All lace

I would say it's possible that I'll spend my summer in mostly only linen and lace. Because why not.



For some reason these days, more than ever before, I'm hyper-aware of everything that I don't know. Everything that I have no sense or knowledge of seems to stretch out around me and I feel ridiculously silly for never having noticed this before.



Is this because I don't really read books anymore? I think it's mostly because my interests and hobbies mostly revolve around drinking and looking at babes. Fine hobbies, for sure, but I keep being overwhelmed by how much I still have to learn.

I'm only now getting a sense of just how much more I learn every year, every month that I'm alive. I hope I live to be 120 so that I can know so much more about everything.
(Although, to be fair, I really don't believe that the earth as we know it will last another 90 some years the way we're using it. I just don't.)



Big ups and big downs these days, guys.

I'm travelling out of Canada (for the first time ever!) at the end of June. White Panther Girlfriend got in to the Del Close Marathon in NYC so we'll be doing some improv on a Sunday morning and probably having the best time of our lives so far.
NEW YORK CITY, GUYS.

I've always said that I'm not that interested in travelling, but you must know that's just because I was always afraid to say that I want to.
It's just always being broke and also having a lack of self-confidence.
Saying things like "I want to go to Europe" seems silly and I feel like it'd be met with,
"With what money? Why should you get to go?"
I did always just figure that later in my life I'd have money/time/opportunity to travel and there was no point hurrying into it. Now I'm starting to feel a bit like time moves quicker than I'd ever imagined and I'll never get to do everything I want to do.



Also, I do travel a lot, I travel back to Saskatoon all the time. And I travel to cottages in the summer.




These days I have a lot of things I'd like to say about relationships but I'm always still formulating thoughts, and I'm always going back and forth on what the internet needs to know about everything. It's important to me that I write what I like, but that I take good care of myself and of the people in my life.

I know I've said it before, and maybe it's clear in the way I go about things, but I'm just not convinced I want to be in a relationship.



Maybe just not currently?

When I'm involved with people I'm actually very nice and a good person to be involved with, and I'm happy enough and get really interested in how I think relationships could go and the exciting bits of being partnered up with someone. But it's not always my favourite place to be. I feel most comfortable on my own. Like a sigh of relief when I don't have anyone to be accountable to, can do whatever I want whenever I want, forever.

A brat I was involved with recently-ish said while we were ending things, "I'd like to believe that at some point I would be selfless enough to be in a relationship, that I could prioritize someone else's needs above my own, but it's not now"

I'm sort of like that, too, I guess. Except I try to be kinder about it (doesn't always work out).

I think the thing that puzzles me about my lack of interest in anything long-term and strong-standing is how I'm still very much interested in men and in romance (less so these days, but still).



Maybe it's just getting high on the possibilities. I do like the idea of having a husband sometime (or especially the idea of having a ring and dress and a party...)
I like the idea of having a best friend forever to build a life with, I just don't have any belief that'll happen for me.
We'll see, I suppose.



Also, you're welcome for all the ridiculous pictures of me to accentuate how nuts I am while writing this entry. nice.

Oh, aaaand, I put a whole cup of tea onto my computer and my old computer isn't loading any web pages at all, so this entry is brought to you by the magic of iPhone.
Please, lord, let me keep my iPhone safe, and please lord, let my macbook pro revive from the dead!

(ughughughh I just bought that I don't have time/money for this. Sigh sigh sighhghhhhhgughughh.)

dating advice #4

hey guys! look how romantic I am. aaaaand I'm giving you some sweet advice.

less worried about being cool

I'm a really good mood today for the first time in weeks!


Making refried beans? add beer and a bit of curry powder. Catdad's best tip.
My best tip? Quinoa on your tacos. Better than rice!

My body is doing a pretty good job of being a hormonal nightmare lately for no apparent reason? Seems a bit unfair, if you ask me. Maybe it's just getting everything out of the way and now will work like a dream for the rest of my life? HA.


I'm working quite a bit these days. I don't know how much I've said here but I'm working very part-time in the office at a small theatre close to my house. I like this job more than I expected but mostly WEARING MY OWN CLOTHES is the best. All my other jobs require black pants and MAN, there are only so many days in a row I can make black pants work.


office outfit!
Watch Peever bought me in the St. Catharines Salvation Army. I'm prettttty into it.

Blogger has a whole new format and it's annoying and sorry there were no line-breaks in the last entry but hey, I didn't lose any sleep over it.


(look I actually made a craft that I'd pinned on pinterest! ooohhh man, so many tasteful things on pinterest!!)

One of the reasons I resisted actually getting into comedy for as long as I did (and probably if there's a reason I'll shy away from it in the future) is that it's tiring to keep track of what's funny and why it's funny and how you can translate it later into a way to show other people that it's funny. It's tiring. Not awful, but it is a bit of work.
I can't count how many times in the past few months I've asked people, "what was that thing I thought was so funny earlier?"


(Aunties for the first time in forever and it was as good as I thought it'd be.)

But now hanging around most of the time with comedy people has advantages. I think being an funny/obnoxious kid parlayed into me being an obnoxious teenager and the people I hung out with in high-school valued out-cooling each other over doing voices or accents or silly fun bits.
(and obviously people doing accents/voices who are not funny is the MOST ANNOYING)
It would have mortified me to have tried accents or characters in front of them, I think. It was hard trying to be cool. I've been caring way less about being cool with every passing moment of my life.
I'm feeling way more free these days to say every stupid thing that comes into my head. And, luckily, not all of it is horrendously annoying.
Lately I'm getting really into talking in whichever weird way I goddamn feel like! I let myself go off on tangents about whatever I like, I talk to myself in my room about whatever fictional shit I feel like.



That's probably what one needs to do if one wants to be a character comedian. I can't just think about things in my head and then present it fully polished. Everything needs to be worked out and felt-through.
I'm already a good actor, I have a nice sense of honesty and I trust in being able to act out a scene, whether serious or comedic, but really big character work? it's hard! And maybe because of that is the most amazing?



My voice-memo recording on my iphone has been particularly useful! I usually forget what voice I was talking in immediately after doing it, but if I record it I can recreate it, no problem!  I made a video for the Second City training centre's Naked Fridays 7 Day Shorts competition purely because I thought to record the stupid shit I was saying to myself while getting ready for work. The voice-memo app also transfers your memos into mp3s and so I could just edit it directly onto a video in imovie!! COMPUTERS ARE THE BEST THING!!
I want them to put the vid up online so that I can post it here!! It's notbad notbad. And it's one of the first character voices I'm really into/proud of.

I'm so, so happy my mum's coming out for my Second City conservatory's final show in mid-june. Especially since now I'm getting a handle on being a good worker (yeah right) and figuring out how to present/perfect/defend/polish my ideas!
Exciting times!




these chocolate tools cost 28 cents with tax and Norman bought them for me, so they are the best. easter candy sales!!

this is just all I want to listen to today! anyone else? less than 8 months 'til Christmas and also my mum's coming to visit in a month and a half so that's good. who wants to drive us to stratford? I want to see Pirates of Penzance. Lately I feel like a weird old frumpy lady. I don't know why. I keep looking at my face and feeling annoyed. I'm hoping this will pass soon. I'm busy. Except not too busy to be watching a bit of tv. If you haven't seen Girls yet, you're missing out. Though it's only airing on HBO the whole first episode is on youtube right now. SO GOOD! but actually episode 2 is better so find that illegally and it's still sort of like supporting it... right? yes! sorry I have to go back to listening to luba now.

mixtape club march 2012

Mixtape Club!

we've not really been meeting as much as we'd first decided (monthly) but when we do manage to unite it's always fun and always delicious.


aperole cocktails!

Sweet, sweet beastly!

our lovely host


handsome men I know

fine times, wine times

twins. (not actual twins)


requisite self-photo dumb-face


digging in
we were treated to pasta with a really nice chickpea sauce kind of, I should get that recipe I thought it was real nice...


gluten-free donuts with mint julep ice cream. WHAT. whatwhatwhat.


phone break



classic face. I dig that necklace.




here I am in heaven. obviously.


Yep. I don't know what else to tell you except, get yourself a group of amazing humans and then meet with them for dinner parties and cocktails. then your life will be good.
you're welcome.





look at my dumb smug face.


I'm such a little gremlin pretty much all the time. It's okay it's okay.

Oh yeah guys,
White Panther Girlfriend has a set this Friday (April 20th) at the John Candy Box theatre at the second city training centre (70 peter street) at 9 p.m.
come on over and stuff thankyouuuuuuuu

niagaraaaaaaaa

Guys I bet you're wondering how my road trip went!
Well, it started out by me doing a good job on packing, see above.
Actually we didn't even drink the champagne because I got too tired. hahaaa classssic.


ROAD TRIP!!
I lovelovelove roadtrips. you can't really tell here but I really do. I smiled so much. Peever said, "It's nice to see you this happy". Yeahyeahyeah. Also happy here because Peevs brought me a "playoff gift", this Canucks tuque. Prettypretty nice guy there.




Our first stop was at Peller estates winery for lunch with my old school pal. I hadn't seen this lady in probably 4 or 5 years? Insane! I really missed her and so it was great to hug her up and chat about our lives.

Oh, also we ate SO MUCH great, great food. Peller was great with making all my food both gluten-free aaaand vegetarian. So helpful! So nice!
They even had gluten-free bread so I got to try the ice wine butter. NOM.
(I'm very awkward about all my food requirements and I actually hate and fear eating in most restaurants and so when people are especially nice/accepting/accommodating then I pretty much want to weep with gratitude.)

ughgughguhhh cheese plate.   :) :)

Tourist o'clock!
We actually had so much fun at the falls. I'm not surprised as we are two of the funnest people I've ever heard of, but I think we did an especially good job.

We got an amazing groupon (it was actually from Travelzoo, I believe) for our hotel room and it included
two king bed bedroom (I called window) suite on the 41st floor
cocktails in the evening (not awesome but hey, free drink is a free drink)
$50 Dave & Buster voucher
$40 voucher for either the keg or t.g.i.fridays
breakfast buffet

is that all? I don't remember. Anyway. Good deal!!!


this was the view from our hotel room. jeezily, hey?





Anyway. We did lots of things! We did Dave & Busters (won some sweet prizes!) and went up the Skylon tower and bowled and wandered around were complete tourists. So nice.





making it rain tickets we won at Dave & Busters! (we actually got so few prizes for that amount of tickets!)


I think these views are from the skylon tower? probably!



I was very, very excited and bent-set on riding the skywheel. It was nice.


Hotel room:

I put all the pillows on one bed. Obviously!


Jacuzzi tub -- if I could have just stayed a bit longer I probably would have lived in there. We had three sinks. God knows why but I for sure used them all just because.


Breakfast! Not bad not bad.

Maid of the mist looked a bit scary to ride on. Ragdoll, I think Peevs said about it.

Skylon tower photoshoot.

I'm not mad here, I've just got a lot of sun in my eyes!

Sigh sigh so pretty.

I started getting a bad cold in the evening, which was a bit of a piss-off but it wasn't the worst. I did get a bit grumbly, though.
And in the morning I was pretty grouchy but I'm getting better (a bit) at not being the worst grumbliest human and also peevs is good about being patient and for that I'm pretty grateful, gotta say.


this.
this is what we found in the St. Catherines Value Village. ughughghuhghh. An almost full set, even got the gravy bowl and platter and the creamer and sugarer! nice nice!


Also found this sweeeet Canucks shirt. Because I like sports paraphernalia now, I guess.


Anyway. If all romantic vacations are this fun then I guess I'd go on more.
Yeah, for sure I would.

Okay I leave you with this most nerdy picture. I apologize! (jk I don't)