ohhh good here is all about my weight loss plan! How fun! wonderful!

Hopefully this is the only entry that I write that is really only about dieting.

But first some points about this!
a) For a regular woman, I have a solid body. I know that, I don't really have super body-image issues, I like a good curve more than most people, I'd say.
b) I don't think everyone should be skinny. Especially skinny-skinny. Especially not unhealthy.
c) being an actor is different. The main thing you have is your appearance.
d) I will almost certainly fall off this bandwagon and pretend this never happened!

HI GUYS WANT TO KNOW ABOUT MY DIET?

the worst thing about people who are on diets is that all they talk about is their diets! Because they're huuuuungry. Just kidding I'm not very hungry right now. (medium hungry)
But the shitty, shitty thing about keeping track of a diet is that it's always on your mind.

Okay so basically I've just been using My Fitness Pal (cool name! ughhh) to track my calories and exercise.
It seems like MFP is a bit like Weight Watchers but I've never done WW or know anything about it so maybe I'm wrong?

What I like about the idea of tracking calories and exercise is that it's just math. Man, you can eat whatever you want whenever you want and you can not exercise if you don't want to, but the math will tell you why you are or are not losing weight.
MATH DOESN'T LIE.

Know what I'm saying? You can't eat a billion calories of all proteins and not do any activity and then be surprised that you aren't losing weight. And you can't eat twice as much just because you worked out.

I like that there's no tricks or rules, it's just math! So straightforward! Calories in versus calories out!


(I've been eating an ungodly amount of apples. Apples settle my stomach and calm me and I love them.)

Okay, so with this app (available for iphone, bb, android, and online), you enter in your age, height, weight, and goal and it does the math for you and lets you know what your daily "goal" is for calories.
Then in your daily diary you also enter in your cardiovascular activities and it lets you know how many calories you've burned.
I've been walking so, so much lately and feeling wonderful for it (thanks, winter).


I like the game of having a certain amount of calories to spend or earn. It's like being on a budget or having an allowance.
This may sound weird but I'm enjoying food more. I'm taking more care to think about what I'm eating and its nutritional value and taste value and how much of it I'm eating and whether I'm savouring it.

(Also I'm doing remarkably shitty and unhealthy things like saving up all of my calories for beer and nachos. Classssssic.)

For entering things in you can search it in the app and it will remember things you've chosen but you can also scan the barcodes of things you're eating! Fun! It's like an activity game!
Also you can enter your own recipes and it does all the math for you. That is basically genius, in my humble opinion.

I like that the app has a summary of what you've eaten and its nutritional value. Because I'm eating very few calories I need to be more careful that I'm getting what I need.

Obviously not!
Today I've only had some tea and some yogurt and frozen berries and I'm already over what my sugar should be. (I'm pretty much always over on sugars... sigh.)
I'm forsure taking my multivitamin again because this made me realize what maybe I wasn't getting.
I've been into vegetables and fruits in a big, big way, and also homemade soups (obviously!) because they are so simple and delicious and healthy and low-calorie.


Summary! I was maybe a bit silly about this last week. Win some, lose some.


A good thing is that when you're under your calorie goal it gives you this little message, which I think is nice and kind of effective.
I do like that when you complete an entry it tells you what you'd weigh in 5 weeks if every day was like that day. It's just true, it's not a lofty goal, it's just what will really happen if you really eat/exercise that way.

So, in summary, I hate people who talk about their diets but this video-game electronic-tracker-game actor-diet has become one of my favourite jokes and I find it weirdly enjoyable.
Also, tracking progress is rewarding. It just is.
I've lost around 7 pounds so far in the past 4 or 5 weeks. I kind of wish I owned a more accurate scale as I am fascinated/inspired by the progress!  I feel oddly powerful like a knight!
I know people swear against owning scales but I think it's a very individual thing.
Plus I'm not a competitive person, except against myself in silly ways. So I like challenging myself in fun games like this. Just to see.


Oh hey guys, you can keep track of all your "snacks"!


Also, yes, I am very, very worried about losing all my boobs. In case you guys were wondering.

OKAY SOME QUICK THINGS ON MY MIND ABOUT DIETS:

1) Water. So much water all the time.
         If I'm hungry I have a glass of water to assess if I'm actually hungry. Water before food. Helps me realize if I'm full.

2) Virtually every skinny person is more careful about food than you would realize/they would let on.

3) It's okay to be hungry for a minute.
       Somewhere along the line I got a weird panic about food/being hungry. I think it's that I am able to eat so few things that food seems scarce in my life. Ha!
       I'm kind of into the anticipation of most things in life so food is becoming like that. I like being hungry while I put together a wonderful lunch. So delicious in a minute!

4) Alcohol is just calories. Sooooo many calories. You cannot drink all the beers every day and be a skinny guy. My mother will be pleased to hear that I'm drinking less because of this weird game. You're welcome, mother.

okay this is an embarrassing entry to have written for a bunch of reasons! Cool! Great! I hate diets!

don't give a damn bout my sad reputation

It's everyone's birthdays these days! wtf!

Happy Birthday, Carla Ghee!
Happy Birthday, Arrow!
Happy Birthday, Accost!
Happy Birthday, Dayna!

And every other person whose birthday is now or around now! I like you!


in this video I say what I think it would be like to have a boyfriend.

IT'S TOO HOT HERE RIGHT NOW.

I know that winter sucks but days like today are also just toooo much.

Luckily Firehorse made me some breakfast earlier.



And actually then later he brought us freezies. Not bad not bad. Mrs, for one is completely exhausted of hearing about my new roommates. It's kind of like having 3 new boyfriends. They're the people who I see the most of. Of course everything involves them. If they would like me less and go out more, we could avoid this problem.
 


last night I went to comedy with Mrs, Arrow, and Flash Gordon and they all had ciders but I had a smirnoff ice.

Actually I had two.

Also, the day before that I had two smirnoff ices and can everyone stop talking about mixing them with beer? I'm tired of hearing about it. Also, smirnoff ice tastes like a liquid chemical death but sometimes you can't have beer and you don't want 4.5% cider and you don't want a tiny cocktail. YA KNOW?


Flash Gordon and I had 2 smirnoffs each after work and then we were drunk. Because that's what liquid chemical death does for ya.


blueberry lemonade chemical death




I may go to see even more comedy tonight because now I'm totally immersing myself in it and it feels different watching it because instead of jealous I feel inspired and excited for when I'm going to be doing everything too. It's going to be so fun!



I mused to my mother about how many comedians I could make out with because getting a "bad reputation".
I said, "hopefully a lot" and she said it's okay because I'm a comedian now so after making out with them I just yell "JUST KIDDING".
right on, right?



Also, after I got my tattoo my mum said "it's nice because when you feel like adding on to it you can just make it more ornate".

In other news, I'm very homesick. But I still love it here, too.

in case you haven't already had to look at this via fb/twit/etc, here ya go I made a vlog!

Also, it's really funny when babes do not find me funny at all. I don't even know how to handle it, really.
Also funny when babes straight-up don't like me. It's awkward.

One babe I was talking to has a healing broken collarbone and I asked him how it was doing and he said it was a bit contracted and I said "how are you going to keep your bra-strap up?"
Nothing. 

Mrs. asked me about my babes just now and I told her I didn't really have anything to report and that I was being good and she said "It's okay, you're just 'resting' "
ahahahahahaha haaa

No, I have been chilling out a bit lately. I push everything way too much and I take everything too seriously, it gets draining...  Plus, I would genuinely, 100% like to be a good person. I would like to treat people properly and deserve good treatment in return. And when things are casual or I know I'm not in a proper headspace... it's more difficult.
nxne this week, though. Plus I do have crushes, I'll tell ya that for free. Though none that are particularly babes-of-life or accessible or anything.
SUMMERTIME ALL THE TIME.

Today I had my first "living right beside the dakota" experience when I ran into my buds from Elliott Brood while they were loading out from last night. So funny. "what are you doing here?"
I live beside the Dakota!
I do wish I had gone to their show but I had a suuuuper weird migraine thing going on where I was having vision problems and numb extremities and communication issues so no dice on that one. Plus I was at Hoops mostly. I am always at Hoops.
Canucks are making me very worried.



Hoops on the other hand is FUCKING TOP NOTCH.

Did I tell you the other day I got there after working and it was fully at capacity and they weren't letting anyone in?
So I texted all my friends and they all immediately sprung to action and Norman and Carla Ghee told Ellefry (my favourite bartender) who got the manager who came to let me in!
VIP up in Hoops!

"I have bruises from Hoops" -Carla Ghee
"I didn't know you played basketball?" -her friend
"No, from cheering around and banging my legs on the barstools" -Carla Ghee

I have to go put all my new sheets on my bed!!!!

We may or may not have a party next weekend. You wanna come? I know it's nxne but you can come by whenever, YEAH? 

TWILIGHT: ECLIPSE

Oh hey guys, remember when I live-blogged Twilight New Moon? And it was medium-entertaining? (mostly just Norman liked it but since I only care what Norman thinks...) Well I've done it again!

****Spoiler Alert****
(though, again, who cares!?)

TWILIGHT ECLIPSE LIVE BLOG::

ooo a new babe right off the bat. Right arm.
(ughhhh sorry I haven't left the house yet today)

NO NOT THE BAAAAAAABE
whoever is in this alley is the worst for hurting the babe.

waaaaaaaaaaiiiiiitttttttttttt a second, are vampires invisible now?
ultimate sexual fantasy: invisi-partner!

remember Into The Wild?
That was a good movie. Zach Galifianakis was in that. I love him.

Whoa Edward looks way too weird to even ever be considered attractive.
Hey maybe Edward will actually be in this movie not just a floating head like last time. Awww I miss floaty-head.

I think Edward is autistic. Or a vampire.

"Well I think you'll find the vampire human divorce rate is a little lower"
WOW. unbelievably bad. No, actually, I believe it.

For someone who's trying to marry her he sure isn't giving her very many diamonds! hold out for diamonds.

(Niki don't read this part) Hahaaa my friend told me he went as Edward Cullen for Hallowe'en but pussied out of wearing the contacts because he read horror stories about first-time contact wearing slicing their corneas and stuff. What? that's not a thing that people do with contacts. is it??
(Niki you can start reading again)

Wait. Her dad doesn't want her to date a vampire? Also, is that dad old enough to be her dad?

Aw Kristen Stewart is kind of lovely right now. In her pouty-faced way.

"Don't spend time with that vampire, spend time with Jacob, he's going through a tough time right now (A WEREWOLF TIME)"

Aw, I really really miss when I had a truck. (I said this the last time I watched Twilight, apparently)

I keep forgetting they're in highschool! Bella's friends are hipsters!

Whoa, wait, Edward is attractive, my bad. Just his head is big.

I can almost see Bella's mom's nipple!

Okay, I really don't get this. Why in god's name would she want to become a vampire? Does she even know how many babes there are out there?! There are so many different kinds of babes in this world it's kind of unreal.

Hahahahaaaaaa it's way harder to take this vampire dad seriously now that I've watched all of Nurse Jackie.
bahahah big blonde hair! hahaha dumb accent!

You know what would be cool? Better graphics.

ughhhhh this werewolf guy is ugly.

"hey lose the grin, Jacob, we're just going for a ride" plus you're ugly

WHOA A PACK OF SHIRTLESS NEVER-NUDES JUST RAN OUT OF THE HOUSE
I want to live with them!!

hahaha they're eating chicken drumsticks and making fun of the werewolf for having feelings!

This love triangle reminds me of Felicity except Scott Speedman isn't here. Should have more SSpeedman.

I know who Jersey Shore would pick. (whoa, I made that joke last time also. I'm not creative at all.)

"Doesn't he own a shirt?"
Ohhhh an actual joke, fancy!

Wow, I hope she's playing these two! I would totally try to date them both forever if I were her.
"It doesn't count if I have two boyfriends if one is dead and one is an animal"

You know what would be good about becoming a vampire? Not needing to use condoms anymore.

Honestly, though, where did they find so many bad actors?

Uh oh, this bad vampire is the best looking one, I think!!
Can Bella choose him? can she! Team Babe Evil Vampire!
He's insatiable!

Why can't they just do it already!
Whoa for minute there I thought was going to give him a bj but she was just laying her head on his chest. BORING.
Wait. How can vampires get boners if there's no blood flowing to their dicks??

Is this scenery CGI? if not, let's move there.

"You feel something else for me, you just won't admit it!"
hahahahahaaaaa this is exactly how I feel about all of my top 5 crushes. Why won't they just admit it??

(What the eff is going on in these posters, they are for sure jokes, right?)

Wait, maybe the dad is hot. I dig his mustache.

Ohhh shit, I forgot I put the yogurt in the freezer, I hope it's not fully frozen!
(update: it's still good!)

Ha, in movies frequently hate is really envy. In real life it's usually just hate.
I mean, sometimes I envy people I dislike, but it doesn't mean that I dislike them any less.

I need to be doing about 4 other things for this movie to be entertaining.

"Aw, man, sorry about you breaking your hand on my face"

Seriously? Seriously everyone is after Bella? Who even cares! Did you see the other human girl's boobs? No one's fighting over her. I don't follow.

ha, I would have loved to be on set with all these vampires acting against CGI wolves.

Do all the dude vampires have to have awful hair? You lose your life and you lose your right to good hair?

Aww the CGI wolf wants affection!
You could have a boyfriend and a pet all in one! Best deal!

The pretend history in this movie is killing me.
It's like those heritage moments on TV.

I would pay $1000 dollars to have that redhead's hair. If I had any money. (wow, apparently last liveblog I said I'd kill for it, I guess it's becoming less important to me.)
Would you think I was weird if I started wearing wigs?

Hmmm. I think he might actually not own a shirt.

How do I arrange to be in a movie where I get carried through the forest by a muscly shirtless man?

Whoa, is the werewolf actually trying to convince her that she should be in love with the vampire and him??

"I can sense how you feel, physically"
sexxxxxy
"I promised I wouldn't kiss you again, until you asked"
sexxxy. so far this teen wolf is the only interesting thing going on. And he's awful!


hahahhaaa her dad is trying to give her "the talk"

"dad just don't worry about us using protection, edward is old-school"
"is that code for something?"
Yeah code for him being DEAD.

How is she possibly even considering marrying him when she hasn't even sampled the goods?
SAMPLE THE GOODS ALREADY.

go Bella!! Talk him into doing it! Yeeeeeah!!

Sex where you could get killed seems hot!

BAHAHAHAA Edward is such a prude. No sex til marriage.

Yayayayay ring. Now he's worth marrying. Oh man, what if she marries him and he turns her into a vampire and he still won't put out. WORST. omg that'd be such a rip.

I am so unbelievably sick of watching this. Wow.

Yeah I am 100% on board with this sexy new vampire. So babin'.

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT this shirtless muscle werewolf is getting into bed with her while her cold dead vampire fiance watches?? WEREWOLF SEXYTIME WIN.

I have to tell you, the werewolf is a billion times sexier than the vampire in this movie.
VAMPIRE:          WEREWOLF:
whiney                     sarcastic
prude                         sexy
sparkly                      tattoos
pansy                       bossy
                 except:
sweet                        obnoxious
less ugly                   pretty ugly


"you'll warm up soon, faster if you took your clothes off"
werewolf is winning. x 1000.


awww werewolf vampire heart-to-heart
(I wonder if bella had to be there for the whole time while they shot this or if she got to go hang out in her trailer eating celery sticks)

And then when they woke up on their mountaintop campsite had turned into Narnia!

fucking green screen!? Amazingly bad. Didn't this movie have a budget?

Holy doesn't she know it's bad to make out with other people when she's engaged!?
Sexy hands on hips happening.
Vampire is going to have to step up his game!


Wait a second here. No one's mad that she loves both of them?
How do I get my own situation like this? wtf unfair.

ohhh good, the bad hot vampire is coming! that means maybe she could date all three of them!

oh no! the hot vampire! Now he only has one arm! I would still like him!
Whooooops, gone now.

I'm not sure how I feel about this whole broken-head way of the bad vampires dying. It seems dumb. Unlike the rest of this movie.

Is this movie really still going on? Really?

"Whoa too bad about how you fractured one entire side of your body fighting for my life. I'm still choosing the dead guy!"

this is painful. painfully bad.

If I were the director, I think I would have done this under an assumed name.

THANK GOD IT'S OVER!!!!!!

Wait, is this a Metric? yiiiiiiiikesssssssss (hahahaha wolf-dangler)
And now Florence & The Machine?
Hmmm

yay! I made it out alive!
Congratulations to me!
Also congratulations to anyone else who made it through that.

once you've got it, how do you keep it? (my hair as a metaphor for life)

It takes a concerted effort for me to leave the house without mascara on. Even if it's just to walk the dog. I try to do it from time to time to prove that I'm still the don't-care hippie I imagine myself to be.


Luckily I am nothing if not completely enamored with my hair today. If my hair looked like this every day my life would be complete. How did I even get it to this colour? Why won't this colour last? Honestly, though, how do I keep it?
Lately everyone is dying their hair red (exaggeration) and now I have conversation after conversation about trying to get a good shade and then keep it. It's quite amazingly stupid, really! Amazing.

I thought I wanted it to be more Emma Stone's colour in Easy A,

But I'm okay with what my hair is doing right now. Though I still do like that darker colour.
WOW THIS BLOG IS LIKE A ROLLERCOASTER RIDE


Hey, look, the dog!
Probably Lucinda Bright (my foster cat) is getting very jealous about how many dog photos I'm posting. Just kidding, she's not allowed to go on the internet.
ugh, sorry. I feel like I'm getting lamer by the second.
I'm getting more and more into bad puns and lame word jokes, also. I think it's because I expect other people to make them more and I want to get there first. Almost fair.



My stomach was being dumb and so I hung out at Dollface's and watched TV for a bit today. I like walking DF's dog but I would never want to walk other people dogs. Just Kaya. Also because I never worry if DF will be annoyed I'm watching her TV or touching her things. Also because Kaya is a low-stress dog, she's pretty easy going and a good walking companion. Aww.



I don't really have any shifts at work this week. I feel alright about that. Terrifyingly poor, yes, but excited to relax about, hibernate a bit, and get some work done. And next month is lots of shifts (fingers crossed).
I meant to write all day yesterday but really only got into it around 11 p.m. or so. It's alright because I got a lot alot done by the time I decided to pack it in around 3.
The stuff I'm working on is alright. But then I started reading a couple of other scripts that I didn't write and they were great. I was a bit jealous. Got to get past the jealousy and just do the work.
I know I've said it before, but man, I would really prefer if I were great at everything right off the bat and never had to actually work at things.
Classic deservist attitude.




Pineapple-shaped tea ball which was a gift from Violet awhile ago, still one of my favourites. Saskabush tea (Saskatoon berries and rosehips and things) from Cuppa Tea in Lawson Mall in Saskatoon.

I made soup! Ha, everyone is surprised. What else would I make?

It looks thick. I like it like that. If you like a thinner soup, add more water, I don't care.

TOMATO LENTIL QUINOA SOUP
1 medium onion
1/4 zucchini
1/2 red pepper
6 button mushrooms
1 can crushed tomatoes
1/2 cup lentils
1/2 cup quinoa
2 cups of vegetable stock
some Italian seasoning blend

This is exactly like all the other soups I make (especially like the one that's just curry instead of tomatoes, leave me alone), and all the ingredients are 100% approximates. Just cut everything up and then put all the ingredients in and cook it forever. You can put in other vegetables or not these vegetables!  I fried up the onions and mushrooms in a bit of butter and olive oil first. You don't have to. You can do whatever you like, really.
I lovelove the combination of lentils and quinoa. So filling in a great way.





Ha, I made apple-strawberry crisp the other day and my friend came over and he said, "why?"
What a question! Like there ever needs to be a reason for a crisp.



I haven't been able to find a good day planner yet for the year (and I depend on my dayplanner/notebooks so much!), so I'm going to go about marking up a blank book to make it into one. Hey, I have the time. Plus then I can make it the best ever.
I have to find a great movie to watch while I do so. Lately I've watched:
Black Swan (liked it)
Easy A (liked it)
All Good Things (liked it)

Those are my reviews. You're welcome.