9.30.2010

shops and glasses!

Apparently Mrs. is going to take me for a ride soon! To visit a store in the junction. I have never been to "the junction", I hear it is nice.
We are going to visit Russet and Empire.
I heard about this store from the Coriander Girl blog, and it just looks too nice not to pay a visit to.

Mrs. and I have have a special interest in these lovely little shops owned by cool young women as we are still very much considering opening a shop of our own but for babies and mums (read: I am trying to pressure Mrs. into going into business with me and she likes to be practical and smart about things ahahaaa).

Yeah I fully just stole all these photos off that blog, maybe I will take my own photos today if I am allowed, we will see.

Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Maybe I will buy some CHRISTMAS PRESENTS.

For Christmas this year I'm going to attempt to buy as much stuff vintage/second hand, or from smaller shops as possible. Or make as much stuff as possible. And I'm going to attempt to calm down about gifts and be okay with giving little things. Does that make sense?
I always plan more than I can handle and I go overboard with things like stockings and whatnots.


GUYSSS look what came in the mail

GLASSSES

I feel like they look different than the picture on the internet. I feel like they should put pictures of people in the glasses on the internet. Then you'd get a better sense.


I think I really like them, though. They are pretty overwhelming on my tiny face and are very dark and big, but that's kind of the good part. Sometimes your face doesn't need to be all exposed all the time.
Plus I'm like Wayne's World.

I want my other pair to come soon, too!

Clearly Contacts is clearly doing the giveaways to get good publicity and word-of-mouth marketing and I feel like it's working since it was Carlos' sister who showed me the glasses she'd got from them and so I ordered my contacts from them and then now I got super cheap glasses and man, glasses cost so much money normally.
Also, Clearly Contacts has been super-great at customer service and very very easy to use and I like the little extras that come with your order and how they just seem to actually want to do a good job.

Man, I got my last glasses and contacts (I bought two pairs of glasses plus a whole lot of contacts all at once because I'd just done a couple of commercials and felt like I could afford it) at Hakim Optical and MAN, WAS IT BAD SERVICE. Not bad in any particular way but bad because they just did not care at all and it was awkward and awkward shopping in there and everything took longer than expected. Just not a pleasant experience. Ha, sometimes I feel bad bad-mouthing things, but mostly not.

Oh, also, I want to say that I have a pretty easy prescription to fill and not-too-bad of eyes, so glasses have been pretty easy for me to wear. I can understand not wanting to pick out glasses off the internet if you are picky or have bad eyes in different ways. Obviously.



Hey, isn't it annoying that all summer there wasn't enough TV to watch and now it's all TV all the time and I don't have enough moments to watch all my favourites (and new favourites)?
Also, I still love Michael Pitt, especially right now in Boardwalk Empire. MMMMmichael Pitt.

9.29.2010

this seems the way it seems the way it seems is the way you want it to be

HI HI HI HI
sometimes friendships prove more like work than like good-for-yous.
It's hard to tell sometimes when that line is crossed.
Harder still to cut it off. But for the best? It's good to figure out what you do want, though. For comparison.


Yesterday I had a super lovely day in the afternoon I had brunch then coffee with Reggie then I worked then Flash Gordon and I went out for food/drinks at Java House.

I love that Flash Gordon pretty much all the time. And Reg is pretty genius, etc.

We had discussions about relationships and so on.

We discussed what we look for in romantic involvements.

A weird turn of thought happened today/yesterday/last week/tomorrow in terms of "relationships" for me. Someone pointed out that you're looking for a best friend.


AFUCKINGBESTFRIEND. WTF. BEST FRIEND.
what a novel idea??

Why is that so different than the idea I had before?

A BEST FRIEND.
NEW FAMILY MEMBER.


If you're going to go ahead and start something with someone (lord knows I never really do but always sort of want to in theory if its enough) it shouldn't be based on looks/talent/impressions.... it should be based on how much time you actually, technically want to spend that person. How at ease you are? How calmed down you are by them being around? How much smiling happens when you see them?

This theory, this is good.
I still will 100% not pretend I know anything about anything. Nor that I know how to go about things.
I DO NOT.

I had a time tonight at Dakota with Reg and Dollface and Prune and everyone else. I will quit pretending right now that I know anything about anything.

9.27.2010

one week, etc.

So I watched One Week the other night, and I really enjoyed it and I parts of it were kind of formulaic but I loved certain moments of it a whole lot.
Man, it did rip off Amélie, hey? I mean we all want to rip that movie off because it was pretty genius but I didn't really expect it from One Week.



I loved Joel Plaskett in it. So cute so cute. Also Gord Downie.

Also my bud Reggie is in it for a minute with a Newfie accent. Adorable.
This lead me to look at Reggie's IMDB site and on one of the discussion threads (why aren't there any discussion threads on my IMDB site???) a girl was said,
"Does he date many girls. If yes, what were they like? Thanks!"
and someone responded with

"Reggie only dates girls with huge hair.

make your hair huge."

Which I thought was genius.

All of this made me text Reggie as I have not seen him since the cottage when we kidnapped him and now I'm late for brunch with him.
I'm the worst at time!

Oh, but before I go -- I IDed a girl from Australia the other day and it said she live on Knapsack Street.
HOW WHIMSICAL AND LOVELY IS THAT??

KNAPSACK STREET.
That's where I want to live.

Aww man I only now just started feeling hung-over. Only a bit, though. But still. 

holyholy 3 months until christmas

so I maybe just bought another pair of glasses from Clearly Contacts sight unseen.
bbbbbbbut they were so cheap that it seemed unreasonable not to? They were %50 off their price for this weekend only. how could I not?


Also, I love glasses. Also, I love Toronto.

I miss Saskatchewan. I miss Saskatchewan so bad some days, yeah? Who's with me?
I served a woman today at the dome who lives in Esterhazy, who lived in Saskatoon for most of her life. I asked her how was Esterhazy she said "small".
Most places are hard sometimes.

I'm tiredtired. I don't know how much I was admitting to that until I typed it out. But I am exhausted. To the core. I haven't spent much time alone in weeks and weeks. Even tonight I should have and I didn't. It was fine and lovely and fun but man, I shouldn't have left the house.
Fall, ya know?

I feel like there's a distinct possibility that the babes I am into right now (or even people I see) are based on how it's fall, it's getting colder, Christmas is coming (I've never brought anyone to Christmas, and I have no real need to but I feel like I get nutso about the idea of family + true love + building traditions, holding something down, being a regular woman + having a cuddle + etc etc at this time of year), not on how I am really feeling, what I'm really wanting.
Oh, except everything is just about deciding how to feel.

There's a novel here that I'm supposed to be reading that I stole from Dollface Cottage called Consolation.
Everytime I see it I sing in my head or out loud (mostly out loud, I'm not the worst singer only medium-bad):
"There will be no consolation prize
this time the bone has broken clean
no baptism, no reprise
no sweet-tasting victory
all the stars have fallen from the sky
and everything else in between
sattelites have closed their eyes
the moon has gone to sleep"

that's my favourite part of that Jann Arden song. Always has been. ha! I've never owned a Jann Arden record. But sometimes I find her soothing. I feel like I should feel embarrassed about that.
Never mind.

I keep thinking of things to tell you but sometimes I wish this were still Diaryland and no one read it and I could write everythingeverything. Win some, lose some.

One thing I won:
Knowing about Burnett's Sweet Tea Vodka from steph. Delicious. I really really like the internet. I need to spend less time on it, though.

9.24.2010

chia chia chia chic

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GUYSES, it looks like I'm getting free glasses from clearly contacts! they were having a give-away! I mean, I couldn't try them on so who even knows how they'll look on me but I am still V excited! I love glasses! glassesglassesglasses
Plus my old dark plastic framed ones are broken and my clear plastic ones are less appealing ever since a babe said they looked like science goggles. HAHAHAHA not that much of a babe, apparently. I'm good at experimenting. No I'm not.
And my olden-timey ones aren't the most comfortable and sometimes they feel like they're a bit much.

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okok these are the ones I chose. Good? Yeah.

Anyway, I just have the pay the $15 shippping. Not too shabby. I've ordered my contacts from them before and always had super good service and they're into being really great and friendly and easy to use. Like it.
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Oh man, it's funny how easy it is to go from being like "my career's bad, nothing good will ever happen" to being with it again, positive.
Turns out it just takes two auditions in two days that go well and you look good for and having good hair.
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Man, good hair is hard to have. If you're me and have the thinnest, finest hairs ever which don't hold red dye for anything. But lately I've been doing an okay job of coming close to having the long luxurious hairs I've always dreamed of. and it's mostly kind of soft. When it's not dreadlocking itself rubbing on my shirt collars.

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Also good hair is kind of the only thing that matters in terms of being a pretty girl. No? Close though?
I wish I had natural curls and I wish my hair would grow longer and longer and be the shiniest ever. Pipe dreams.
Oh you don't care that much? 
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Today I had an audition for a TV show and I only had 1.5 lines and there was no character description to speak of. Those are kind of hard! Not much to go on. I felt okay about it and the guy said "great fucking read" which is nice and makes me feel better about it. Plus I felt like I had a good outfit on. I am THE WORST at dressing for auditions. I find it so painfully stressful.
I mean, I can normally outfit myself in real life but jeeeeezus all the restrictions on what you're supposed to wear and also how to keep a bit of personality plus cover up things you want covered (fat arms, etc.) plus no tears plus professionalish. Ughhghg. I honestly wish I had a stylist who would just decide for me in times like these.


I'm working today tomorrow, right through Wednesday, actually. Too much! Of course I deserve it since I was on vacation for two weeks there. But still.

Oh, also I have an embarrassing story for ya real quick.
I was on a date the other night. I rarely go out on dates. I mean, I hang out with dudes sometimes but rarely it is a date with someone I barely know. Bizarre sport, that. I resisted doing tequila shots and I resisted canceling I don't know how people do this on the regular.
ANYWAY, on the date I open up Facebook on my phone and of course the first thing that comes up is a picture of him. Which he saw. Obviously. Ughhh the last thing I'd been looking at (I was showing Dayna, actually, the night before) was his profile.
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Emmmmmbarrassing. But also funny.

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Today I bought some chia seeds because apparently they are a super food. I will eat them and get tough. I will get my omegas and my iron. They were very expensive. Most healthy things are. sshitty buzz, eh.
I forgot to pick up more quinoa. Speaking of expensive healthy things.

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Okok rambly entry I haven't even had coffee today although I did have so much coffee last night and beer at the same time and it was a sweet combination, I'll tell ya that.

my little bud from Saskatoon is in town and I'm going to Auntiesss with her in a few minutes here. I know I've knicknamed her on her but good lord knows what it is. She's cute, anyway.

I wish my new glasses were here now!
I wish I would have a billion more auditions and book everything!

9.21.2010

shorter days and longer nights

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I think it's that time of the year.

Yeah, I don't know what I mean by that.

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I need a new job. Anyone?
Come on now, I have skills. Sort of. I have bits of skills at least. I almost know how to serve and I almost know how to bartend. I once woked in retail. I know how to use a computer a bit but not Word or any other business program except Final Draft kind of. I am available occasionally but not in the days and not at late nights. Also, I want to have an occasional weekend day free.

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See, totally eligible for all the best jobs ever!

I'm still in a bad sort of mood, I feel stressed out by being double booked three times at work this week, and having to get out of shifts at one or the other.
And I feel mildly unhappy about where I am in my life and career and I feel stressed out about friendships I once relied on now maybe not being the best thing for me?

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Yeah, it's fall. The time of year where I go out less and hopefully get more done. I just want to make Christmas crafts and can things.

Summer seemed like a heartbeat, like it wasn't even here. Like it never settled in for me.
Apparently as you age your perception of time speeds up, so everything goes by so much quicker.
I would attest to that.
It makes some things easier and some things harder.

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It also means that it'll be very soon that I'm an actual adult who is good at interacting and good at going about life. In theory.

9.20.2010

GREAT MOOD!

I'm too irritable to type an entry. Ha!
Awesome.
Good luck to anyone who hangs out with me today! Just kidding?

I thought I was in a bad mood yesterday too and I just wanted to make crafts and watch movies but when the opportunity to do just those things but with Dayna and Vodka at Day's house, it turned out I wasn't too irritable at all.
Especially because Freaks and Geeks was involved. Man that show is ridiculously funny.
Very fun evening and I even got some snowflakes drawn. I can draw snowflakes for hours and hours and hours.

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9.17.2010

curried lentil quinoa soup! because it's fall!

and all of a sudden, it's fall! It's so fall around here. silly how it happens so quickly -- I wasn't quite done with summer, but on the other hand I have bought (way too many) clothes lately that are perfect for chillier temperatures and I'm excited to wear them!


okokok,

Curried Lentil and Quinoa Soup!

Man, I love soups, so much!

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I saw a recipe for this on the internet but then I just went ahead and made it however I felt (like always). I've actually made it a couple of times this week, both times a bit different, but anyway:

1/2 big onion
1 tbsp. butter
1tbsp. olive oil
2 cloves garlic (I didn't actually have any garlic but if I did I woulda put it in)
1 medium potato
half a red pepper
1/2 cup lentils
1/2 cup quinoa
2 cups vegetable broth
1/2 tsp. italian seasoning
1/2 tsp. cumin
1 - 2 tsp. curry powder

okay, I cut up the onion and sauteed it in the butter and olive oil (mixing olive oil with butter keeps the sweet buttery goodness but is slightly better for you? word on the street), I would add garlic then too... cooked that for awhile, until the onions were a bit soft then i added the diced potato and stirred it and kept an eye on it, then added the red pepper, cooked it up in the oil for a couple more minutes (nothing needs to be super precise imho).
Added the broth and the lentils and quinoa. At this point I just let it simmer on lower heat for about half an hour, you could get away with slightly less maybe? more never hurts as I like things mushy. Then I added the spices and simmered it a bit more, stirring it all up. I may have added more curry powder than that...
This makes enough for about 2 people plus a bit more? I don't know how hungry you are!

You can definitely adjust anything in this recipe to taste. I also think sweet potato would be good, any kind of pepper really, or zucchini? Fucking mix it up, ya know?

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SOUP!

Yes those are sugar cubes with icing roses on top, thanks for asking. Noodle got them for me. Did I say that already? I can't use them, they're too cute. I can't even open the box for fear they'll get dirty. My life is hard.

My mother left this morning to drive herself back to Saskatoon. She was very nervous about getting out of Toronto but we google-mapped it out and that was super-helpful. She said it was pretty easy and has made it pretty far already.
I'm pretty sad she's gone but I'm also very excited to have my place to myself again. I slept in until 1:30 p.m. to celebrate. I'm considering cleaning up to celebrate some more, but that might be pushing it.

For now I'm now going to have a cup of tea and a gluten-free ginger cookie and start my Christmas wishlist and Christmas planning. 
I'm hoping that this will FINALLY be the year where I get all the things done for Christmas that I'm planning for. A girl can dream (about Christmas every day).

Does anyone want to order some Christmas cards to give to their friends and family this year? I will make you some and they will be very beautiful!

Sorry if talking about that sort of thing at this time of year makes you furious! 

9.15.2010

indispensable

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Yeah so I'm obviously into apps.
I mean, not completely fully into apps, but pretty into them.
ha, shambers the other day said about Noodle "it's like she just has a cellphone not an iphone" it's true, though, if you're going to have an iphone/blackberry/android computer-phone you should use it to its full potential!

I even have photoshop on this little guy!

The app I used on these guys is called lo-mob. It's a bit like hipstamatic except I can apply the filters to any picture after it's already been taken. Plus there's like a billion filters and frames (too many? I know, a lot.) so you can play around and undo. PRETTY FUN.

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UMMMM,
Sam James Coffee Bar??
I can't even go there very often because I never look good enough to impress all the babes that hang out there! It's babe-city! Luckily it's right by my house so I can creep on them a lot.

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I went in there the other day after driving to Value Village and I had a bad headache and then the babe behind the counter passed me my cappucino with a heart in it and it fully made my day.

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Fully fully.
Awwwwwwwwwwwww.
It's totally worth it to get a fancy coffee instead of just brewed if it'll come with a design on top. And be passed to you by a babe.

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Without filter.

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These are just timer photos, actually another app has the timer feature for the camera (which I find indispensable), it's called CameraOne and it makes a bunch of other stuff customizable. Super handy, makes the iphone camera comparable to any point and shoot.
In fact I haven't used my point and shoot at all since getting this phone. Which is good since it's basically broken.

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I edited these with the photoshop app on my iphone, just for contrast and brightness, etc. So handy!
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Taken in the washroom at Mum's house. I'm into the curtains and plants and especially the wood-paneled ceilings, yeah?

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Okay brunch time now with mum, Dollface, and Mrs.
AUNTIES AND UNCLES I'VE MISSED YOU.

step into my booth let me let me

haaaaaahiiii


Once again I don't really have time to tell you about everything these days. My mum's still staying with me and she's trying to sleep while I type (wow, bachelor apartment, wow) and so she's probably pretty annoyed with me.



Today Prune and Flash Gordon and my mother and I went to Stratford. I have more to say about it but yeah, no time right now.



I bought a new app for my mini computer (iphone) which I'm kind into, the incredibooth! I lovelove photobooths, so it follows that I'm into this app. You're welcome for uploading such unflattering pictures of myself and those I love. !!!!



This week's been a bit of shitshow in terms of partying, also. In a fun way.. and I kind of hope/dread that it will continue into the weekend. Want to party? Let's do it!

9.12.2010

hangtenloosearoundeleven

dooooods guys, I'm busy!
I'm not really really busy I'm just mostly busy. I got back safe and sound from that wee roadtrip and since then I've been wooooorking and then paaaaaaartying and it's hard to find time for the internet! I love the internet. Also, my mum is staying with me and she's annoyed that I'm sitting behind her on the computer coughing and typing.

Luckily I'm going to SNEAKY DEE'S which I am all of a sudden SO IN THE MOOD FOR for no good reason. Weird, eh?
I leave you with this from Joey Ng on my FB in response to an earlier statement she'd made about Toronto having no good babes:
" There are plenty of babes in Toronto, note that I said good babes. As in babes we haven't already slept with nor burned bridges with nor those who are bound to.

Good babes.
Babes that just wanna bump Usher or The XX and drive you to In-and-Out with their hand in your lap then go home and watch some Zach Galifianakis and make out and do you right (sex-wise)."


SHIT SON, that does sound fun.

Here is Neys National park starring me and my mother: 
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okay ttyl hang loose