oh hey could your diary be more inane?

Wore my Kodiak kids' boots out in the slush snow today for the first time. Awesometown!
Actually my heels are a bit raw from them but that's my own fault for wearing silly socks and stuff. So warm though! and they make me feel somehow invincible and tough (ha, obviously invincible people are tough)..

I am very pleased with my selection of boots this year. Moreso than ever before I think. Yes, definitely.
Mostly these three:

KODIAK KIDS BOOTS ($8.99, Salvation Army)
As mentioned above, they are also weirdly stylish this year. I'm glad that everyone is getting into warmth as style. I walk everywhere lately and so I appreciate it.

I splashed through puddles in these today and got my pants wet but never my toes.
These are the kind of boots that make me want to go toboganning...

VAGABOND BLACK LACE-UP BOOTS ($19.99, Value Village)
Well, they really only pretend to that they're about the lacing-up, but very comfortable and really dreamy. I like them more every day.

I just googled the company, apparently they don't even sell them in the Americas. Weird! Also, for some reason they remind me of something like what Jan Brett would draw. Like from The Wild Christmas Reindeer or something. Also, why don't I own that book?
Also, these are perfect because they are slightly too big and so I have 1 pair of gel insoles and 1 pair of heat-reflecting insoles and now they are quite delicious.

UNKNOWN-NAME BROWN BOOTS ($9.99, Value Village)
I got these in Saskatoon, I returned other, stupid boots and got these gems instead and they are awesome. I get the most compliments on them. They are very slippery and I fell very hard on the ice the other night while wearing them.


Okay. It's almost three a.m. and I've watch three episodes of Mad Men in a row and now I'm dangerously close to finishing watching all the episodes and then what??
Taking suggestions for the next show I will immerse myself in. Bonus points if it's available on a network website I can stream.

booked my trip to make my flight

Booked my flight back to Saskatoon for the 16th. Damn you Air Canada, you won out on this one... I'm hoping Westjet pulls through for my flight back.. keep on checking.

It snowed today! It was very slippery and I didn't notice until tonight, but one of my favourite cowboy boots is cracked right across the sole, traps snow up in there very, very well. Good thing for those sorels I bought.

It's totally Christmas in full-swing. Pretty exciting, and even though I was fully expecting it, it's still kind of exciting.







Went to Value Village today with my friend who probably needs a nickname on here but I don't really know what to call him... How about Deck? More than obvious and lame, but whatever. So I made Deck drive me to Value Village and it was slippery and we skidded a bit, oh winter driving - the fun!!
And his family isn't exchanging gifts this year so he didn't even have any shopping to really, except I wanted him to get a Christmas sweater. But VV was totally picked over in that dept. Silly hipsters, stealing all my cool things.
But I got a few things, namely new shoes and an iron and a mini-ironing-board.
Can cross that off my Christmas list I guess. Sorry if you already got that for me.
I just needed it right away for my projects.
Projects I need to get onto.

I cleaned up the house a bit tonight kind out of the blue, I mean, I didn't mean to, it just sort of happened. Which is v nice.
And then I made this video to prove that Rudyard Kitling is a prime athlete. I hope she get spons'd in Fetch soon.



The best is when I accidentally hit her in the nose on the second throw or so. And also how nutso she looks. What a charmer.
A charming, charming charmer who needs to spend WAY less time scratching at the door or in the litter box (45 minutes - tooo long) in the middle of the night.
Still cute though.
I guess.

voldy mort voldy mort ooo vordy voldy voldy VOLDEMORT!

Hey Meredith, how's your writing going?
Oh it's in the shitter, pretty much!

I have a migraine right now. Which has dissipated a bit but I still am lacking in motor control and am feeling a bit nauseous.
Sounds about the right time to start writing again.

I made a dress today. It needs a tie around the middle but besides that it is done, I think. It's very very pretty fabric (from Value Village). I bought three big pieces of fabric from VV, I kind of feel like they must have all come from one home because they were all similar (the same?) sizes. One is turquoise sari fabri though and one is brownish pretty print and this one is sort of shiny plaid with a sparkly thread through it. Oh god I'm getting as bad as Spenny at describing things!

Oh yeah, my VV trip was very fruitful and productive. Upon reaching the cashier I realized I had VV coupons - one for every month in my wallet. But then I saw that the one for August was 'spend $100 or more and get 50% off everything' and I was all "who would spend a HUNDRED dollars??" but then my friend realized we were both at about $35 each so we ran around and picked out more stuff and ended up spending about the $35 we were planning on, but got twice as much stuff!!! Hurrah.
I also got a pretty table cloth and a yoga mat and some glassware and a simple brown leather purse (fashion pick for fall). And a red dress that didn't look like much on the rack but when it's put on my rack, it looks pretty hot. And it's very comfortable.

Started another dress after starting this post... it's gonna be sweet. If it ends well...
Now I'm on the phone and I have to publish this. Hurrah!!!

exhausted

I went to sleep at around 1:30 a.m. last night and slept pretty much right through until 2 p.m. this afternoon.
Something tells me that I was tired.

Been onset for the past few days!!! Yes, I know that you know that already. But still!
Super fun party time. Realized it's the first feature set I've been on. And the first set where there was a solid group of 20-somethings to bond with. I kind of wish I hadn't liked everyone so much.. it was really hard to leave yesterday.
Especially knowing that some of them get to hang next week without me. Sigh.

It was awesome working with my friend, which was great considering my slight worry about it. But I think I love her even more after this. Which is great.

And I'm pretty heart-broken to not get to spend mass amounts of time with the rest of the cast anymore. Even the crew were neat-o. Loved especially the hair and make-up and the wardrobe people. And the AD who shared his booze, of course.

I was the first one wrapped yesterday and it was my final day on set and they called me down to the set for a minute and then everyone came out and they said "That's a picture wrap on Meredith" and then everyone clapped and I almost cried. And then everyone was all "we'll miss you" and other gay junk like that just to make me feel sadder and make it harder for me not to cry.
Sigh.
Here's the cast waving good-bye to me


Aw man guys. So ready to be a working actor. All The damn time.

Gotta go for lunch with some peeps. And then go to Value Village maybe!
Because I got my tax return. And want to buy something pretty to wear for when I come home on friday(!!!). So obviously Value Village is the best choice.

I hit you in the face last night, I'm glad you didn't wake up, that would've been awkward

I've never been hotter.

I bought these glasses yesterday at Value Village. They seem to be my prescription, I'm going to be wearing them because I am a hipster. They have a tendency to make babes associating themselves with me very mad "Take those off, I'm going to punch you if you wear them"
Hahahhh

Got to meet two of Sass's friends last night. They came out to a show with me. I really liked both of them a whole lot. Mostly because they were such big fans of mine. Probably because I'm famous. No, but some of the jokes we were making with seriously murdering me. I like fun girls!
We all put on my new glasses and took pictures but Sass hasn't posted them yet. Don't worry, hilarity will, indeed, ensue. For real.

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I'm so nutso.
I need time alone like I've never needed anything before, but I am unable to do it.
I am beyond sad and home-sick but blocking it off.

I can't stop being social and there's too much to do. This leads to me being beyond over-the-top and excitable. Or irritable.
I have a hard time going home once I'm out. Plus this house is too much of a disaster to spend any time in. Gross.

My poor friends. Seriously. I don't know why anyone puts up with the bullshit I come out with. I'm constantly getting my hopes up, building things up in my head, convincing myself, convincing everyone, and then getting let down.. having things fall through. Must be frustrating to watch me do it
Sigh sigh sigh

The boys I know are not like men, I do not need to excuse their behaviours with "that's just what men do" "boys will be boys" "he's just being a guy", etc, etc..
So when I encounter a man (negative attributes implied) who acts like one.. I'm at a loss on how to deal
Communication breakdown is also exceedingly mind-blowing.
I wonder if it's curable...


Holy Sexy!!!

you - tall, dreamy and ugly-booted, me - coughing up a lung

Whoa. The missed connections section on Craigslist is very odd.

Seriously.

So, I saw a total babe on the Queen streetcar today. He was seriously such a babe. Most of the time I am convinced that I do not have a 'type' (I mean, if you lined up all the people I've been involved with, they would be a somewhat motley crew), but then I see guys like this and I'm like "oh, yeah, totally". Just generally indie-rock cute I guess. I liked his bright eyes and red beard a lot. Though he did have horrendous boots on. Just awful but they looked really really warm and really waterproof and since I've spent the last few weeks with wet, cold feet, I'd forgive him. He was totally eyeing me up as well, he got off at Soho but watched me as the streetcar took me away....
SIGH
I got off at Spadina and looked back for him but didn't see him...
SIGH

I would put a missed connection add up EXCEPT
a) I've seen Ghost World
b) I shouldn't even be allowed to date
and
c) I've decided not to pursue babes anymore. Which, of course, means that I'm never going to get any because boys are giant sucks and never push anything and I am the one who pushes everything and people that do pursue me are never the ones that I want (who do I want though, really?).
But seriously though, babes need to put in effort.

I'm insane. Interacting last night with a boy who used to have a crush on me for sure but then I've been sort of standoffish lately so now he was returning the favour, I felt so slighted that I had to try and win back his affections and prove that I was worthy of having a crush on.
Seriously?
Not cool.
Everyone likes having people interested in them. But for all of my talk of care and care-taking, I sure am not careful of people like I need to be.

I'm mean.

Last night I apologized to a babe who I've been rather mean to in the past few months (though he did somewhat deserve it on account of not being careful AT ALL of me) and he said something like "This is going to sound bad but, I just thought it was your personality"
Thank you, dreamboat.
He went on to try and clarify that, but I do know what he means.
I am mean.

But he, with that sentence, discounted any right I had to be angry or any responsibility he had in the situation.

I'm regretting apologizing.

I've decided to try and become more gracious and polite. Social niceties do not come easily or naturally to me. I have a hard time pretending anything or faking it in any way.
I will try harder. Or at least consider it.

You know what's better than cheese-toast? Cheese-toast with spinach. For realz. I'm still obsessed with spinach. I probably eat more of it than anything else.

I went to Value Village this morning after my audition and I bought rubber boots!!! Finally. Lord how I've needed them in this awful slush festival of a winter. It's funny how rubber boots give such a specific foot feeling. Kind of reassuring.
I also bought five books. I don't know why. Oh yeah, because the library and I are still in a fight re: fines I owe them.

I saw a friend at the audition this morning I auditioned with a few months ago and that time he got the part and I did not. I could totally see him getting this one too. I wish I were a cute boy.
I'm tired of being the catcher anyhow, I want to pitch sometime.

I predict the return of the french braid (and have been wearing them allll the time). It has to return because remember the 80s and early 90s when we spent so much time admiring them and coveting them and learning how to do the different styles? Well a lot of people still have that storehouse of knowledge on them and it needs to be used.
Also, they're good for everyone from office workers to rappers to police officers to country folk.
So braid one in!