getting dressed up for who knows what!

OKAY LET'S GET SERIOUS.


just kidding opposite of serious. Which outfit should I wear tonight?
I still don't know what exactly I'll be doing.



okay either awesome forever 21 jean dress that is tight and funny with black tights and black heel boots
or
funny sparkly shirt from Value Village in Prince Albert with extra-funny highwaisted shorts from Sirens in the Saskatoon Midtown mall with black tights and black heel boots.

DECISIONS, DECISIONS.




I think I'm going to go to Shambers for a bit and then maybe to some other parties?
Although it has recently occurred to me that maybe no one I know will even be at Shambers'! Awkward!

Everyone is all split up and scattered.
Alllllll of my best wingmen are out of town or working or have boyfriends. Not kidding!

Maybe when Dollface finishes working at 6 a.m. then she will want to party with me. Actually quite possible. What shall I do until 6 a.m.....?



hahahaahahaa cop face awkward arms.

I accidentally stayed up late last night. I watched TV and ate even though I was the tiredest person ever. But then I fell asleep and slept straight through for 12 hours. That's an accomplishment!
I lovelovelove sleeping.



Point being, I'm rested up and ready for tonight.
Although it's looking more and more like I'll be all dressed up with nowhere to go!
Classic!



I know of several fun things happening so if you wanna be a wingman or need a wingman then tell me about it!



SEE YOU NEXT YEAR BLOG!

some day some where some time over the rainbow

I am remarkably tired. I would even say that I am exhausted. My face keeps flushing because I'm so tired. Coool I'm glad I have to work soon!

I'm back and happy to be in Toronto (I think I love it here) but I am a bit nervous about this winter-after-christmas bullshit. It's this time of year where I'm most subject to being sad, depressed, broke, and lazy. I'm working on a few things to help waylay this sadness, though.



Also, I'm pretty sure I'm going on babe-break right away here. It's about time. I think I might have said I was going on babe-break this fall but I definitely didn't get around to it.
I've been getting really tired of drama and of my own bad decisions and other people's bad decisions and how no one is treating each other right. Not just with me but with everyone I know. I find (for myself) it's necessary to take a time out every once in awhile. I'm going to bench-warm.




Although... that's part of the problem. I want to be a person who doesn't need to go on a babe-break. I want to be a person who chooses wiser, treats people better, and has crushes who are kind.




I have a bit of a theory that most men (as ridiculous as it sounds. and this theory actually goes against all I wish to believe) consider women they're attracted to in two sorts of groups: women who would be girlfriends and women who they'd cheat on their girlfriends with (or never be serious with, in general).



At some point I would like to be a girlfriend. And a good girlfriend. A good partner to someone at some point.
Am I admitting that I want a relationship? Possibly.
I am having a very hard time saying that I do. And I really want to qualify it with "at some point" or "eventually" or "only with the best babe ever", etc etc.
But the truth is that I want a partner in crime and some babies.

ADMITTED IT TO THE INTERNET. NOW UNIVERSE PROVIDE, PLEASE.



I came very very close to missing my flight this morning!
By some miracle they let me through. Probably because it was Westjet. But probably more so because then we sat on the tarmac for another hour before we got to leave. Some lightbulb somewhere in the plane was burnt out or something and they had to fix it.
I spoke to the one person who seemed to be running around the lines at the airport and I asked if he worked for westjet. He didn't confirm but he told me I was in the right line then told me patronizingly that he "really hoped" I'd make it onto my flight.
I realized later that he was working for another airline entirely. What a little shit!
It was kind of funny because I was shocked that someone as rude as him would work for Westjet, it was a relief to find out he doesn't actually.

Noodle came to pick me up from the airport which was suuuper swell. We got to catch up a bit. I haven't seen enough of her lately, she is pretty funny.




Now I'm vegging out and wishing that I'd had a nap this afternoon. I was afraid I'd wake up more tired if I had a nap but I can't really imagine being more tired than I am now.





I had a good Saskatoon visit. I wish I hadn't forgotten all my necklaces hanging up in my room there.




I didn't get to see as much of some people as I would have liked and it always makes me miss people more when I see them so briefly.





But had a lot of great food great fam great gifts. Which is pretty much what the holidays are about.
I'm a bit sad that Christmas is over but the good thing about Christmas is that it always comes again.

does anyone have an apron to cover my apron while i eat? I don't want to get it dirty

Christmas martini!

also, Christmas apron.

Which my cousin made herself for me. Amaaaazed. So beautiful. I think it might be the most beautiful fabric I've ever seen. Maybe. Can I wear this out and about?
Can I please have my own house and family now and wear this around all day?

All I want to do is eat and eat and eat. Everyone else is in the same boat, yeah? I'm not even hungry! It's just that there is way too much delicious food around. Ridiculous amounts of delicious foods!

Yesterday I made my birthday supper (tacos!) and I made my birthday cupcakes. I don't mind cooking too much. And actually it kind of soothed my terrible achingly-bad mood yesterday afternoon to putter around in the kitchen. But especially because it all worked out. If it hadn't then I might have had a real melt down.



Today has been fantastic so far. And we're done now with all the heavy stuff (not quite for my mum since she's preparing dinner). Breakfast is our big crowning jewel of the festivities. And it was all it should be. Along with the regular (but still amazing) eggs and potatoes, we had the (gluten-free!) crepes with gingerbread cheesecake stuff and poached pears my cousin made! Jeeeezus!
So lucky!

Along with the apron I got mostly a tonne of plates and dishes and each one is so wonderful. Good life, this one.


Okay you wanna know about these flourless chocolate cupcakes with maple creamcheese insides that I made for my birthday last night? (I know my cousin does so I thought I'd just post it here for everyone.)

I took a few different recipes and sort of combined them. I'm not the best baker for that exact reason -- that I have difficulty following recipes and sticking to things, luckily these turned out soooo good.
You know how eating gluten-free is all about trying to find things that are almost as good as their glutenful counterparts? Well these cupcakes were some of the best cupcakes I've ever had!

FLOURLESS CHOCOLATE CUPCAKES (WITH MAPLE CREAM CHEESE):
8 (1 oz) squares of semi-sweet chocolate
(you could do half of the squares of chocolate with 1/2 cup cocoa)
1/2 cup butter
3/4 cup sugar
3 eggs
1 tsp. vanilla

okay so I didn't have a double-boiler so I heated the chocolate squares and the butter in a pyrex over top (not touching the water but resting on the saucepan) of boiling water until they melted.
While that was going on I beat the eggs a lot with an electric beater. Then I beat the sugar and vanilla in. I may have used more vanilla than that.

In another bowl I combined
1 package cream cheese (warmed slightly to mix easier
1 egg
1/2 cup maple syrup (I would use more next time or possibly maple flavouring, you could also do some pumpkin or gingerbread type mix that'd be so good)
1/3 cup sugar

Then when the butter and chocolate were all melted and mixed I poured them into the rest of the cake ingredients and mixed it lightly.
Then poured it into the cupcake wrappers in the tins (it's very runny so don't be worried). Then I dropped spoonfuls of (the also very runny) creamcheese mixture into the centre of the cupcakes.

I baked the cupcakes at 300 degrees for half an hour. Except I forgot about the second batch and they were in there for probably 40 min at least and it didn't do them any harm at all.

If you were to make a cake with this recipe it's suggested to grease the tin and then flour it with cocoa powder. Apparently this amount is good for one 8-inch round cake (without the creamcheese bit -- that's the part I completely made up) but I would suggest making it in a bigger pan and spreading it out very thin. I would also suggest making mini cupcakes. The crunchy bits around the top edges of the cupcakes were everyone's favourites, that's why. These cupcakes are very soft and squishy and a bit more like pudding than cupcakes but I like fudgey brownie-type cakes way better anyway, so it's perfect for me!

Ugh so good. Now I wish I weren't so full so I could eat another.



Anyway, Christmas has been delightful thus far and I'm exceedingly pleased about today, etc. And I'm also pretty exhausted. Maybe I will have a little lie-down before dinner. Mum's making veggie pot pies and a big salad!
eeeeeee! christmas!

I hope you're having a lovely lovely lovely little time wherever you are and also that your family leaves you alone for awhile like mine does because man, so many people get overwhelming after awhile!

bring on 27, I've never been more ready to have things get awesome

guys guys guys guys gggguys guysss guuuys




heyyy guys. guess what? It's my birthday!




I don't know what it is about 27 that I'm so excited about but, man, I'm pretty stoked on it.
Maybe I'll be eating my hat this time next year, but I bet you this next year is going to be rad.



It's only just midnight here in Saskatoon and I feel it's the best idea to celebrate as long as possible and with as much gusto as I can muster. right? mmmhmm. Right now my gusto includes beers and internet and bothering the cats. Pretty party I would say.

(yes our angel is possibly drunk and holding a bottle... don't hate)


Tomorrow I have lunch with some fam and Killary and then dinner with even more fam and it's really only sinking in now that I'll get some actual gifts tomorrow! whoaly so excited. I love stuff! so much!


Things have been a little up and down this evening but these beers are helping and these cookies and lying around like an entitled asshole is always the best. Plus I'm going to be officially TWENTYSEVEN tomorrow at 8:52 a.m. -- the best ever!!

Aging is so fun! I get to be older and wiser, so excited for growing up and getting to do way more fun things forever. Think about all the adventures I can have!



oooookay here are some photos of me from the past! for to celebrate my progress a little bit.

grade 12! ten years ago... man. hahahaa way to go me for making that face. So classic, Cheesbrough.

nothing makes you feel better about aging than seeing photos of yourself when you were lamer. A bit at least? I remind me of someone in this one. I can't think who though. Also, I look so earnest! Aww.

Thank god my mum put this one in the album! Woweeee. Can you believe this exactly around the time that I finally started dating my number one crush of 4 years? me neither.

hooo lordy I practically lived in my locker in highschool.  Sweet hand-made bell-bottoms. Why am I posting these again? Who knows!


aww I wish I could still eat donuts. This is me when I was younger (natural hair colour I think!) (every picture is a picture of when you were younger, show me a picture of you when you are older then I will say 'where'd you get that camera?' -mitch hedburg) and I think when I was in about as bad of a mood as I was in all this early eve. Luckily that has passed.

okokok should go to bed now, be well-rested to fully enjoy the shit out of my special day.

Here is me riding "The Champion" at the Western Development Museum today, tonnes more pictures from this visit later.