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everyone around here is in a pissass mood! not too terrible or anything, but bits of sadness and big decisions and not being treated properly or trying to figure out what we're doing with our lives.

I was just absent-mindedly staring at my bedroom door wishing someone would come in and Yulie came in and lay down beside me.
It's not so bad having roommates.



Went to the Ex with Dollface and we ate a tonne of shit and bought things. I bought sculpey and a dress and some sandals. We walked around a lot. Next time I'm finding a ride buddy for sure. Though I'm pretty sure I'd be way worse at rides than I used to be. My stomach is now a little bitch.





Not to point out the obvious here, but, man everyone is so self-centered these days, hey?
It seems actually unreasonable.

I don't know guy, it seems like the more selfish, messed-up, deservist you are, then the more good things come your way.
Should I start? Probably.





A lot of shitty things have been going on for me lately, in all aspects. I feel mildly fine, though.
Like maybe I just have to keep on like I'm going, keep being the kindest person I know how to be and hopefully at some point it will come back to me?



I did just about blow a gasket when Yulie and Onesie came back from the cottage on Sunday night and I was bundled up in the big chair feeling sorry for myself and watching a movie and Onesie said "oohhh looks like somebody didn't get rid of their grumpies"
UGH.



Life just 100% is not fair. It is not fair in every way. Like why did Jack Layton die? That's not cool!
Especially since Harper is in fine health and spirits. Not not not fair.




I'm not really ever into gambling but Dollface and I were walking through the Ex and I saw a game called "Crown and Anchor" and since all I ever do is listen to Joni Mitchell I wanted to play it. It was a wheel one, who knows what it's called and we had to put money on a symbol. First round Dollface lost a dollar and then the second round I put a dollar and got two back. Took my three dollars and left.
Pretty funny. Not a bad way of gambling.




christmas ornaments I started yesterday! So fucking tasteful. Onesie said they are maybe too pretty. They are much more delicate and delicious in real life. I will try to take better photos later.




I am the kind of genius who thinks to mix nutella with plain yogurt and put it on fruit salad. FUCK YEAH.
mango kiwi melon salad


rain on the living room window.
It's cooling down a bit these days. I'd just barely noticed it was summer and now it's slipping away.

I can't wait to get to Saskatoon.

back of my neck getting dirt and gritty

Getting ready for cottage face!


I have lots of pictures from the cottage with Yulie last weekend but for now, here are just ones of me with my favourite of the dogs-- this big dude's name is Mini. Ha!



I wish very much that I were going to the cottage this weekend!
Luckily there's still cottage with Dollface to look forward to (SO HARD)! Plus I might go with Yulie again yet, plus swimming at the lake when I go to Sask later on this summer...



Still, it does seem unfair to ever have to go to work when the days are so nice and life is so begging to be enjoyed.

I just found out that one of my favourite bffs, Constantine, is coming here for week or so right away. I'm so happy! What a time we will be having! He's basically the funnest.

God, I have so many wonderful people in my life. I hope my life is this good forever.
Also, I'm trying to be more of a hugger but still don't get in my grill too much, yeah? yeah. hahaaaaa

the most used word on our porch is "babe"

I have a blog still?

Oh, cool, I just wasted two hours! Neat!

I had cornpops for breakfast and now it's definitely time for cookies and tea. Don't worry I'm going to make a snack platter later that will be very healthy. or medium healthy. We'll see.



my hairs have calmed down in colour, I know you were worried about it. It's even lighter now.








THINGS OUR HOUSEHOLD CAN NEVER GET ENOUGH OF:
1. eggs
2. almond milk
3. babes
4. bananas
5. smoothies

Nah, I haven't been babin' around too bad or nothing. Just eating bananas and yelling a lot.
And discussing things rationally with other humans like grown-ups.
Kind of fun.

One babe said "I'm getting tired of this knitting circle type business, where everything gets discussed and picked over"
and I said, "that's because you do things you're not proud of"
which was only half true, probably.
some people are not business-discussers.
I am, though. Straight up. By relating my situations to my best pals, I get a way better sense of how I actually feel about it. I get a better sense of what's a normal reaction,

Firehorse just got back from his trip to Brazil (he was shooting something but let's not pretend it wasn't somewhat of a vacation). He brought us flip-flops!


Pretty nice.


Okay, yeah most of these photos are from the island. Onesie and I went last week together and it was so hot in the city and then we got out there and it got quite, quite chilly.
We brought so much food it was unreal (lives revolve around food) and we ate the shit out of it. So delicious.








Onesie is easy to be with. I know I've said that before, but it is very true.






We made okay friends with a goose and two ducks. A duck couple. The man duck let the lady duck eat most of the food. Guess she needed it more. They were totally cool.
Good thing Violet wasn't there, she would have said "ew, sick".
They came so close!






My room is like a little haven. It's really quite quiet in here. I mean, I can here them talking and laughing in the living room a bit, but it feels completely separate.



I bought these frames with the green paper and watercolour paper already in them and so I drew some herbs. I like it!
this is the kind of thing I like to do. To get to show off. I like making things around the house and then people come by and say "oh wow, did you make this? it's lovely."
alllll for the praise. But then, what else is there?


I made my mum's specialty macaroni and cheese casserole last night for dinner but most of my (billion) roommates were out and so I made Carla Ghee come over and we had wine and dinner by candlelight on the deck with Onesie and listened to the Amelie soundtrack and Carla Ghee said "this is what I dreamed my life would be like".
Me too.
(I promise you it wasn't burnt like it looks really.)
Later on some nice young men came over and I made them eat it too! I love when you offer guests a snack and they take it! Also, one of the nice young men spent a long time admiring my kitchen with me. HA! trying to win my friendship, I see!

Also, earlier yesterday after grocery shopping our heads off, Onesie and I (mostly Onesie, as I was busy freezing strawberries and making refrigerator pickles) made the most insanely amazing snack platter ever.

Honestly, Onesie and I would make the best wives. If only we could narrow focus if you know what I'm saying.

 Firehorse just took these photos with his fancy camera and it's a cruel reminder of how my phone really doesn't do things justice... What a fucking lovely house, though.

Goddamn, I need to update more because this is all over the place balls bananas I have too much to say. Plus lots of other stuff keeps happening and I have people over every day and I have my first improv show on Wednesday (WTF!?)

I have a few days off in a row right now but it already feels busy with improv stuff and socializing stuff and I'm planning on going to the cottage with my new roommate this weekend....
aiaiaiaaiaiaiii.

we're grown-ups now, grown-ups use frames on their wall hangings.

It's raining!
Oh, right as I wrote that it stopped, I think. Sort of.

I have to work outside at the soccer pitch today so I would very much not mind it if it cleared up. especially because I'm going to bike. And then high-tail it over to Hoops right afterward, of course!


hahahaa stupid tired face. Tea on the deck yesterday morning and my roommates and I had a very, very hard time getting away from there. It sucks you in. Vitamin D forever and ever.

I feel so, so much like I am at a cottage. It's several things. Living out of bags, feeling at home not at home, the decks, multiple activities, people to share tea and food with, beers in the sun, wearing moomoos while hanging out, all the trees surrounding the kitchen deck...
Yep. Still pretty into my new place.



I love decorating and entertaining! What a treat! People around to take care of and get things for and bring tea to.
Obviously the bloom is going to come off that rose at some point but until then! Let's just smile around, ya know?
(probably sooner rather than later, as I am generally not that nice.)


This is my other roommate, Onesie. She only owns onesies. No, not really, she owns other clothes I think?
She was wearing an all-khaki outfit the other night. I like that a lot.
I also like Onesie a lot. It's super bizarre moving in with people you've never met and there's lotssss of people I'm not too keen on. It's relieving to me that Onesie seems pretty top-notch.
She likes babes a lot. And is very straightforward about stuff.  Things I like.




this guy hasn't got a nickname yet. Still thinking on it. He doesn't live here. Only almost.




Getting a wicked sunburn.. sort of on purpose?
At this point I was lying around on the deck after drinking one tall can in the sun and being unable to get moving in any way, shape, or form. I had my 45 spf on though, obviously. 




Onesie's also a chef, which is the best. It is extra the best because she has friends who are also gluten-free and she was vegetarian for a long time, so sort of gets my dietary restrictions and we've had a few good conversations about stuff.
Also, we've had some great talks about ALL THE FOOD WE CAN COOK FOREVER!
Goddamn the deliciousness we have planned and I'm so looking forward to learning how to make stuff!

I'm a pretty good cook, but I have a limited repertoire and would be very excited to learn a bunch more stuff and try new things.
We're going to make the best mayonnaise ever. And hummus, and have dueling guacamoles.
I wish she weren't leaving in two months and taking her food processor with her. hahaaah maybe I will buy one!
She's going on a chef's training tour of the country, spending a month in each province/territory and learning with different chefs. She's going to be in Saskatoon for a month, so you'll have to befriend her if you're there.

Pretty sure we're going to host a lovely afternoon clothing swap with dainties (if you're not from Saskatoon, that's a word for tiny pastries and treats, not undergarments like it maybe sounds like), snacks, and cocktails. We may or may not sun ourselves on the deck afterward.
I hope lovely ladies come over and we wear sundresses and shit. 

I'm gearing up to be the best hostess ever and to be the best wife ever.
Just kidding, best mum only. Medium-good wife.
Medium-good wife who is very lazy in bed.



Hahaaahahaha Violet is so sick of me mentioning The Good Wife whenever she talks about lawyer stuff.
Sorry dude, it's just my way of relating to you.
Actually, I got to hang with Violet twice yesterday. She has a break from lawyering for the next bit and I'm very happy to have her around. I wish she weren't going away for the whole summer, but.... you know.



It's super weird how far away everything is in here. You know how many places there are to lose things? ONE BILLION.
Especially since things are still a massive disaster around here.
It's possible for me to now miss phone calls or lose bags of candy. So bizarre. Also I had to talk myself out of my desire for more tea as it was too far away. 

I've taken to running from the kitchen which is at the back of the house, to my room at the front of the house. It just takes too long otherwise! Don't worry, it's quiet running.



I'm forsure the mum of the house. Which is alright and will hopefully stay alright.
The people here before us were (obviously) huge assholes and the neighbours hated them and I'd like to be nice to our neighbours, and not be hated.
It's a bit hard because our place just BEGS people to come over and hang out. Why have a deck the size of a tennis court if we can't party on it?
Why have 2.5 balconies unless we can have people on all three. Oh god, we're the worst.
We had maybe a dozen people over last night after the bars and it felt like nothing (to us, probably not to our neighbours). So much space, so many places to hang out. So fun.
I did a lot of shushing, though. And I don't want everyone to hate me for being the downer. But.. ya know. 



If you think I'm not building a snowfort/igloo on the kitchen deck in the wintertime you are sorely, sorely mistaken.

Onesie's mum brought us a lilac bush! How fucking lovely.
I'm going to re-pot it and keep it forever. I hope Onesie doesn't think she's taking it with her. 

And Violet brought over a bottle of wine! Niiiice.

I'm never moving out of this house.
My plan is to live here with roommates for a couple of years during which time I will meet the biggest babe of all time of my life who I will then set up a life with here and have kids and we'll be rich and have a guest bedroom and my mum can come and stay for months at a time. And the babies can ride their tricycles around on the deck. PERFECT.
I hope my future-babe likes my mum. Just kidding, everyone likes my mum. I'm more worried about him liking me. I'm the mean one!

All this week I've only slept for 6 hours a night. That's not like me. But I have too much too much too much going around and around and around in my head. I'm sure it'll calm down right away here.

Norman is super adorable sometimes and last night he was like "you're my good buddy and I'm here for you I know this is a big change for you" and that was so nice.
Then he put his mustache on my face and said "does it feel like a chinchilla??"