actra awards 2011 round-up

Everyone kind of looks great in these big hot rollers, hey?

Okay, in the spirit of getting around to blogging things closer to when they actually happened, I bring you the photos from Friday night's ACTRA awards! You're welcome!



I only arrived 45 minutes later than I planned, nbd. Classsssssic. Mostly due to how I just felt like lying around, not getting dressed. I guess I was already in kind of a temper.
I was in a temper until part way through the award ceremony maybe.. and then there were ridiculously touching speeches when the awards were accepted as both best performance awards went to actors who had recently passed away.
Fairly upsetting. I think we were all a bit taken aback by how sad it was. Also, lovely.

My buds, Boys Who Say No were the musical guests and that was pretty adorable.

aaaaaand of course, my old pal Nick was nominated for an award and the clip they showed from his movie also featured music from his band, Sweet Thing. Lovely!
I think I'm going to go see that movie, which is called New Year when it plays at the Royal right away here. Who's in?


It was the martinis that made my night quite a bit better. I know it's terrible to rely on alcohol as a social crutch or as a mood elevator, but mannnnnnnnnnn. It's just a phase I'm going through (a very, very long, party-all-the-time phase).


See, Norman is on my team on this double-fisting mood-elevating team.

I said "make grouchy faces" and that was what She came up with! haaa (also, She is called She as she will not agree to be nicknamed Bess so we're on hold for what blogname she'll have so She is the best I've got right now).


Only one drink in your hand? Odd man out!


mood=elevated!


requisite actra backdrop photos!!

a woman in the drink line-up complimented me and asked where I got my dress and I relayed that I got it at a clothing swap and then she told me "you should shop at Winners. you gotta go to Winners." What? Helpful?



She went and got her hair done beforehand. HOW FANCY. obviously, I was jealous. Except I was also so happy with my stupid curls not immediately falling out that I was only medium-jealous.

yes, I did wear my mini-flask necklace. Ever classy, ever classy.



you're welcome for taking this picture while you were looking at your feet!

I feel the need to post pictures where I look like a little gremlin. I can't stress enough that I am mostly a little gremlin in real life. I just carefully select pictures that make it look otherwise for blog.


Norman, adorbs. I mean, badass. Whichever!


Last night Norman and I got asked if we were PICs, which apparently stands for Partners In Crime. OBVIOUSLY. Also, Norman is maybe the only person who parties more than I do. Man, Norman will just party by himself at Hoops if no one is around to join him. In fact, he somewhat prefers it that way.


("Toronto is making you weird. The longer you live there, the weirder you get." - my mother on my recent Hoops fetish)


While exiting the washroom I remember that we ran into our friend outside the washroom last year. Oh god, now I need a blogname for him too. Jeeeezus. Ummm. Let's call him Butterface. No, wait, that's rude. Let's call him SOUL PATCH. perfect. ahahahahah! hah! ahaha!

Anyway, the basic backstory on Soulpatch is that we used to be involved. By which I mean, we tried to date but it turned out that we couldn't stand each other and he drove me insane but also I still kind of adored him but he wore a t-shirt that said "the head foundation please give generously" and he had a soul patch and wore socks with his sandals and I wanted to punch him pretty often even though I also found most of this kind of funny(? sort of? who remembers!).
The best part about Soulpatch is that he has a really remarkably unshakable self-confidence (thank god, if you're going to hang around with me). Probably stemming from being in an HBO movie with JTT (the reason I first spoke to Soulpatch at all hahahaa classic).
So we didn't "date" for long but we did continue "hanging out" over quite some time, maybe? Who remembers, this was years ago now.


(ssshhhuuuttttt upppp hair why don't you always look like that?)

These days Soulpatch has been in a longterm relationship forever and a half and I'm still exactly how I've always been (jk? in a good way?) and now when I see him I just adore the hell out of him. Why? Who the f knows! I just find him so familiar and ridiculous and I just want to smush his face, ya know? and he still thinks I'm great (obviously) but we aren't close buds or anything. Maybe sometime.

anyway, as we were exiting the washroom I said "aww I wish Soulpatch were here, remember we ran into him last year?" and then THERE HE WAS, right where we saw him last year.
They may or may not have set it up so it happened like that but it was still super bizarre since I had juuuust thought of him!



These days he cut his hair and grew a beard and is wearing plaid, wtf?!
me: "Soulpatch... are you now someone I'd be attracted to?"
soulpatch: "um, I'm pretty sure you've been attracted to me in the past"
me: "okay, attracted yes, but now you're actually my type"
ha, actually I think what I actually said was waaaay ruder. Way, way ruder.
And we wonder why I'm single!
(just kidding no one wonders, so rude and impatient!)







I didn't really dance. But we did party. Did I dance?
I drank too much.

I was definitely not the only one. But hopefully I mostly only said normal things to most people?

We did have a time. Didn't chase down any celebrities at all, really... I did look at that lead guy from The Listener because he really does have such beautiful eyes. LIKE HE CAN READ MY THOUGHTS (and my thoughts are that I'd like to hit that).


I like to not tell people about the obnoxious faces I'm going to be making the photo beside them.


little creeper gremlin haaaha.

Now it is me who is the cute one! For once!

Tonight we watch the Oscars!
I'm happy because I like watching stupid things while drinking and Mrs. and Arrow are having people over and going over to their house is one of my favourite things and they are some of my favourite people so obviously I get to look forward to it! Obviously!

quickly now

I'm not sure why I go through phases of just not updating at all.
Partly because I've been a bit busy, I guess?
For some reason I was sure I didn't have to work tonight but I surely do and now have to get my shit together and get dressed and get going so I can't really tell you anything about the ACTRA awards last night or post all the photos this instant, but these are a couple. Of me!


Double martinis... maybe why I'm not feeling so good right now. So delicious, though!


dress is a clothing swap item! favourite!

anyway, okay gotta get dressed.

p.s. - hot rollers plus copious amounts of hair spray actually held curls in my hair for most of the night! goddamn my life is exciting sometimes.

sick days are almost like treats

today I helped out on Arrow and Mrs.'s short film for a bit, as expected, and then I was so tired and ill-feeling (sigh) that I came home and watched movies and napped. the bright side is that I had nothing I had to do. and it's kind of a treat to be feeling sad and ill when you have the time and space to do it.
is it weird that sick days are almost one of my favourite things?

I watched Love and Other Drugs first before my nap. I used to quite like Anne Hathaway in some things but more and more lately I find her rather insufferable. she isn't vulnerable or open (which this role needed so badly), she's rather smug and over-confident.
I did want to like this movie because I was in the mood for something easy and plus it was directed by Ed Zwick, who is one of the executive producers of My So-Called Life, and therefore has almost won my affections forever.
I didn't like it, though. It's obvious and pointless and sets up ideals for relationships that are ridiculous. It's terribly clichéd and not even particularly visually appealing. It's fine. it was a fine movie, I guess.
Though, bear in mind that I like most things and I didn't really like this. 

Actually, I think I liked that movie better before my nap and especially before I watched Never Let Me Go.
I'm not sure that Never Let Me Go is as good as I'm thinking it is or if it was just too perfect for my mood this evening.
I'm pretty sure it's great. I'm jealous of Carey Mulligan, not just because of how I do think she's really wonderful but also because of the roles she gets. I need these roles. If I were 20% prettier and 40% more trained and got these roles I feel like I could be almost as good.
Should I go back to school? Ha, like I could ever afford it. It's nights like these, though, where I feel that familiar desperate need to be a successful/famous actor (it's like grade 8 again, when I would wake my mum up at 1 in the morning to cry to her in desperation of all I wanted to do. How heartbreaking that I'm not trying in the ways that I should be anymore. when it's been so close and is still so possible.).
The performances in this movie were so engaging and honest, Andrew Garfield and Keira Knightley, as well.. so solid and strong. Ah, man, I wish I wish.
By which I mean, I'll work and work.
Right?

I did some screen-grabs because I found it so visually pleasing. 
I want to live there. Not kidding. Or in the boarding school also featured in this movie. I want to move to England. I want to travel the world. So restless these days. someone sponsor me. Someone send me to theatre school in England.

 Carey Mulligan, I hope you are as lovely in real life as you seem on screen because I dream of being buds with you some day except I also couldn't handle how jealous I'd be I don't think.  Hopefully you're nice though.

 Obviously this makes me homesick for Saskatchewan and the close-ups of the barbwire fence of course of course. But it's very beautiful no matter how you look at it.

 this screen-grab doesn't do this scene justice, but you can kind of get an idea. great cinematography is kind of the best. two hours of beautiful pictures.

I love love the stain glass windows on these doors. Just perfect.
The costumes, too in this movie were so specific and the colours and it all just fit together for me.
Also, it's a heart-breaking little film.
Just what I was in the mood for.

I was going to post the trailer, too. But I hate trailers, and having just viewed this one I think it gives way too much away. So, I suppose, you could just watch that instead of seeing the actual movie. But probably watch the movie instead.

I'll just write my own part, okay. Never mind, I'll get around to it soon here. Don't worry.

Is it strange that serious acting and comedy seem very separate to me these days? I've been thinking lately about making a sketch show (it's been in my mind for quite some time, but I'm starting to organize ideas again), I'm writing a mockumentary based on my life and obsessive tendencies towards babes, and I ruined a take today by being too funny (haaaa more just ridiculous), but that seems to have little to do with getting into the serious, huge, intensive roles I dream of.
I dream of it all. If I dream of it all that means I don't have to take any of it seriously.
I think sometimes of "devoting myself to comedy" (as Ruckus hilariously put it recently) but sometimes I find comedians wearing and too-much. And comedians have tendencies towards self-destruction, depression, and drinking.
Sometimes I don't like the over-the-top nature of comedians, I don't like examining everything all the time for what is funny and what is not funny and why so.
and I do think it's easier for men to do both. women have a hard time being allowed to switch between true comedy and drama.

Or this is all just excuses why not to try for anything. Story of my life.

But, hey, congratulations to me for not going out tonight, I did want to see everyone after the shoot (basically you make movies in order to go for beers afterward, right?) but I am also sick and whiny and need alone time like whoa. 

Maybe I'll stay in for the next little bit, recoup lost time from the binge of party-time I've been having these past couple weeks. We'll see, we'll see.

I feel old, incapable, strong, and strangely hopeful tonight. Not the worst mix, actually.

Plus one glass of white wine, swiss cheese, and some dark chocolate with raspberries. It'll do.

las palamas

You will almost certainly find this funny:



in other cute news:


and:

ahahahahaa aww cpt. heh is trying to keep me in his arms forever but I will never be held captive and constrained.

I probably should have taken more photos at Accost's last night. But I didn't. SORRY.


Working tonight then helping out with Mrs. and Arrow's short film tomorrow. Kind of excited to be helping out on something!
I'm planning on not going out tonight in order to be a good worker tomorrow. Except Norman did warn me that he's going to be at Hoops, in case I'm interested.

something along the lines of:
"It doesn't really matter and I don't know if you care but I'm going to be at Hoops tomorrow if you want to join me. Either way I'll be there."

do i like dogs now?

I'm into this fake-spring. I don't mind that it's fake, I mean, sure it's a tease and stuff, but I'd rather get blue-balled than get no boner at all, ya know what I mean?

I'm pretty sure I got a minor sunburn on my nose yesterday while walking Kaya. I'm obviously the kind of person who doesn't remember to wear sunscreen in the winter. Plus I've never been outside in the daytimes this much. It's been lovely.



Top two photos edited with iDarkroom app. I like the light-leak function (the photos from the previous entry were also edited with iDarkroom) and the filters. And I like the random option where it randomly combines lights with filters with borders with canvases. Fun to mess around with for sure.


these few photos are from a few weeks ago when it was super cold and icy and snowy. Remember that? me neither. It's like plus 10 today!


Torontotorontotoronto lately I'm in love again with it. going down to the lake helps a bit.


yesterday was the extreme kind of muddy that seems like a joke, pretty much. I toweled Kaya off forever I bet she still got mud on everything. for some idiot reason I wore Dollface's white coat out (mine was too hot) and managed to splatter it with mud within about 3 seconds. All was forgiven, though. Thank god!




Noodle was all cuddled up at her place yesterday so I stopped by for a visit. I was also feeling a bit out of it so it was a good match. They're sitting an adorable dog. Am I accidentally becoming a dog person?
I felt sad and like my life is in shambles and I'm going to die alone and unsuccessful on the street so I put the stuffed armadillo on my head

it kind of made sense at the time.





hahahaaaaa awww who could not love this face!?

My feet look shockingly small here. I'd like to reassure you that they are only normal-small not irregular-small.



For some idiot reason Norman and I were discussing getting out of town and now that's all I can think of. I mean, definitely going to Montreal in April to visit two of the loveliest ladies I know of and to hit on an entirely new city of babes.. but I want to go everywhere right now.
it's the time of year.


Maybe we'll go visit our friend who is in ship-captain school. Owen Sound is exciting this time of year, right?
Just kidding I think everywhere is very very fun. I think I'd actually be an amazing traveler, I just can't admit to having big travel dreams at this juncture since I am way too poor to even consider it.


I FULLY meant to stay in last night but then I realized I had previously purchased groupons for this Ethiopian restaurant on Bloor (Lalibela -- not Nazareth which is our favourite) and so I invited Flash Gordon out on the town.
I love Ethiopian food. Especially since discovering that the delicious fermented flatbread that you eat all the food with is generally gluten-free. Yeah huh.

Mrs. and Arrow hadn't seen much of me lately and they hadn't seen Flash Gordon in forever and so we obviously had to meet them at Roxton afterward for a drink.
We laughed SO HARD. we laughed and laughed. Sometimes when I'm laughing I get convinced that no one could possibly be having as much fun as I'm having right then. 

Love The Roxton because they're letting us shoot a short in there this weekend. Amazing. Also, we like it in general and go there all the time so I guess if you're trying to stalk me and are upset that I refuse to use 4square (or, worse, fb "places") then I guess you could hang out there every night and wait for me.
Or Commie or Huey's. obviously.
(on a related note, I recommend not tweeting the word "commie" because it'll get some weird bots after you.)

I'm beyond pleased that Mrs. and Arrow are now fully friends with Flash Gordon. I feel like I'm fulfilling parts of my destiny when I convince my friends to be friends with each other.


auto stich app! I know, yet another app. but still. I searched for a stich app and obviously iPhone did not fail me. I cannot explain how easy this app was. I chose these three pictures (which I had taken thinking I may try to stitch them in photoshop) and it just put them together like fucking magic!
Computers, man.


best valentine I made this year. This is hopefully jetting across the country now!

I got a care-package from my mother today (a year too late, mother, you still owe me this year's valentines care-package) and it included a fair-trade dark chocolate bar with raspberries. Amazing!
Also now I have all my leaf necklaces back! And some white fabrics to start my white-on-white dream-cloud bed plan!! eeeeeeeeeeeee



Tonight is Accost's house-warming and it's very far in the far far far far west but luckily not missisauga, ewww. though I keep trying to convince Cpt. Heh to let everyone come to mississauga for a big slumber party and hang out with his parents and drive around the burbs forever but so far no dice.
see what I mean? I think everywhere is fun.

who wants to pick me up and drive me around for awhile? I guarantee I will be the happiest little pain-in-the-butt!

Oh yeah, also I got a new mini-job for next week which will hopefully lead to more mini-jobs and then you all won't have to worry about me anymore (and by "you all" I obviously just mean my mother)! And then I can travel the world!