11.30.2008

just like a prayer I want to take you THERE

It's grey and windy and I unfortunately have the day off and I found out that ninjavideo.net is amazing amazing and I'm afraid I'm never leaving my couch/bed again.
Ever.
Well I can't right now anyway because of a kitten weighing me down.

Partied All The Time (for so long and so late) last night which was Great. I haven't been doing enough of that lately.

Went to Raymi's art show closing party and had an unexpected and completely awesome dance party. Great moves, Beyonce, chairs, actions, general ridiculousness. Just my thing.
If you are so inclined, you can watch our terrible moves to Like A Prayer:

Man, dancing is so fun!!!

So then we went to Shake A Tail at Clinton's to dance some more. Pretty party, though I didn't dance as much as I should have. I mostly like dancing where there's lots of room and space and when I can be as ridiculous and over-the-top as I'd like.

Took a cab way out to the East end (holy far, it's like a whole other village out there) and had the nicest driver ever. He was very funny. "Why do people have to drink only one night of the week - how about if they drink 2 drinks every night and keep control of themselves?" also he told me that on his night he liked to take his woman out but he didn't really drink, but he does like to give her "all" his affections. If she could handle it. Awesome.


Reading the missed connections on craigslist today I came across this:

Cheese Magic! - w4m - 28 (Toronto)


Date: 2008-11-29, 6:42PM EST

Dear mans of cheese magic -

so magic! you make grocery shopping less of a chore. i can't even pick which one of you is my favourite - i probably rate as a medium to high matinence customer... today one of you said i had maybe endangered your "cheese dignity" - oh dear.
I wish i could set up a chair in there and just hang out all day - or at least hire you as a group for parties.


* Location: Toronto
* it's NOT ok to contact this poster with services or other commercial interests


This is both awesome, and truthy.

11.29.2008

not so much of a secret.

Here's an interesting Post Secret


I just want to make sure that it's clear that I don't feel that way at all. Not even a little bit, not even at all.
And maybe it's the (maybe made-up) information that my donor dad was a really kind human who wanted to help make families. Or maybe it's that I turned out alright.
But probably it's the fact that I feel like if anyone deserved the chance to be a mum, it's my mum. Because she is the best and smartest person that I know of, and (un-biasedly) she is so good with little ones.
And even better with her own little (and now not-so-little) ones.





[Merry Christmas Mumma, that's all you're getting!]

Canadian Shows I Like

My screenwriter friend in the comments of that last post responded:


"Well, I'll disagree with you a little bit here.

INTELLIGENCE, though it was sadly cancelled due to low ratings, was an absolutely stellar show, way better than most US shows. Unfortunately it never locked into a large-enough audience.

DURHAM COUNTRY, which also won a bunch of awards, was also really quite good. Last year I think SLINGS & ARROWS won and it was also an excellent show.

The problem is INTELLIGENCE scored the CBC around 250,000 viewers a week, while THE BORDER gets them 750,000 and CTV's FLASHPOINT, which is explicitly a US-style show that actually plays on CBS in the US, gets over 1,000,000 viewers.

My point is, the networks could certainly be more audacious in their programming, but when audiences don't watch the actually good shows, it doesn't help. Networks are businesses and 1,000,000 viewers for a middle of the road show trumps 250,000 for a groundbreaking one.

Don't get me wrong, there are lots of totally crap shows on Canadian TV. Lots and lots. But there's good stuff too. It's just that nobody watches the good stuff."




And I am with him about all this, except that there is not any promotion for the good shows and/or they are not on accessible networks. I mean, why aren't CTV and Global buying and PROMOTING some of the exciting stuff from Movie Network? And it's not enough for them to just put it on in a crappy time-slot and see if people get around to watching it.
And as for the CBC, if no one's watching that channel it's hard for them to advertise their shows. And when they debut a tonne of new shows and promote the crap out of them and then they all turn out to be quite bad, I have problems trusting CBC's judgement.

I am being unfair when I say there's no good Canadian television, because there is. But I haven't seen very much GREAT Canadian Television. Television that I can't wait to see the next episode of...

Canadian Shows I Like:
This Hour Has 22 Minutes
Rick Mercer Report
Corner Gas (specifically season 1)
Regenesis (I used to watch it when it was on Global at least, it was my first introduction to Ellen Page, who I thought was pretty brilliant in it)
Slings and Arrows (I've only seen 2 episodes of this but they were good)
Durham County (I've only seen one episode of this [man, I should baby-sit again] and it was pretty great I auditioned for it way back in the day and the script was really great and refreshing, actually).

At the ACTRA conference a few weeks ago I went to a workshop that involved the creator/producer/actors from a number of different shows including Da Kink in My Hair, Billable Hours, Rent-A-Goalie, and Flashpoint. They were talking about getting their shows made and also crossing over from acting to producing and writing.
It was a neat session and I liked hearing from all the speakers, especially because it was sort of inspiring, not like that other ACTRA workshop I went to where they basically said "everything is impossible", and "if you have nothing under your belt you will never get anything made" "if you are not a Somebody you can never star in your own show" etc etc etc.
And I like Flashpoint. And I liked hearing from the creators because they spoke to the fact that it really is a very "American" show. They pointed out that the show really is Canadian, especially in the way that it focuses on the characters and their interactions and on the actual emotions of the story.
And that's always been my beef with American crime/cop shows, not enough about the police/investigators/lawyers. I want to know more about those main characters. I don't really care about the violence or the mystery, I'm way more into emotions.
Because I'm a pansy like that.

I am maybe somewhat hopeful out our industry. I am. And it's still pretty new, we're still able to make up rules and I think that kind of anything is possible.
(poor grammar but that's what I sort of mean. ha.)

I don't know how we go about changing the attitude of Canadians about Canadian television without constantly producing top quality shows, but I don't know how to keep the top quality shows on the air without changing the attitude of Canadians about Canadian television.

if at first you don't succeed, try the same thing over and over again

So the Gemini Awards just happened, I guess.
I had no idea on account of I never watch TV on the TV and also it's The Geminis... No one pays any attention. Aaand it wasn't even broadcast on a main network. How ridiculous!
Kind of ridiculous the way we are about our industry up here.

I'll let you in on a little secret, too: if you win a Gemini and want an actual statue to keep (who wouldn't??) you have to buy it!
How wild is that!

Also, classically Canadian information,The Star tells me that "many" of the shows that won awards have already been canceled. Including Intelligence and Cock'd Gunns. This marks the second time that Morgan Waters (of Cock'd Gunns and The Morgan Waters Show) has won a Gemini for a canceled show. This country is ridiculous!
We are ridiculous about this industry!
So content to just take in anything the U.S. is doing and not produce anything meaningful of our own.
UGH.

Good thing I never get around to writing anything, there's no damn point around here!

This country keeps on producing shit series that are just mimicking American shows. It's so frustrating!

How does Quebec have its own thriving film and TV industry and we do not?
This is unacceptable.
We accept and praise mediocrity constantly. We pat ourselves on the back for the shitty things that get made.

I wish I had the answers though.
Same rant after same rant, I know.
Maybe it's just going to be one of those days.

But, hey, I've been taking my iron and vit. D every day and now I'm only sleeping 7 or 8 hours a night instead of my usual 10-12...

11.28.2008

producing!

Whoa, it'd be bad enough to work at Wal-Mart but imagine getting trampled to death by shoppers the day after Thanksgiving...
Wal-Mart Worker Dies After Shoppers Knock Him Down

In other news, I am being so ridiculously productive today. Amazing. I was also productive last night. And I'm putting those craft supplies to good use!
Ugh, that's the shitty thing about crafting for Christmas - I can't really post pictures because it would ruin all the surprises!

But I am very, very pleased with a few of the things I crafted...

Also, I made soup!!!
And that I can tell you about:

Meredactyl's American Thanksgiving Soup
1 large onion
4 cloves of garlic
big ol' can of tomatoes
some zucchini
1/2 cup (? I don't know) dried lentils
small can of mushrooms
small can of corn
whole lot of Italian seasoning
salt and pepper

fry up the diced onions and crushed garlic in a bit of oil for a while, when they are brownish add can of tomatoes, a bunch of water, seasonings, and lentils. And also the diced zucchini. Then cook it for awhile. Then add the mushrooms and corns. Then cook it for a longer while. Probably add some more water, especially if you like it to be less like stew than my mum prefers.

It's really good soup. It's maybe my favourite of all the soups I've made lately. Goddamn I love soups, though.
And lentils help control your blood sugar levels. Uh huh.


Went to Magpie last night for the first time in ages. They have lots of beers. But no sign of the Christmas flavours yet. Hung out with some peeps including Cpt. Heh and also my friend with a broken collarbone that protrudes and he tried to make me touch it but I didn't want to so I threatened to punch him in it. Nice.

After the beer we went to 7eleven to buy a whole goddamn lot of candy and chips and things and then we went to the Cpt's house to eat it and watch Futurama. Except immediately after I stopped chowing down I started to fall asleep so I had to go home...
Party pooper.
Where's is my party-all-the-time spirit lately, guys?
Actually, I don't mind as long as I keep being somewhat productive. And it's not like I'm managing to spend less money, so...

Speaking of which, holy does it just leak off of me...
I need a money-spending prohibitor device somehow hooked up to me.

11.27.2008

No really, I needed all that

Hey, you know what's a good and fun and exciting way to waste time AND money?
Keeping buying craft supplies!
Oh, the potential!
I own so, so, so many crafts supplies. Way too many! I will never do all of these crafts... but geez... the possibilities.

I did it again today - bought a bunch more things.. hopefully more practical things, sort of. BUT STILL.

Also got my brother some very rad stocking stuffers - if I was certain he wouldn't read this, I would tell you about it, but I am not certain.
But I will say that Urban Outfitters has oddly good stuff for obnoxious teenage boys who only like violence and bad jokes.
(Okay, fine, he probably likes other things... but I can't think of any.)

Urban Outfitters is annoying in general because I want everything from there and can't afford any of it. UGH.

Went to Urban Barn and got my friend some of the most beautiful Christmas decorations I've seen. I came very close to buying a few things for me in there, but I refrained! congratulations, me!
If you want to shop for me there, though, they have
a) Gold checked (not really checked, tone on tone of metalic squares sort of) square serving plates ($6)
b) Green tray - really simple grayish-green tray, sooo pretty ($9)
c) glass bird ornaments ($5)
so many pretty things...

I'm very into trays. Easy way to cart messes around.


Oooookay. Ready to do some crafts... or watch more 30 Rock. Something like that.

Also: OMG blueberry pancakes at Aunties today! So fully loaded up with them too...

11.26.2008

who even needs a screen?

Sorry guys I've been using up my writing skills over on private blog, writing about things you could never even dream of...

My camera is broken!
Something is wrong with the LCD screen!
It still takes pictures but won't show them to me or show me what setting I'm changing.
It's like analog all over again!!
Annoying.
I'm not getting worked up about it because I do not get worked up about material possessions. I just can't. Already worked up about everything else.

Before it broke I made this video:

I know, my life is VERY exciting.


I had my first audition yesterday in aaaaaaages. No, really, I thought they'd just stopped existing. And it was the longest wait I've ever had. It was kind of wild. I was there for almost 2 whole hours. Just waiting.
They were trying to cast 2 kids and 1 baby so it was flipping packed in there. And like a zoo. Just crazy.
Of course my friend showed up right after I was done my audition, couldn't have come earlier to keep my company, but she ended up being there two hours as well. Nutso!
Whatever, I think they have to pay us if the audition is over an hour.
My shift got cancelled last night and it was a good thing because I never would've made it there in time, I was busy waiting and waiting and waiting around.
And eyeing up babies.
There were a couple I wanted to steal quite badly...

I worked with this girl the other day who is 24 (like me!) and just had a baby and we were talking about it and stuff and I was all "I want a baby!!!" and she was all "Have one! They're great!!!" and then I said "Man, I can't even hold down a relationship" and she was all "Men are useless!"
Stupid bad influence. Up to no good, that's what she was. She just wanted another mum to hang out with and take the babies to the community centres and stuff with.
Also she said that she partied all the time before the baby but that she doesn't miss it really and she feels like she had her go.
That's why I party-all-the-time these days, get all my partying in and not regret missing out on anything.

UH HUH.

Good thing Mum says I'm not allowed to have babies while I live in Toronto.


There is so little time left before Christmas!
I need a serious shopping day, not to mention some serious craft sessions. Like mad.

Luckily it looks like I'm going to be working a lot more, cutting into my prep time!

But hey guys, my mood is still ever so much better than it had been lately.... And I'm so willing to get behind that.

11.25.2008

Pageant Spectacular!

dudes!

I know that you know how I feel about Christmas (very good), so this year to celebrate, I am teaming up with one of my very favourite friends, Cpt. Heh, to organize a
CHRISTMAS PAGEANT!!!

This is just a pre-announcement, so that you'll know to save the date-
Sunday December 14th
8ish 'til late-ish

So save the date! Get prepared.

Looks like we're going to have some of my very very very favourite bands/people involved and along with dancing there will be carols to be sung and maybe treats to be eaten and almost certainly some Christmas activities.
Aaaand fancy dress will be encouraged but also maybe a Christmas sweater contest?!?

I know, right??

Venue yet to be determined, and the acts are still be negotiated. But still. Save the date.
And if you need to be involved in some way, let me know asap - or if you have a good idea for spreading Christmas cheer, same deal.

Thank you.

[This will also double as my birthday party!!! and also as my going away party! Two weeks is a long time, after all.]

Now I have to go work on my Christmas jokes.


Oh, yeah, p.s. - I dreamt last night that my cat had kittens. And it was awesome.

11.24.2008

lordy lordy looks whose birthday it almost is

OH MY GOD ONE MONTH TIL MY BIRTHDAY!!!

one month and one day until Christmas!


Haha the cat constantly gets her claws stuck in things. She is clueless about claws, srsly, she has lived her whole live with claws, you'd think she'd get better at getting them out of things.
Nope:
omg weirdo
Her back claws are in the carpet.

awwwwww

I'm sick again, my monthly cold. I've even been taking my vitamins (including D, which is maybe why my mood is a bit better). I have no voice and I'm stuffed up as hell. But it's def not the worst cold of this season even.
Still sucking. Still deserve to spend my day in bed drinking juice.

rocking out

Had dinner at Pho Hung last night with Deer, I want to eat there again and again. I keep thinking about those vermicelli and spring rolls. No, seriously,I can't get it out of my mind.
Hmm. Maybe I should eat something today.
Then went on a fun double-date to the Toronto Sketch Festival to see Uncalled For and Dance Party of Newfoundland.
I last saw Uncalled For at the Saskatoon Fringe a couple of years ago where they did an improv show which killed me and so it was extra nice to see them do a sketch show. Such good acting and dialogue and quick, quick wit. My favourite kind of funny.
And Dance Party I saw last year at the Sketch Fest (they won Best in Fest) and I've thought about them many times since then. Many times. This year overall I liked their set slightly less (I missed their one absent/replaced member) and I found one of the sketches unfunny/slight offensive, but they were still very very awesome and one sketch about cats seriously murdered me. My friend and I were practically on the floor about it. I couldn't breathe for laughing so hard.
But then I really like cats. So, you know.
I found this (poor quality) video of one of my favourite sketches that they did last year and not this year:
Old Timey Law Talking


I love love love love love love love love laughing. I love it so so hard.
Not to point out the obvious or anything.

Then we went to Sneaky Dee's for Wavelength to see Sports!
sports!
And it was fun. And I didn't really dance. But I did drink a couple Grolsch. So, win some lose some.
nathanface



yaya sports





The weather looks nasty out, I am not convinced at all that I will leave my house today. It's so deliciously cozy over here. And there's a kitten on my feet, so....

I might clean it up a bit around here though, coziness is most enjoyable when it's also tidy.
Oh God, who am I? Someone lame, looks like.

11.23.2008

Dedicated to WIN

Wow, it's remarkable how fun being in a good mood is.
Which is not to say that the last few days have been stress-free...
But I feel like something's shifted a bit inside and I'm just feeling good. More frequently than I have in awhile, at least.

And holy hell is working in service way easier in a good mood. Like a billion times easier. Man, I really like my job and I like mocking customers and getting flirted with and big tips and feeling like my return customers are my buds. And feeling like I'm actually doing a good job.

AHAHAHAHAHAHA
Speaking of which, I for some reason won some sort of employee-of-the-month type thing! How wild is that, right? Especially because it was in the category of "dedicated to our teams". I got a giant certificate with my name on it signed in silver by a whole bunch of men who I've never met! I'm going to frame it and put it on my wall.

Shit. The more I wake up and think about things, the more stressed I become.
Hmmm.

11.21.2008

ugh + ah

"I just saw what could only be described as a pterodactyl or a falcon!!!"
"I'm hoping pterodactyl!"

Imagine, pterodactyls returned? That'd be kind of fun.

I get to go to work today for the first time in a bit! Hurrah! It will make a nice change from sitting around feeling like poo and not leaving my house.
I'm hoping for money!

Last night I wrapped some gifts! Getting pretty festive around here.......
Can't wait.

Oh yeah, also:
Sarah Palin interview while turkeys are being killed in the background:

(thanks Nunc Scio!

ugh

"I just saw what could only be described as a pterodactyl or a falcon!!!"
"I'm hoping pterodactyl!"

Imagine, pterodactyls returned? That'd be kind of fun.

I get to go to work today for the first time in a bit! Hurrah! It will make a nice change from sitting around feeling like poo and not leaving my house.
I'm hoping for money!

Last night I wrapped some gifts



Sarah Palin interview while turkeys are being killed in the background:

(thanks Nunc Scio!

11.20.2008

saucy

I hate that sick guilt feeling I get when I've done something dumb. I couldn't go back to sleep this morning because of it. I hate hate that. I could never be a murderer or a robber or even a bad liar because of that feeling.
Ugh! I hate it.
I'm kind of over it now, but still.
It's just that I acted like a 15 year old and stuck my nose in other peoples' business. And just convinced my friend that there's a reason he doesn't tell anyone anything.
Nice.

I should get off the sauce.
Oh no, my first thought upon writing that sentence was "there's no booze in the house, I should get to liquor store before it closes". t-t-t-t-t-trouble.
I'm being very dumb.
Work at cutting back. Okay okay will do.

The dishwasher guy at Aunties broke his wrist and I've known all three of the people filling in for him when I've been by.
nick was dishwashing!
This friend who I want to be my actual friend was one of them. And he sat with us for awhile, which was pretty nice. I find him very, very funny. He has the same sort of timing/characterization of British comedy or something.
Anyway.
I go to Aunties and Uncles far too often, I know. And yesterday I got into big trouble because I forgot to order my breakfast tacos (new favourite omg so good like I can't even tell you) without sausage until they'd already made them (I forgot! and I thought he'd know since I order them the same way twice a week.) but they made me new ones because they're nice like that but I did feel guilty. Yesss I did. Damn they were good though.

I'm really glad to have this friend back around, she's been so busy lately and then away and stuff and I just really like hanging out with her, she's very funny and tells funny stories. And is kind of gross and way too descriptive in a way that I enjoy.
sophia

On the Aunties menu it says Cup of Good Soup and even though it's always different, it really is always good. More than good usually.
cheers to soup!
movember
putting on the scarf

That Deer had to leave to go to work and so that left us ladies to chatterton on our own. We stayed a long time and even had coffees after finishing our teas. Handy to have a neighbourhood hang where they don't mind if we do that.
art
more art
I found some chocolate-flavoured confections in my pocket which I had forgotten that I'd gotten at my friend's birthday the other day. I was happy to see them though!

AWWW MAN CHRISTMAS IS COMING CHRISTMAS IS COMING.

I set up my teeny tiny Christmas tree and put my one wrapped gift beside it and when I woke up this morning it was bright out and in because of the white white snow and I had some mint chocolate in bed and remarked "This feels very Christmassy!"
Aw that feeling.

Speaking of that feeling, I'm hoping to get stuff Accomplished today. hmmmm.

booked my trip to make my flight

that's me alright

Booked my flight back to Saskatoon for the 16th. Damn you Air Canada, you won out on this one... I'm hoping Westjet pulls through for my flight back.. keep on checking.

It snowed today! It was very slippery and I didn't notice until tonight, but one of my favourite cowboy boots is cracked right across the sole, traps snow up in there very, very well. Good thing for those sorels I bought.

It's totally Christmas in full-swing. Pretty exciting, and even though I was fully expecting it, it's still kind of exciting.

christmas christmas

there's lights!!



Went to Value Village today with my friend who probably needs a nickname on here but I don't really know what to call him... How about Deck? More than obvious and lame, but whatever. So I made Deck drive me to Value Village and it was slippery and we skidded a bit, oh winter driving - the fun!!
And his family isn't exchanging gifts this year so he didn't even have any shopping to really, except I wanted him to get a Christmas sweater. But VV was totally picked over in that dept. Silly hipsters, stealing all my cool things.
But I got a few things, namely new shoes and an iron and a mini-ironing-board.
Can cross that off my Christmas list I guess. Sorry if you already got that for me.
I just needed it right away for my projects.
Projects I need to get onto.

I cleaned up the house a bit tonight kind out of the blue, I mean, I didn't mean to, it just sort of happened. Which is v nice.
And then I made this video to prove that Rudyard Kitling is a prime athlete. I hope she get spons'd in Fetch soon.



The best is when I accidentally hit her in the nose on the second throw or so. And also how nutso she looks. What a charmer.
A charming, charming charmer who needs to spend WAY less time scratching at the door or in the litter box (45 minutes - tooo long) in the middle of the night.
Still cute though.
I guess.

11.19.2008

checkcheckcheck

Ha! One of the flights has dropped a hundred dollars since yesterday! Take that not-booking-yet!

Ah, man, now it's probably going to go back up again before I get back from brunch and book it...

11.18.2008

Flight check flight check flight check. I don't know why they change their prices every few minutes and I don't know why Westjet Doesn't understand that they are one of my all-time favourite companies but my bottom line (as a poor person) is dollar-dollar-bills.
And since they have the exact same prices as Air Canada (who I have no loyalty to whatsoever - despite never having a terrible experience with them) I am less inclined to take the Westjet flight which has a stop rather than the straight-there Air Canada one.
Why doesn't Westjet make it even $15 cheaper or something, then I could choose them!
I want to always choose Westjet but one time I chose Westjet and the flight was $25 cheaper but then I ended up getting a bit tipsy in the airport in Winnipeg for more than $25 dollars cause I was so bored and had so much time to waste.....

What I love about Westjet is that I've always found them to be quite a bit like their advertising - laid-back, warm, friendly, and they will go above and beyond.

Once I got to the airport late flying Air Canada by about 2 minutes (fair enough, totally my fault and by "my fault" I mean "lackadaisical friend who was giving me a ride"'s fault) and the guy was so detached and unhelpful and I was scared of missing Christmas and so broke and of course I started crying. He put me on a later flight, no charge, so it was great and everything, but he just was so don't-care-high.
When I got there late flying Westjet, again by about 2 minutes (fair enough, totally TTC's fault) the woman was unbelievably helpful, late-boarded my luggage and rushed me to the gate. And was funny and charming. And I told her I wanted to marry her I was so happy and she said "maybe". Which was good-sported of her.

.

I'm thinking I'm going to go home from Dec. 16th until the 30th - I need to miss as few good shifts at ACC as possible but I want to be there for at least two weeks. Even that won't be near enough.
Ghaaad.

How am I all of a sudden behind on all my Christmas planning and prep? Annoying. Everyone else seems more on the ball than me.

So I guess I'm going to be back in Toronto for New Years. I've never been here for New Years. Wild. I wonder what I will get up to.

.

My stomach was so upset this morning, I blame it entirely on the chips that I ate before bed. This is exactly why stuff like that doesn't come into my house. Because it will immediately journey to my belly.
I have to put all the rest of that candy away. Ah, man, such a terrible eater.
I can tell I'm gaining weight I can feel it in my face. Sexy, I know.

By feeling ill I missed out on making my friend take me along to No Frills to get groceries. And I really needed them. Like so badly. Now I have to go to Dominion (Metro, sorry) and spend a billion dollars.
My life is hard.

"You still shop at No Frills, don't you? I'm gonna pick you up and take you to the No Frills"

11.17.2008

drinking and dreams

It's kind of obnoxious when I can remember all of my dreams in great detail but I can't put the details together of everything I did last night.

I did mock Kevin from BSS though, sort of by accident. And I yelled "I'm sorry! I'm mocking you!"
He said it was okay, it happens a lot.

11.15.2008

and poop!

I know that I've been talking about this episode to at least a couple of people lately so I thought I'd just go ahead and post it.


More episodes at midwestteensexshow.com

Man, I hope I didn't already post this episode... Oh well. Whatevers.



I have 100% nothing that I have to do today. Which is kind of great and also annoying because I know I'm just gonna fritter it away. Ah man, I want fritters.

11.14.2008

on relating. or lack thereof.

Rudyard has taken to scratching at the door all night. PRETTY FUN TIMES.
I understand that she's trying to offset the adorableness of playing fetch and catch and even hacky-sack these days, but still.


Talking to my mum about relationships last night was kind of funny.
Probably not the expert.
[For those of yous unawares, I am born of donor insemination and my mum hasn't dated since before I was around. And seems pretty fine about it. And doesn't like me talking about it on the internet...]
She said to me:
"Maybe you're just not a relationship person"
And she just might be right. But then how do I become one?
Should I get roommates? Learn how to be tolerant? Settle? Put up with more things? Be less critical?

Some of that, yes, obviously.
But.

Man, I'm not good at change. I'm good at being exactly the same all of the time and patterns and routines and making the same mistakes time and time again.

Mum was talking to her best friend about her marriage and how long it's been and her friend said "I've put up with much more than you ever would"
I don't want to have to put up with stuff or compromise.
Ah, man, I'm so not a relationship person!
Maybe I'll grow into it?

Also I asked her if she'd encountered power-imbalances in the ways that I have (I feel more than uncomfortable in a situation where I know that I have the control - that I would never be left... I stress myself out worrying about the other person's heart...) and she said that's one of the reasons she stopped dating.

I do love babes.
And I want to be good at relationships.
Working on it, okay?


Oh yeah she also told me I need therapy.
thanks Cpt Obvious.

11.13.2008

urban legend new gen #2

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take me up in your hot air balloon and feed me cotton candy

Haha the girl below me has been practicing "Wayne" by Chantal Krevizuk non-stop all afternoon.
(It won't let me embed, but here's the link to the video for the song, obviously before Chantal started doing those Nutrisse hair colour commercials.)

I know for a fact that it is not a piano that she is playing downstairs, but rather a large keyboard. Which means that she could, in fact, turn it the fuck down. No, she could. Or wear headphones to practice.
She plays it pretty much all afternoons. Lovely. It really only bothers me sometimes.

It's funny how long I've lived in this house and how little I interact with my neighbors. I only made friends with the girls who lived below after they moved out. I spoke with the new basement girl yesterday briefly, she seemed nice enough.
I still have it out for the ones just below me though, that one is always so awkward and rude to me.
So much house dram that I'm never a part of. Apparently everyone thinks that everyone else makes way too much noise except me. Apart from the keyboard playing I really never hear anything.

Apparently in (parts of?) Italy, once you've rented your apartment for 5 years then you own it.
I would totally almost own this attic. That would be wild. But I did the math and if all of the people renting all of the apartments had been paying the mortgage for five years instead of rent then they could totally own the house.
wild.
So much money!

Okay. I'm going to get out of bed.

I've been watching 30 Rock from the beginning and it's making it hard to get anything else done. Pretty addicting and pretty great.
You should probably watch it too.

11.12.2008

WHATEVER LAUNDRY

11.11.2008

new gen of urban legends

wherein no one actually dies.

My friend's co-worker's friend got a pet boa constrictor and she really liked it and didn't want it to be kept in a cage all the time so she let it sleep at the end of her bed with her. It slept curled up at her feet at first and then as it warmed up to her it started sleeping curled up next to her, presumably for body-heat. She thought it especially heart-warming when he started sleeping stretched out against her, lining up with her body. The two of them were getting along famously, except the boa seemed to be losing his appetite. He actually had stopped eating completely, so she took him to the vet to see what was the matter.
The vet explained that the snake was preparing to eat her.
He was lying beside her to try and measure to see if she could fit in his body, and had stopped eating, fasting to eat her all up.

And that, oh best beloved, is why you should not sleep with snakes.


EDIT: Oh, look, I even found it on a message board

filled my day planner

though I planned on doing absolutely nothing for these past couple of days, I have barely been home.
It's funny how that works out sometimes.
I just kept running into people or continuing on with people or wandering places. I haven't really had a moment to sit by myself. Getting that done now, in exchange for not going to do the laundry.
WHATEVER LAUNDRY.

I bought a pair of sorels yesterday. Well, they're Kodiak brand, really. But they're that style, kid's ones. Pretty excited about snowbanks now.
Actually made a pretty good haul at Value Village, got some supplies for Christmas gifts and crafts. Uh huhhh.

Went over to my friend's house for dinner last night, and then out for cheesecake with lots of peeps. Never enough cheesecake. I've been on about cheesecake every day for the past couple of weeks.
Craving not cured.

I wish I'd brought my camera today, accidentally left it at home. Annoying. So many things I'd like to photograph.
Went for brunch with Dollface, had cherry walnut pear pancakes for dessert. I know.
Then I went along with her to her doctor's appointment up in Barrie (no, it wasn't that far, but it sure was north) - road trip!!!
Then we went and visited our friend's new restaurant in Rosedale called Le Petit Castor - it's on Yonge, you should go there, especially if you like meat and expensive comfort food.
Then I got dropped off and went to Queen to shop for feathers and notions and things. Walking down Queen I ran into my friend from Saskatoon who is here visiting who I kept forgetting to call and make plans with. Providence! He was sitting on a bench outside of American Apparel so I sat down beside him. Deer's bandmate was working inside and happened to come near the window and I waved to him and he stuck his head out to say hi. Then I looked inside and saw a dude I went to college with but I didn't go in and say hi. He's kind of weird. And by kind of I mean really. Really.

Anyhow, so Saskatoon friend and I ended up wandering around and then going to Sneaky Dee's for dinner.
It was really nice. And I particularly like when plans and hang-outs require no planning.
Kind of perfect.

Now I'm having a little relax moment, drinking a Lucky Lager, reading some internet gossip, ignoring Rudyard's advances.
I'm thinking about cleaning the house. Yes, we'll definitely see if that happens.

I'm also thinking about becoming more entertaining, but good luck with that one.

11.10.2008

ambition

It was snowing when I woke up, fat flakes outside my window.
Kind of nice.


There's nothing that I have to do today!
I'm excited. Feeling guilty that I don't have enough jobs and stuff, but, you know.
Haven't had an audition in a year, feeling kind of hopeless.
Still depressed.
I need more going on in my life.

I'm either going to go to Value Village or I'm going to go do laundry. Ideally both, but you know me.
I'll probably end up lying around all day instead. But that's kind of fine, too.


I made a video of Rudyard Kitling playing catch and fetch but it's very long and I want to edit it and put music to it but then I realized I don't have imovie on this comp and I've never edited anything in my natural born life, so you'll probably never see it.
Which is for the best because my house is messy.

But here she is sleeping beside me:
pay attention to me


OKAY I'M OFF TO DO STUFF!

11.09.2008

schooled

Went an after hours loft party for Sass's birthday last night.
On account of it being a loft party there were a tonne of people smoking inside. Kind of wild how that was only outlawed a few years ago. It makes such a difference, my throat hurts this morning from being up in that and washing my hair this morning I realized how much bad smoke smell it trapped.
Nice.

I have a subscription to Geist magazine by proxy (meaning, it still comes to my house despite the subscriber not living here anymore. and I contacted the subscriber via Facebook [the new phonebook] to see if he wanted his magazines and he told me I could read them), and it was making me think about how I want to be a writer. But I never write.
This is my main issue, the lack of actual writing.
I'm basically an idea-factory, but in terms of actual sitting down to write... yeah, not my forte.
Or my family's forte. If my family all produced what we are theoretically capable of, well, we'd be damn prolific.

Anyhow. So I got to thinking about going back to school. For writing. I mean, I don't do anything in the daytimes anyway, I could keep my same jobs, keep going to auditions (miss class as necessary - it's not like I go out all that often anyhow).
The only thing is how I would need to get more student loans.. and I haven't even made a dent in paying off the last ones.
It would be different if I were guaranteed a well-paying job after this bought of school.......

OH, I don't know.

I'm just sort of uncomfortable with what I'm doing with my life, I need more going on, and I'm not sure I can self-start this, I'm pretty bad at making myself do work.

And it's kind of weird but I feel strangely about not having a university degree. I'm pretty smart so I feel like I should be more educated or something.
But then maybe I wouldn't even go to university, maybe I would go to college...
Or maybe I should take some part time courses. Do they have part time courses in the daytimes? Because that's when I'm available...

Oh jeez.
Luckily I'll probably be over this idea by next week.

11.08.2008

I guess I should start my day...

I have no idea why I slept in as badly as I did today, but I will blame in on feeling shitty lately. And because I was having really clear, pretty entertaining dreams. Not very exciting to recount, but I will say I was hanging out with Paris Hilton an awful lot. Aaand we almost got shot.
Exciting times!


ACDC (when I wrote that on a sheet my co-worker reminded me I forgot to draw the lightning bolt in between) was even worse than expected!
It was such, such a shitshow.
I was up on 500 - the cheaper seats, where no one tips but everyone wants to get drunk and rowdy. We had no security to speak of and we ran out of large size cups. And our stand was out a bit from the wall and people kept running behind us and trying to take things from our stand, etc.
It was awesome!
On top of that we had temp staff to help us pour. Except they weren't particularly good at it. And four people on one unit is way too many. And then my co-worker split the tips evenly with them without consulting me. Which is fine. He explained his need for good karma, I understand that. Except that it had occurred to me that they were probably making more money than us.
Which, it turned out, they were!
Of course! Of course they were!
I make less than minimum wage at Skydome (on account of it being a "serving" job) even after FOUR FUCKING YEARS.
There's no way the temp staff would make less than minimum - but it turned out they were making at least $11. So I'm feeling a bit sore about it. Especially since I did all of the set up and cleaning and preparing.
It would've been fine if I'd walked out with some money. But I make just as much working a slowish hockey game at ACC.

OKAY ENOUGH RANTING.

Thanks.

Weird people read this blog or see my videos and I think it's pretty funny.
One of Deer's bandmates commented on seeing one of my videos:
It's just you talking and telling stories.
Yep. Pretty much.
But he seemed to find them funny.

I feel gladly about not posting too many half-naked pictures of myself on account of coworkers getting into this and going about poop stories to me.
No, I like it.


Did I tell you I spent $30 at Dollarama the other day? Yeah, I know. I do hate Dollarama, I mean, it goes against every principle I have... but it's so addictive to shop at. I got some really thick workman's socks and some black socks for work and two pairs on mittens and some candy and a TONNE of Christmas crafting and decorating paraphernalia.

I also went to Winners, where they have all their Christmas stuff out. So nice. So many things I wanted for my very own. Winners actually has tasteful Christmas home decor items I came very very close to buying for myself.
Does anyone I know like almond-scented things?

Aw man, Christmas!

I'm going to set a crafting schedule, specific crafts on specific days - and then you can come over and make that kind of craft with me if you'd like!
Crafts:
Christmas cards
Gift tags
Gingerbread ornaments (not for eating)
Cookies
Gingerbread houses
Origami ornaments
Fabric painting

Any other ideas??

graceful

11.07.2008

my cat fully plays catch

I am not kidding around here. I bought her some toys at Dollarama yesterday and I throw these crinkly sparkly balls for her and she fully brings them back. What an awesome cat. She also jumps to catch it midair if I throw it.
What a dog.


UGH. Not feeling well. Def not feeling like working the ACDC concert tonight... but am feeling like making lots of dollar dollar bills.
So ready to be rich.
I bet they'll over-staff us tonight though, and it'll be dumb.
Yay!

It is so, so nice out these days. Going to get cold again, but I've been enjoying it while it lasts.

Had lunch in the market with Deer and his folks. Burritos and then wandering around. Had to stop every few feet because Deer is the most popular person I've ever met and knows everyone all the time. Seriously stopped to talk to at least 10 people.
His mother was very pleased to find Russet apples.
russet apple
We all at them. They were pretty nice. Not waxy like most apples. Pretty crisp, juicy. Nice.
His parents live in the East end and don't come over our way too often, his mother said she couldn't remember ever going to Kensington before. How wild.
Except I've never been to:
High Park
Wonderland
Casa Loma
Beach
So, you know.


Deer's dad made me take this photo:
neil's dad made me take this picture
He said the building was very arty and I could frame the picture and sell it for a lot of money.
I did not take a photo of the man on the bench peeing.
No sir.


Went to Wanda's Pie in the Sky at their new location in Kensington another day this week with my old friend.
lunch in the market
It was very good. The cream of broccoli soup, especially, was great. Very broccoli-y, not too creamy. And it had this bread round that had been baked with cheese on the top of it... yessss.
matched my soup bowl
Luckily I dressed to match my dishes. Good thing!




graffiti poses


Had a good brunch with the BFF today. Stupid busy with law school. Luckily soon she will be able to support me. Bet she didn't know she was going to be such a patron of the arts. I think she'd look really good as a benefactor.
Sat for a long time, ran into people I know.

Two babes I've been involved with just did a pilot for a series together - hopefully it gets picked up. But they are hockey buddies now. I ran into one of them last night and one of them this morning. I asked one if they'd compared notes yet. Apparently a crude castmate tried to make them, but they both blushed instead. Haha!
I kind of think they should. I think they'd have wildly different stories. When they start going for beers after hockey and getting too drunk together, then it'll happen.
And I will laugh.
I want them both to be better friends with me.
Looks like I'm going to have to start playing hockey.

11.06.2008

just brian krakowing around...

I'm fairly certain that I am becoming one half petulant child and one half over-bearing mother.

I feel sad, I need something to make me feel better!

Let's try TV.

TV's not making me feel better.

Have some candy.

I'm tired of this candy.

Try this other candy?

This candy is gross!

Go out for brunch?

Brunch is eaten but didn't make me feel better.

Eat some more?

UGH NOW I'M SO FULL.

Be mean to a perfect babe?

Yeah that felt good for half a second. Now much worse.

Spend time thinking about Christmas?

Yessss. Now I'm bored of that and nothing ever goes as well as I'd like it to and I'll never have as much money as I'd like to make this all wonderful....

OH, I KNOW. How about a drink?!?

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS


I need proper jobs and hardships so that I can spend less time wienering around and feeling sorry for myself.

Today is about self-indulgence though. Because I say so. And because I feel sick and therefore deserve it. And because I feel like watching movies on the internet and drinking an assortment of hot and cold beverages.

Best hot beverage? Vanilla soymilk with sugar and a mint teabag heated up. No really.

I finally watched Step Brothers. I've been wanting to see it since it came out... I'd promised to see it with some friends who are no longer my friends anymore (sad emoticon) so I'd held off. But I watched it today.
I give it 7 out of 10. Exactly what I'd expected. I wish they hadn't used ALL the best lines in the trailer. But they sure did. It was funny though. I enjoyed it.

I'm ready to see a really GREAT movie. Any suggestions?

11.05.2008

only part fluff

Went to Sass's birthday dinner on Sunday.
Luckily I managed to not get any good pictures of her. Classic.

We went to an Asian restaurant on account of she is Asian and therefore can only eat rice. And duck. And duck-rice.
house of gourmet food
corn and tofu and something soup
Took Deer along - needed some veg support. Haha, kind of true though.
furrow brow
He has shaved his face to get ready for MOVEMBER. I'm expecting a sweet 'stash. I better not be disappointed.
girls dine

I dressed like Christmas. So what else is new.


almost all gone
I don't know why but House of Gourmet seems to specialize in serving mushrooms that are shaped exactly like noses. I guess you've got to be good at something.
nose mushroom
I am good at putting inappropriate things onto my face.
mushroom nose

I am also good at making bad jokes, especially lately.
Hanging out with my one friend this weekend, we agreed that we found each other terribly funny but that maybe most people wouldn't. I suggested we make sketches together and she said "but if we're both in the sketch - who is going to be laughing?"

I watched both Obama and McCain's speeches last night. I was pretty impressed with McCain, he seemed kind and decent. I liked that he agreed everyone needs to work together. Same with Obama. I felt like when Obama said that he will be the president of his opponents too, he was saying he wanted to work for them as well - support their interests and try to understand and work with them.
You know why I like Barak? Michelle Obama, that's why. For some reason I've caught way more interviews with her than I have with Barak and she always seems like someone I would want to friends with. And that family just seems so nice. But also strong.

I am less excited than I was yesterday. Especially since hearing that certain propositions limiting or eliminating gay marriage rights may have passed.
yuck.
Honestly, who's business it is who marries who!?
Do I think that Katie Holmes should've married Tom Cruise? Good God, no. But it's not my decision to make.
No one's marriage but mine own (or possibly my best friends') should be affected by my opinions.

I think the Canadian election would've gone differently if it'd been held after the U.S. one. Probably Harper knew that.
Hmmmmmmmm.

As Nunc Scio asks today,
Where is OUR Obama?