething (who always fucks up my search results when I'm trying to find stuff on my true interest, regular Hayden).
I'm irritable!!!
more women about town business
Had such, such a good rehearsal yesterday.
Went to the park and ran around and I worked on my end monologue and added some pretty funny (to me) bits. Got really really excited about finally doing a play! I love theatre! I miss theatre!
We rehearse in a park next to a cool church
Last night mum and I went to the cast and crew screening of A Small Thing, which is the short film I did back in November for my friend Adam. It premieres next week at the CFC's worldwide shorts festival - in case you are forgetting.
It was nice to go the screening, which was held at the extremely fancy Spoke Club. My friend, mother, and I all visited the bathrooms on the way out and we all had our own private room (naturally) but as we were coming out, my friend beckoned us into hers to show us the ultra fancy hand-dryer which you put your hands all the way inside. Yeah, we played with that for a bit. Except it was extremely loud and so I'm sure everyone in the fancy dining room heard us white trash horsing around in the bathroom.
Embarrassing.
The thing is, I'm still going to be like that even when I'm extremely rich and famous.
You can only go to Spoke Club if you are a member, and you can only join if you are successful in the arts/media/culture business and if you are invited. And you can't bring your body-guards and entourage inside with you - so don't even try it.
Mum and I walked down this alley/road on our way there. It looked sort of like Montreal. Those new giant recycle bins are eyesores.
I took my mum to dinner at Squirrley's and the server was really baffled at my mother's request for a class of milk. It was pretty good.
Then we went to the movies. We wanted to see Baby Mama but it wasn't playing at that theatre. So we ended up at Narnia.
Hmmm. Yeah, that wasn't a very good. Movie. But I still liked it. I hate battle scenes though, especially un-clever battle scenes. But all of those kids are pretty watchable, especially the little girl who played Lucy, I like her a lot. And the dude who played Peter is pretty babely. Not to mention Caspian himself. Oh, and I think Susan was so pretty and looked so good in chainmail. I want to become a creative anachronist just to be able to dress up like that...
I know these movies are bad, but I still feel some of the magic in them that I did when I read this series as a child.
But only some of it.
We wanted to go see Baby Mama.. maybe we'll try and see that too. But then I got to reading movie reviews today and I'd also really like to see The Stone Angel and And Then She Found Me (even though the reviews said the donor insemination parts are a little absurd and that always gets me...)
I love movies!!
I always forget how much I love movies!
After Prince Caspian it was about 1 a.m. (which is late for old people and for people who hang out with old people because old people leach the energies of the youth just to feed their waning spirits. jk gosh.) so we took the streetcar home instead of walking like we had been all day.
Today my mum is wandering around going to galleries and things that I don't really care about and I am being a selfish host and playing on the computer instead. But I'll go hang out with her later and stuff. So it's fine.
I'm out of my favourite perfume and I don't smell like myself and it's bothering me. I've worn this kind of perfume since 2001 and I'm not going to tell you what it is in case you think maybe you'd also like to smell like delicious baked goods and sugars and then you go and buy it too and then we smell the same and then my one secret weapon for babe-entrapment (jk, I don't even need any weapons because have you even seen me? gd I'm so hot, it's unbelievable, really...........................) would be not so secret anymore.
Okay, fine, you can know.
It's just plain old lemon vanilla from Fruits and Passion. It doesn't matter because it wouldn't smell as good on you anyhow.
It's so nice though.
OMG I'm having a shit fit, I'm looking at their website and it's not listed on there anymore and I'm going to cry for real if they've discontinued it. I needed to stock up!
Oh god I have to go there!
Went to the park and ran around and I worked on my end monologue and added some pretty funny (to me) bits. Got really really excited about finally doing a play! I love theatre! I miss theatre!
We rehearse in a park next to a cool church
Last night mum and I went to the cast and crew screening of A Small Thing, which is the short film I did back in November for my friend Adam. It premieres next week at the CFC's worldwide shorts festival - in case you are forgetting.
It was nice to go the screening, which was held at the extremely fancy Spoke Club. My friend, mother, and I all visited the bathrooms on the way out and we all had our own private room (naturally) but as we were coming out, my friend beckoned us into hers to show us the ultra fancy hand-dryer which you put your hands all the way inside. Yeah, we played with that for a bit. Except it was extremely loud and so I'm sure everyone in the fancy dining room heard us white trash horsing around in the bathroom.
Embarrassing.
The thing is, I'm still going to be like that even when I'm extremely rich and famous.
You can only go to Spoke Club if you are a member, and you can only join if you are successful in the arts/media/culture business and if you are invited. And you can't bring your body-guards and entourage inside with you - so don't even try it.
Mum and I walked down this alley/road on our way there. It looked sort of like Montreal. Those new giant recycle bins are eyesores.
I took my mum to dinner at Squirrley's and the server was really baffled at my mother's request for a class of milk. It was pretty good.
Then we went to the movies. We wanted to see Baby Mama but it wasn't playing at that theatre. So we ended up at Narnia.
Hmmm. Yeah, that wasn't a very good. Movie. But I still liked it. I hate battle scenes though, especially un-clever battle scenes. But all of those kids are pretty watchable, especially the little girl who played Lucy, I like her a lot. And the dude who played Peter is pretty babely. Not to mention Caspian himself. Oh, and I think Susan was so pretty and looked so good in chainmail. I want to become a creative anachronist just to be able to dress up like that...
I know these movies are bad, but I still feel some of the magic in them that I did when I read this series as a child.
But only some of it.
We wanted to go see Baby Mama.. maybe we'll try and see that too. But then I got to reading movie reviews today and I'd also really like to see The Stone Angel and And Then She Found Me (even though the reviews said the donor insemination parts are a little absurd and that always gets me...)
I love movies!!
I always forget how much I love movies!
After Prince Caspian it was about 1 a.m. (which is late for old people and for people who hang out with old people because old people leach the energies of the youth just to feed their waning spirits. jk gosh.) so we took the streetcar home instead of walking like we had been all day.
Today my mum is wandering around going to galleries and things that I don't really care about and I am being a selfish host and playing on the computer instead. But I'll go hang out with her later and stuff. So it's fine.
I'm out of my favourite perfume and I don't smell like myself and it's bothering me. I've worn this kind of perfume since 2001 and I'm not going to tell you what it is in case you think maybe you'd also like to smell like delicious baked goods and sugars and then you go and buy it too and then we smell the same and then my one secret weapon for babe-entrapment (jk, I don't even need any weapons because have you even seen me? gd I'm so hot, it's unbelievable, really...........................) would be not so secret anymore.
Okay, fine, you can know.
It's just plain old lemon vanilla from Fruits and Passion. It doesn't matter because it wouldn't smell as good on you anyhow.
It's so nice though.
OMG I'm having a shit fit, I'm looking at their website and it's not listed on there anymore and I'm going to cry for real if they've discontinued it. I needed to stock up!
Oh god I have to go there!
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