I'm also still mad about that time she gave away my Buffy Sainte-Marie ticket.
Just in case you were wondering.
(Josh Cockerill with band at Dakota)
(JoshuaVT face)
(and Sarahb played a song with them!)
Walking home last night I said "life is so hard sometimes" and he said "Yeah?", surprising me that he didn't nod and nod, knowing exactly what I was getting at. Here I was thinking about this as a universal truth, I forget that to some people everything is fine. Always pretty even keeled, pretty steady and certain.
Still, I am not convinced they are any more sane than I am.
I've been drinking too much, trying not to judge myself too harshly on it.
It's not helping though (only making things worse). Except in the short term it helps a bit, maybe, because I keep getting bits of mini panic and bits of heart-racing and bits of wanting to throw things and the vodka does help for a few minutes, it helps in the right dosage. Have to keep track.
It must be the time of year.
Didn't leave the house today, didn't get dressed properly, didn't accomplish much of anything. A warmly welcomed break.
Ate rice pasta and cookies and drank big mugs of tea. Took my vitamins and drank enough water.
Time alone and barely speaking: perfect perfect.
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