fading out like it's never been

Okay, oh good, some pictures of myself. For once. You're welcome.


I wanted to show you how faded out my hair colour is (because I know that you have been wondering how that is going for me) but then the light isn't even good so.....

So then I just edited a bunch of them anyway.

I feel like I used to be better at smiling. When did I stop being good? I think I'm alright at smiling IRL just not necessarily for photos.
My chin is just so extreme, it stretches the skin across it in an annoying way. Should I smile more to stretch out that skin? Should I do face-stretching exercises? Is this just going to go away as my jowls start sagging and I should enjoy it while it lasts?



Ha, imagine being a regular non-actor, non-blog person who could just never think so much about how dumb their face is...
English is my first language.



LOOK WHAT I MADE

Mini-flask necklaces.



Dollface and Violet suggested that I sell these. So now I want to. Where should I sell these? Who will sell them for me?

Aww I like these little guys. Dollface had bourbon in hers last night. Mmmm.


I didn't mean to go out last night but then everyone was texting and they all seemed to be heading to the same area and then when I finally got dressed and out the door, everything seemed to fall through but I was wearing sequins (an awesome vintage dress I cut into a sweet shirt so good. why didn't I take pictures?) so I couldn't very well turn around and go back home, could I?
So I went down to meet Dollface at Goodnight and I made some good jokes and some new buds and then we hoofed it up to Churchill where we stayed until we got kicked out. But I fully maintained babebreak didn't even entertain any dumb notions.

Actually feeling so great about babebreak. It has taken all of the "loneliness" out of my life... I say that because I'm never really lonely, I'm pretty much always content in my life and lifestyle, but the idea of being actively looking for love adds a sense of loneliness to my lifestyle. Like I'm failing somehow, or missing something. Which I don't think is necessarily true.
Funny how society conspires against me when I should be busy enjoying myself.



I think this one is for me to keep. I put vodka in it already. I need another flask because I only have four other ones. But I can't find my 3-ouncer. Sooo... Plus this one is a 5-ouncer and I don't have one that size.



Also, there's been an epidemic of break-ups it seems, lately? Has anyone else noticed this trend? My one friend today was blaming the lunar eclipse. I wonder....

Oh yeah, I spent today with one of my favourite people, eating cookies, drinking multiple kinds of tea, picking at all the candy in the house, and talking about everything. Perfect kind of afternoon. Spending time at home with friends is the best because there's no pressure to finish up or get going, or get to the subjects. You can talk or be quiet or yell or cry even and it's no big deal.
Best.

 

Now maybe I'll do the laundry! No real point since I'm on babe break, I know but whatever. 

simply having a wonderful (early) christmastime dinner party

I'm in a way better mood today!

Yesterday I felt like I had not done a good job at my audition, I felt like I had just not looked as good as I could have or been as lively as I could have, etc. etc.
anyway, they want to see me again for it. So that means I wasn't the worst. Yay!

Also, I had a super nice time at my dinner party!

awww look how happy I am in my little tiny kitchen! cooking away for some of my favourite people. awwww what a life what a life! pictures are such good things to have to remind me how much I like things.


This guy told me he's been angling to make an appearance on my blog forever. I love him! He also said he needs an awesome nickname but then failed to choose one for himself. Hmmm. I kind of like Beastly. How about Beastly? No, wait, what about Sweet Beastly?
I'm going to go with that for now anyway.


haa I'm such a round little elf lady. kind of nice. I should get to be a mum someday I would rule at it so hard. I fully ruined that dress in a bunch of ways. Ah well, whatevers. I should definitely have found my apron but I really just don't know where I would have put it.


ooooeeeee so dashing, hey??



Okay maybe you're wondering about the food for this dinner party. It wasn't terribly exciting more like just basic and good. That's what I was in the mood for. I had originally planned for making curried lentil quinoa soup but then on the day all I could think about was stew. It was just so grey and windy and I wanted stew and biscuits.


VEGETARIAN STEW:
man, okay, you can just boil some stuff up together, that's what I do. But what I did for this particular soup was

butter/olive oil
1 large onion
2 medium potatoes
lots of mushrooms
some carrots
lots of broccoli
some zucchini
veg stock
Italian seasoning
cumin

Is that it? maybe?

Fried up the onions in some butter mixed with olive oil. Then sauteed all the mushrooms up in that. Then added the potatoes and the stock because I like when my potatoes are fully cooked right up the most so mushy. Then added the rest of the vegetables then the seasonings then it just stewed around for a couple of hours while I made other things/cleaned up/etc. It could have been done an hour earlier if necessary I think but it didn't hurt for it to stew around. Ya know?
I like my stews with lots of broccoli and mushrooms. That's what I like.
You can also add TVP (textured veg protein) to this if you want but just before serving I would think. I've done that in the past makes it like chicken stew sort of. but I mostly like this stew just on its own.

(christmas napkin roll-ups!!!!! ugh ugh lovelovelovelove)

The biscuits I just made with a gluten-free mix I got in Kensington. BUT I added dill seeds and cheddar. Mum-style.
The dill and cheddar just fucking make them. Also putting butter on them. Butterbutterbutter.


We had a big salad as well. I should always remember to eat more salad. Like the salad that's in the fridge right now.

I'm in love with all my dinnerware and glassware and my silver salad tongs. Just in case you were wondering.


I also made candied cranberries. I got the recipe from my cousin's blog. So festive! I wish I'd gotten them done earlier so they could have crisped up a bit longer. Still pretty nice.


And we also had some spiced cranberry-almond sugar cookies for dessert. They weren't the best but they were alright. I'm still learning about gluten-free cooking, so cut me some slack. Also some clementines. I had never heard of a clementine before Toronto.


For drinking we had lots of red wine and we had gin and/or vodka mixed with a punch I made that was cranberry pop mixed with lemonade basically. With cranberry ice-cubes and lemon slices.

llllllove gin with cranberry and lemons. I was first introduced to this years ago in Saskatoon when I had a weird brief fling of a friendship with a girl. Along with our gin adventures we had a New Years party just the two of us at the mansionhouse she was house-sitting that involved cigars and wine in the hot tub and dragging all of our blankets and stuff into the living room to sleep under the 10 foot tall Christmas tree and be beside the fireplace and then we had a motown dance party. Crazycrazy fun.




We had a real nice time just sitting around talking about anything. And listening to the Christmas mix I had prepared, of course.


Wanna know the track listing? obviously.


OH MISTLETOE CHRISTMAS MIX
The Three Kings* - Mormon Tabernacle Choir
It's Beginning To Look A Lot Like Christmas - Johnny Mathis
Ring Ring - Sleigh Bells
Wonderful Christmastime - Paul McCartney
Paris 2004 - Peter, Bjorn & John
Jingle Bells - Ella Fitzgerald
Christmas (Baby Please Come Home) - Darlene Love
What Christmas Means To Me - Stevie Wonder
All I Want For Christmas Is You - Mariah Carey
Carol Of The Bells - Home Alone Soundtrack
The Holly And The Ivy - Mormon Tabernacle Choir
We Three Kings - Wintersleep
Maybe This Christmas - Ron Sexsmith
December - Basia Bulat
Merry Christmas Baby - Otis Redding
The Man With The Bag - Kay Starr
Sleigh Ride - Ella Fitzgerald
Home Alone (movie theme)

*this song is different than WE three kings, it's the most amazing carol. if you need a copy of it email me and I'll send it to you for sure

 
This smile looks forced, but I assure you he was having the time of his life.


I'm very happy that everyone agreed to wear their Christmas hats from their crackers and also their Christmas jewels I bought to wear on our faces.

Aww I'm so happy thinking about this.



haaawww Sweet Beastly, can't take him anywhere.


wellll... they can't all be flattering shots, eh?

I want to have more Christmas parties now. Luckily I have about 10 on the horizon. Never enough! But I do feel like I should do something for my birthday/Christmas. Hmmmmmmm.


I do have a few more photos but I think I'll save them for tomorrow. To have some content going while I'm away.

Tomorrow I am going on a road trip with Dayna and I am SO EXCITED. I think I already said that, but it bears repeating. I keep thinking something's going to interfere and ruin it. I don't know why.
I'm not a big worrier but sometimes I'm a neurotic worrier.
I am such, such a big fan of road trips. And of parents. And of dogs and of adventures. And of thrifting. And of crafting. And of Sweet Thing. We're going to their show on Friday in Ottawa, so fun! I'm going to hit on all the OTTAWA BABES.
Hey do you guys know any babes in Ottawa?

Hahaaa I was yelling at a babe the other day about babes and he was like "I have a name you know. we aren't just all just babes"

care-package!!!!

Now, there are some packages I care for more than others...
(ew Meredith)

care-packages from my mother (few and far-between) are my favourites!

- Tins
- Ginger cookies
- Chocolate
- The Tale of Two Bad Mice (haha I almost bought this for myself the other day)
- pink sweater
- black dress
- my favourite plate that I forgot
- pretty blue and white bowl

Sigh....

If only there were somewhere not infested with critters to put all this stuff.
I already ate 7 cookies.

I'm ignoring my disaster-state this afternoon. Had an audition and work to do for The Chill. And that was enough. Maybe tonight I will get back at 'er. After work I mean. Christ.

I'm feeling more rational about life today though. Slightly.

Mumma says that when you feel like your life is unbelievably shitty that just means that the universe is planning something majorly great for you.
Come on Universe! I want a series!

Went to check out my friend's new coffee shop this afternoon. They're doing construction on it, due to open in a couple of weeks. Pretty rad. I'm excited to have a venue owned entirely by someone I know. I think it's going to be pretty neat. Who wants to go for coffee???

The next Et Puis? launch might happen there (!!!!!).. presuming I ever write that damn booklet.
Craptastic

Sure don't want to go to work today!!!