"gargoyles eat ghosts and I want one for a pet"

prairie prairie prairie prairie


just hanging out with my family all day long on the prairies. yesterday was pretty much the most perfect day ever to be out on the plains.











uh oh my aunt is here to pick us up to go to Michael's and then go to a movie and I forgot to get dressed. whoops!














I may or may not want to get married in this church. Is that allowed if I am not Catholic? Probably not, hey?
What if it's abandoned? can I just show up and get married in it?
Ha! Imagine me getting married?!
I can't.




hahaaa my aunt just said "I'm going to boot you soon" guess I've over-stayed my welcome already! what a smart mouth I have.

I was trying to be funny for my baby cousin (who is almost 4) yesterday and she looked at me quite seriously and said "if you're trying to be funny, you should just tell me..."
also, earlier I was giving her a "monster-back-ride" in the lake, which is where you have a child ride on your back while pretending to be a monster and jump around in the water and she said "can you please stop making those noises? You are really annoying me"
hahahaahhaahaaa burned several times by a tiny child!






this is my sweet ride while I'm home. Nicey nicey.
Also, I walked home from the bar last night because I'm tired of not walking because I live in a somewhat dangerous neighbourhood but it was only like a 15 minute walk and I would never in real life take a cab for a 15 minute walk. Uh uh. Anyway, it was fine but a bit nervous-making.

crown and anchor me

HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI



everyone around here is in a pissass mood! not too terrible or anything, but bits of sadness and big decisions and not being treated properly or trying to figure out what we're doing with our lives.

I was just absent-mindedly staring at my bedroom door wishing someone would come in and Yulie came in and lay down beside me.
It's not so bad having roommates.



Went to the Ex with Dollface and we ate a tonne of shit and bought things. I bought sculpey and a dress and some sandals. We walked around a lot. Next time I'm finding a ride buddy for sure. Though I'm pretty sure I'd be way worse at rides than I used to be. My stomach is now a little bitch.





Not to point out the obvious here, but, man everyone is so self-centered these days, hey?
It seems actually unreasonable.

I don't know guy, it seems like the more selfish, messed-up, deservist you are, then the more good things come your way.
Should I start? Probably.





A lot of shitty things have been going on for me lately, in all aspects. I feel mildly fine, though.
Like maybe I just have to keep on like I'm going, keep being the kindest person I know how to be and hopefully at some point it will come back to me?



I did just about blow a gasket when Yulie and Onesie came back from the cottage on Sunday night and I was bundled up in the big chair feeling sorry for myself and watching a movie and Onesie said "oohhh looks like somebody didn't get rid of their grumpies"
UGH.



Life just 100% is not fair. It is not fair in every way. Like why did Jack Layton die? That's not cool!
Especially since Harper is in fine health and spirits. Not not not fair.




I'm not really ever into gambling but Dollface and I were walking through the Ex and I saw a game called "Crown and Anchor" and since all I ever do is listen to Joni Mitchell I wanted to play it. It was a wheel one, who knows what it's called and we had to put money on a symbol. First round Dollface lost a dollar and then the second round I put a dollar and got two back. Took my three dollars and left.
Pretty funny. Not a bad way of gambling.




christmas ornaments I started yesterday! So fucking tasteful. Onesie said they are maybe too pretty. They are much more delicate and delicious in real life. I will try to take better photos later.




I am the kind of genius who thinks to mix nutella with plain yogurt and put it on fruit salad. FUCK YEAH.
mango kiwi melon salad


rain on the living room window.
It's cooling down a bit these days. I'd just barely noticed it was summer and now it's slipping away.

I can't wait to get to Saskatoon.

condominium life

Stayed at Dollface's this weekend with Kaya. Dollface has the best bed. It's like my cloud-bed only way better.
For Christmas I would like a pillow-top mattress cover type thing. Whatever those things are called, that's what I want.








I was supposed to go to the cottage this weekend with Yulie and Onesie but I ended up backing out. Weird, hey? All I like are cottages.
I'm just over-socialized to the degree where I can't properly deal with humans and I can't properly spend any time alone. It's a rough spot, mentally, for me right now.
I'm having trouble spending any actual time actually by myself. I'm so easily swayed into conversations and passive hang-outs with my roommates. And there's all my other friends, plus work, plus improv (classes, shows, and clinics) and all my new improv buds.

I don't remember how to read a novel or sew a dress. I don't know how to blog or stay in by myself to just chill the eff out.







I stayed in on Friday night but only because I couldn't decide on what I wanted to do and I still was texting everyone trying to find the perfect thing to do and then I got sucked into watching a billion bridal shows... It wasn't productive alone time. Still good, though.




I just cut my hair I cut maybe 2.5 inches off, I don't know. No one will notice except me. it feels very short now. It was a bit ratty. Now it is very soft and looks slightly thicker (my hair is never even close to thick).



Violet is back in town, she was in Europe for most of the summer as she deserves a break before going back fulltime for now on and forever at her law firm.
I love Violet like whoa.
I'm going to try to hog all of her attention until she goes back to work. Because I deserve it. Also, she's so low-stress and interesting to hang out with.

I made these cupcakes for her dinner party last night. I posted the recipe here, they are almost one half cheesecake these days and I like that A LOT.
Honestly these are so good and so easy. Got a gluten-free bud? They'll love you forever if you make these for them.


Planning on going to The Ex today with Dollface... I've never been to the Ex in Toronto. I wonder if Dollface will go on any rides with me. I wonder if there'll be anything I can/want to eat....

how things are now

aw, I'm going to make someone a very good mum someday...

OOOOHHHHHH HIIIIIIIII

I'm interspersing cottage photos mostly I guess here. Just from my instagram feed.

view from our cottage bedroom window, it was gray and lovely out

My phone broke and I lost a whole lot of photos from the last few months. Turned out the last time I backed up my phone was in December. Yike.  Luckily other people took photos this past weekend and I will post them soon, I hope.
It was a super great and successful weekend, and a good dozen of us were able to make it up to the cottage over the 4 days, which is pretty amazing, really.

The shitty thing about being poor is that I have a super old computer which is not compatible with my iphone. cooooooool.  Please buy me things?
I have a job interview next week. that's good.

I still am super-pleased that the Apple store replaced my phone, don't get me wrong. I feel grateful.

henna drawing on my foot done by cheespie

Things are maybe, finally thinking about calming down around here. I know I keep saying that, but maybe this time I'm right. Like, for instance, we haven't had people over until 3 in the morning every night this week. And I only had two drinks each night for the past few nights. That is totally acceptable.  And my roommates are mellowing out a bit too, I think. Except Firehorse who does not seem to ever need any alone time, ever.
Last night I was sitting on the papasan chair and drinking a bud light lime (which then my throat and neck kind of felt thick and I got bloated, and I'm very smart for still having gluten sometimes, but MAN, sometimes you just want a beer, you know?? yes, I realize that a BLL doesn't count as a beer but cut me some slack here for one minute) and anyway, Firehorse was leaving and he said "are you really, really just going to stay in right now??"
Haa, obviously! Staying home is amazing!

Except I did go out. And I went to visit a babe who is on the roster (hahahaaaa roster, also I don't really have that much of a roster, also this babe has no patience for blogs so I can write what I like, mostly).
I went over to said babe's house and he was just watching tv and I didn't feel like just watching tv and not doing anything at all but flipping through channels. Especially if you're not going to let me watch reruns of Home Improvement.
I have no patience for this sort of thing!

(one time I was at a babe's house and he wanted to watch the rotisserie chicken channel. I'd rather die, thanks.)

dockdockdock, hammock

Do not invite me over to watch tv with you. I have things to do! All I want is a little bit of romance or excitement in my life. Preferably both.
You want to watch tv?
Then make it good. And indicate that that's your plan for the eve.
a) pick one tv show/movie -- a good one that I am also interested in, for instance
b) get me some snacks (do not get snacks for yourself and not give me any)
c) cuddle me up
d) make good jokes

cuddled up around the candles in the screened-in den

I'm working all weekend! Which is a bit thank god because I need some money like whoaaa.
And also I'm drinking less and partying less so maybe working all weekend will help. Dollface is going up to the cottage without me. BRUTAL.
hahaaaa white whine.

Life's great. It sucks that my blog is sucking because of it. September is soon, then winter, then probably I will have much more time for sitting down and writing it all out...